Wednesday

[clevermanka]

Guardian/adjacent:
Zhu Yilong's new Tom Ford ads sure are something.
Shen Wei's fantastic lying skills. (I want a copy of this)
Fanart: Domestic bliss. Date night! Novelverse Kunlun animation. SID family animation. bb!Shen Wei.

I had high hopes of instituting a new schedule for myself and McKitterick. It's been a couple weeks for us both of being listless and unproductive and while that's certainly nothing to be down on oneself about, we both feel so much better when we're doing something. I wanted to try an experiment of not interacting much during the day. He does his thing, I do mine, no shared meals until dinner--kinda like when we both had jobs.

And Monday was... fine? I did a little bit of writing on both projects I've got going right now but it took me about twice as long to write half the words I used to. Tuesday, though, my brain felt, idk, wrong. Slow, heavy, clumsy. Couldn't write anything. I went to bed in the late afternoon, not because I was tired (an unusual state for me these days) but because I just needed to feel like I didn't exist in the world for a little while. And then I slept for two hours. This morning I was supposed to go to KC early to hit Costco during the Olds and Invalids Hour but I woke with a weird headache, like the air was pressing on me harder than usual (it's sunny with no expected weather). I didn't even get out of bed until 9:45--more than two hours later than usual.

Not real sure what's going on with my brain/hormones/mood. Can't say I care for it. Hopefully will make it to early Costco hours tomorrow.

Comments

[wrote_and_writ]

I’m going to miss seeing Zhu Yilong on bus stop ads and in the yogurt aisle, but at least I’ll have the internet.

[clevermanka]

Thank dogs for the internet!

[wrote_and_writ]

OMG yes! If this were pioneer times (i.e. like the 90’s), I don’t think I could have been as brave.

[clevermanka]

The only things that would have made the current Trying Times bearable for me in the 90s would've been living in my beloved old house (Ghost Story's house) and my reliable weed connection.

[naye]

I am sending no-headache vibes your way, and hope that the air will lighten up. ♥

[clevermanka]

Thank you, bb. ❤

[nnozomi]

*hugs* I hope you are feeling better or will be soon. (I sort of know what you mean--my brain has been basically okay but I've been sleeping badly/waking up with headaches and general physical misery recently, poor sleep previously not a thing for me, and I don't know if it's temperatures in the high 90s or time-of-life stuff or 2020 in general or what, but it's sure as hell something. I'm pinning my hopes on autumn.) Take it easy and be good to yourself.

[clevermanka]

Thank you, bb. I made it to Costo this morning and I'm pretty tired now, but it felt good to be out in the world for a little while. I hope your physical misery and bad sleeping ease up soon.

[tinny]

The Tom Ford ads are wtf at first until you realize he's reciting love poems (or something like it). Oi.

The "lying" vid is hilarious.

Thank you! <3

I hope you feel better by now. I felt weirdly down most of the week, too, and not sure why.

[clevermanka]

"or something like it" 😂