Wednesday Update

[clevermanka]

Guardian/adjacent:
First time I saw these I was like SHEN WEI and ZHAO YUNLAN had A SON!
The blue eyes on that first one creep me out but omg he's so fucking sexy.
I JUST WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY.
Fave looks.
Merch opportunity.
Fanart: On vacation! Novel!verse SID. OMG this clear card. Ineff's drawings as (kinda)storyboards for the novel.

Untamed/adjacent:
Fanart: More Modern CQL AU Wen Qing and Wen Ning.
 
I've spent the last several days at a 3. It's been great! I feel myself sliding back down to 2 this morning, and it's only a matter of time before I sink into a series of 1 days but god damn I'm sure enjoying these 3s while they're here.

I'm also eating anything I damn well please, which has been fun. It's a blast trying things like Thai carry-out, ice cream, and Doritos. I've gained back the ten pounds I lost when I had no appetite but who fuckin' cares. Ice cream only in tiny little bits at a time, maybe a half a cup a day, tops (usually just a few bites) but mmmm delicious and (so far!) no GI distress.

Writing is going GREAT which is absolutely contributing (probably wholly responsible) to the days at 3. Apparently getting out of my head for several hours a day is crucial to my mental well-being. Not the best long-term strategy, perhaps, but I'll take any flotation device in These Trying Times. The Deconstruction scene I wrapped up yesterday is so sweet and moving and domestic and soft. Ahhhhhhhh, it was lovely to write.

Need to start looking at my collection of bunnies that won't turn into another Table One saga. Why is it so difficult for me to sufficiently attach to a PWP enough to write it? Of course, I suppose whomever wins my offer on equalityauction will have some things to say about that, so that's good!

Comments

[goss]

no GI distress

As a fellow sufferer, that is indeed something to celebrate! Yay, tiny amounts of delicious ice cream! \o/

[clevermanka]

[wrote_and_writ]

I’m so greedy for that modern AU CQL! I wish the artist could clone themselves so one part could write a whole graphic novel version.

[clevermanka]

A graphic novel of that would be amazeballs.

[ride_4ever]

Watching your auction item intently. The only way I would lose that bid is if however high I bid someone jumps in a second before bids close and beats my bid. *stares anxiously at auction page*

[clevermanka]

LOL! Someone mentioned to me in an email they'd never seen you lose an auction so I'd best brush off my dS writing hat! 😄

[ride_4ever]

They've never seen me lose an auction in fandom because it's never happened except for the rare times when it was online and timed-out before I could continue bidding. I have literally NEVER lost a live auction (i.e., at a fancon). I am infamous in fandom for never giving up on a bid as long as the bidding is open.

And what you write is so much my thing I can't even! As you said in your auction offer: "Fraser/RayK. My strengths lie pretty firmly in porn with feels. I like to write mutual pining and can deliver angst with a happy ending."

[clevermanka]

LOL well you'll get my first Fraser/RayK, then! 😅😅😅

[ride_4ever]

Your F/K cherry? Heh.

[clevermanka]

[ride_4ever]

And my response to that is: *points to icon*

[undeadrobins]

I always feel better when I'm able to write. But writing makes me feel better, so sometimes it's a vicious circle...

[clevermanka]

YES and god it just makes those times when you just. can't. think. to write so incredibly terrifying.

[nnozomi]

So glad you have been at 3 (or <3), hope it continues. good writing time and Thai food and ice cream! mmm
also your card arrived, thank you so much! It's lovely and your handwriting is gorgeous. (I'm ashamed of my scrawly postcard handwriting, but even teaching school didn't get me writing neatly, nothing ever will...)

[clevermanka]

Aw, thank you! My handwriting is A Whole Thing.

My mother criticized my handwriting when I was, like, eleven (both my parents have gorgeous handwriting, still, in their 70s) so in retaliation, I filled several spiral notebooks with how I wanted my writing to look. Just copied any book that would lie flat and open and wrote and wrote and wrote.

Nowadays I have good handwriting days and bad ones because of fatigue issues. Which is why it sometimes takes me so long to send cards! I gotta wait for good handwriting days. 😆 It makes me feel good to know my pre-teen efforts at having a good hand are still paying off.

I like how my cursive and print look so different from each other. My mom uses cursive and my dad prints and I wanted to be good at both, darn it, so... and I like playing with my handwriting in my collage art to make it look purposefully spiky and less controlled (a good example here.

Lettering/fonts/handwriting fascinates me!

[nnozomi]

Neat! I love that you can make it more or less graceful at will depending on the effect you want (thanks to the pre-teen efforts, I guess). I've worked with enough DTP people to like fonts a lot, but anything handwritten is beyond me.
Bad handwriting has just one or two advantages--when I was a company employee I used to write fic during long boring presentations, secure in the fact that nobody around me would be able to untangle my handwriting to figure out that what I was writing had nothing to do with work. (Like Cassandra Mortmain showing her diary to Simon ;) )
Oh, and I noticed you kindly put a bit of music on the card too, and now I'm trying to remember what the piece is because it's on the tip of my mind!

[clevermanka]

A definite advantage!

It's Sheryl Crow'sSteve McQueen which really, really dates me. 😆

[tinny]

I just want them to be happy, too.

Choosing a favorite picture is *impossible*! (Also, I just chose 34 yellow pics of them and I need a break from decision-making. :))

Apparently getting out of my head for several hours a day is crucial to my mental well-being. Not the best long-term strategy, perhaps, but I'll take any flotation device in These Trying Times.

I think it's a very good strategy. Writing is creative, and engaging your brain, and it gives you back something later, when you read it over and when people give you feedback for it. It's all around a healthy thing to be doing with your brain. I mean, we all need something to cling to and to allow us some form of escape, and I can think of so many less healthy and less wholesome things. (I personally am happy to be addicted to fandom, considering.)

Ahhhhhhhh, it was lovely to write.

That is so great! <3

[clevermanka]

I can think of so many less healthy and less wholesome things.
Yes, well, I never said I don't also use a few of those from a little more than time to time...