Thursday

[clevermanka]

Adorable Happy Lunar New Year art by yue_ix

This week's dump on cm.net.

Kind and encouraging words from a friend made me cry this morning, so it's that sort of day. Yay. Seriously considering throwing today's to-do list out the window and getting fucked up. It's been a while since I made a day of it, and if I get fucked up enough, I'll be able to sleep away at least part of the day. I didn't even get out of bed until after 9:30 so I'm already behind on my Done Before Noon.

I realize this is 100% avoidant behavior and probably not mentally healthy ('probably' 😂), but mental health is thin on the ground in these parts. As are less-destructive distractions. I never claimed to be a role model and I'm not gonna apologize or feel bad for finding escape where I can right now.

ETA: Still sober because the shop called to let me know my sewing machines were ready for pick-up. Since this is the warmest it's going to be for the next several days (currently 15F, feels like 8F) I went ahead and got them. It does feel good to drive around. I wish I could do it without the fear of getting into an accident lurking in the back of my mind.
In a Marco Polo message yesterday, I was finally able to articulate a bit of how my brain feels these days. It's something I've wanted to write about, but I can't hold onto thoughts long enough to write them down. Talking them out seemed to work, though. I'm sure it was very inspiring and uplifting (not). See what y'all are missing out on by not being one of my conversation partners on Marco Polo? 😁

undeadrobins gave me a great idea for Good Intentions, so if I can claw some sort of coherency out of my skull I'd like to get back into that. I also wrote some notes for Reconstruction that I'm digging. I think people are going to be surprised at how much Ye Zun there is in this fic. I know I am! Please come back, fic-writing brain! I'm begging, here.

I think if I was still in the house with McKitterick I'd be deep into a Hell Spiral. At least I'm staying above that for now. *dog-paddling furiously*

Comments

[moodsong]

I still can't write well on the computer. Writing longhand and talking seems to work though. Uses a different part of the brain or two.

[clevermanka]

Excellent! It's so good to have alternate ways to hash this stuff out.

[naye]

COME BACK MANKA'S FIC-WRITING BRAIN!!

Also yay for getting your sewing machines back.

[write_out]

HUGS!!! So glad you have outlets, legal and otherwise.

And yay for getting your machines back!

[clevermanka]

Oh my god that shrimp gif. 🧡 (is it a shrimp? I feel like it's a shrimp)

[naye]

It is a shrimp! Either the shrimp or the artist that makes the shrimp is called Pikaole and I love them.

[clevermanka]

[clevermanka]

It's so happy I love it.

[khellekson]

Please keep dog paddling, reach out especially if you need anything, and ENJOY where you are, when you are, and whom you are (not) with!

[khellekson]

Just dropping in to say that this shrimp is the cutest thing EVER, and watching it spin actively makes me happy. Thank you.

[clevermanka]

[redheadfae]

Perfect gif for these days, and hugs.