Monday

[clevermanka]

Guardian/adjacent
I never noticed it before, but wow, they don't blink, do they?
Fanart: Blood and kisses. Soft knives. ZYL's feet in this are killing me softly. As usual no idea what's happening but I love the style.

Does the palace in Dixing have a specific name? I seem to remember reading it somewhere but I don't remember... Dijun Palace, maybe? I just realized I should maybe refer to it by name in the last chapter of Deconstruction. Help!

I told myself I'd mourn/process/recover from last week's news through the end of the month. Woke today thinking "okay today's the day you seriously start looking for jobs" and wanted to cry all morning until I realized it's only the 30th and I don't have to think about that until tomorrow. Doesn't bode well for Tuesday but that's a problem for tomorrow me.

Tired of not having any mental stamina. It's why I'm not signing up for the Sundial Exchange. Absolutely breaks my heart but... I know it's not a good idea. Not a fan of what prolonged grief and trauma on top of chronic illness has done to my mental faculties. I hate feeling so incapable and incompetent. Brain fog is horrible. I'm eating a little better though (or at least more), so hopefully that'll help.

And, you know, putting it out there, if anyone wants to start a fandom commune, I'll put my name in for housekeeper.😁 I always wanted to be a housewife, just... without the actual marriage business. I'm not a bad cook, either. And I give great back rubs. Just sayin'.

Comments

[shipperslist]

Yeah, Dijon Palace is what I've seen.

I'm sorry you're feeling bad although "feeling bad" sounds so lame.

[clevermanka]

Thank you! On both counts.

[wrote_and_writ]

If I can find a nice place not in the US, you’re the first person I’m calling.

[clevermanka]

[shipperslist]

...but please, don't name the Palace after mustard. *despairs over autocorrect*

[clevermanka]

LOL! Poor thing. I knew exactly what had happened.

[trobadora]

Dijun Palace is what I usually see, yeah.

All the hugs!

[clevermanka]

Thank you!

[calystarose]

You're not alone in wanting that fannish commune / golden girls retirement thing :D Deanna and I are planning for us to do that, with my mom along, and our friend Chris too when her parents pass and she needs to downsize her living. I think it's a great idea. When De still lived in NV, Kadymae and her husband were in the mix too. The general idea was to make a small neighborhood or multi-building homestead so that everyone could still have the space they need, but we'd all be close enough to share resources and help each other out. If/when any of that comes together I would love to add your name to the mix. You're an awesome person that I'd love to have nearby all the time even w/o the benefits of housework. :D

*hugs*

[clevermanka]

It feels really good to know people like and trust me enough to invite me into their fannish communes. ❤

[goss]

if anyone wants to start a fandom commune, I'll put my name in for housekeeper

That sounds heavenly. I volunteer to, er...bake cookies?

[clevermanka]

You can help design the buildings and then decorate them!

[goss]

I would love to do that!

[yantantether]

if anyone wants to start a fandom commune, I'll put my name in for housekeeper
*signs up* I can bake, and build flat pack furniture, and boot out spiders when required!

[clevermanka]

Oh yeah we definitely need a designated spider-eliminator because that's a BIG nope from me.

[nnozomi]

Hoping for clarity in the brain fog.
I would not make it in a fandom commune--I can just about stand living with one carefully selected fellow introvert--but if it were to materialize, I'd want to live close enough that I could come over to visit, sit on a stool in the kitchen to schmooze while you're cooking....

[clevermanka]

Oh, I definitely need my own apartment/small house where I can disappear for a few days at a time when necessary. I would love you to chat with me while I'm working in the kitchen!

[umadoshi]

boot out spiders when required!

This is an absolutely critical contribution! (The other skills are also excellent. But being the spider remover is what gets you the Wonder Woman icon.)

[umadoshi]

Fannish commune...! *wistful sigh* It would be so lovely.

I'm eating a little better though (or at least more), so hopefully that'll help.

It seems unlikely to hurt! *hugs*

Good luck with tomorrow! We're all cheering for you!

[calystarose]

absolutely (✿･ ◡ ･)❤

[clevermanka]

I actually slept through the night until a bit after 5am which is, frankly, a miracle, so I'm taking that as a good omen for December.

[khellekson]

If I didn't have a husband to take care of me, I'd be totally down with a fandom commune. It all sounds lovely, and I can personally attest that your back rubs are awesome.

[clevermanka]

Thank you, bb! I'm glad I could help you when you needed it. If only I had the physical stamina to do it on a regular basis for $$$.

[seascribble]

God, please come live with me and be my platonic housekeeper. I will feed and house you in a cute blue cottage by the north atlantic.

[clevermanka]

I mean, honestly? Figure out a way that gets me health insurance, a small place to live, and a very modest income and I'm there.

[seascribble]

If I had a kid or an old person, could probably have you on a carer's visa, but alas. When the border opens, you've got a guest room though.

[clevermanka]

You best believe as soon as I have energy and money to travel I'm headed north.

[naye]

I am just here with the GO YOU ON SELF-CARE pom-poms. Making choices that suck because you know they are right for you even if you don't want them to be is so hard and so wise. ♥ And Sundial is open for treats, so if you get overrun with creativity you can always browse the requests/letters and see if there's something you want to throw somebody's way.

[clevermanka]

Making choices that suck because you know they are right for you even if you don't want them to be
That seems to be A LOT of my life for the past... well, the past. I would like it to be less so in the future, please! 🤞

Thank you for the reminder of treats! That's a great idea.

[naye]

Fingers crossed for the future.

And yes! I did a ton of treats last year and everyone was very happy even when it was tiny stuff like five icons or a gifset. (So the textual equivalent of a couple of drabbles?) I was also lucky enough to receive two WONDERFUL treats and honestly, I am still blown away that two people did things for me not because the exchange made them but because they felt like it. ;__;

[naye]

OH OH and if you want to give people a chance to give you stuff you should sign up for fandomtrees - deadline tomorrow! It's entirely treat-based so there is no pressure.

[clevermanka]

Wow, I had no idea such a thing existed. I'll check it out, thank you!

eta: Oh wow! Looks like one of the mods for that is the person who did the cover for Deconstruction!

[naye]

WELL THEN. I think you have no choice but to go sign up! :D

[tinny]

*HUGS*

p.s.: Communes are cool!

[clevermanka]

Thank you!

Communes are fascinating. I took a university class on intentional communities and it was one of my favorite classes I ever took (helped that the professor was fantastic and a really cool person). I would still very much need my own space, though, and even a weekly general meeting would be more than I'd be willing to commit to. So I know I'm not actually a great candidate for one.