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clevermanka) wrote2020-11-01 09:28 am
clevermanka) wrote2020-11-01 09:28 am
Sunday
Two days left before so many things happen. I have so much to do. At least I already voted.
I'm swimming in emotions but at the same time feeling very disassociated--like a type of Cotard's syndrome. The fact that I'm only sleeping about five hours a night is probably not helping. I'm also not eating much (also not helping).
People are responding well to Deconstruction, though, which is gratifying and a huge comfort. From the comments, I think I managed to pull off Shen Wei's revised emotional arc to good satisfaction. Now if I can just stick the landing. Thirteen more chapters to go. Very relieved I was able to increase the posting schedule. I would not have wanted to post the particularly knifey chapters this week. A million thanks tosolo for setting aside time during this hell year to speedily power through the last of it so I could increase to three chapters a week without feeling nervous.
I feel for one anon commenter in particular who...idk, seems very young and doesn't yet understand that sometimes in relationships nobody is completely in the right or wrong. That sometimes we hurt each other even when we think we're doing the right thing. That sometimes what's best for one person isn't best for the other--or what is best for one person can hurt the other. I hope they figure it out eventually or they're gonna have a rough road when it comes to long-term relationships.
But I guess some of us have a rough time of it anyway, whether we know these things or not, so *emoji shrug*
Speaking of relationships, I can't believe every single item on my registry has already been purchased. Even the pricey knife holder I added late. Y'all are amazing and I am speechless from your generosity. Thank you, thank you.
Submitting my application for the English department job in a few minutes. Please 🤞🕯🙏 for me.
I'm swimming in emotions but at the same time feeling very disassociated--like a type of Cotard's syndrome. The fact that I'm only sleeping about five hours a night is probably not helping. I'm also not eating much (also not helping).
People are responding well to Deconstruction, though, which is gratifying and a huge comfort. From the comments, I think I managed to pull off Shen Wei's revised emotional arc to good satisfaction. Now if I can just stick the landing. Thirteen more chapters to go. Very relieved I was able to increase the posting schedule. I would not have wanted to post the particularly knifey chapters this week. A million thanks to
solo for setting aside time during this hell year to speedily power through the last of it so I could increase to three chapters a week without feeling nervous.I feel for one anon commenter in particular who...idk, seems very young and doesn't yet understand that sometimes in relationships nobody is completely in the right or wrong. That sometimes we hurt each other even when we think we're doing the right thing. That sometimes what's best for one person isn't best for the other--or what is best for one person can hurt the other. I hope they figure it out eventually or they're gonna have a rough road when it comes to long-term relationships.
But I guess some of us have a rough time of it anyway, whether we know these things or not, so *emoji shrug*
Speaking of relationships, I can't believe every single item on my registry has already been purchased. Even the pricey knife holder I added late. Y'all are amazing and I am speechless from your generosity. Thank you, thank you.
Submitting my application for the English department job in a few minutes. Please 🤞🕯🙏 for me.