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clevermanka) wrote2020-12-04 10:34 am
clevermanka) wrote2020-12-04 10:34 am
Friday
Guardian/adjacent
Fanart: A soft moment between Kunlun and Little Ghost King. I'm in love with the idea of them both being angels. Wedding!
I found a picture of someone (not me!) sitting on the roof the Ghost Story house. That's the exact same window Zhao Yunlan crawled out of, too (the other window is at the top of the stairs between first and second floors). I miss that house an unreasonable amount. Oh nostalgia.
Been waking full of dread and... I guess not panic anymore. Despair? When I put myself in the mindset of a capitalist employer I have to acknowledge I wouldn't hire me and it's... not encouraging. Living in a system where one is only valued for what one can produce (and for how long) is pretty demoralizing. Obviously this isn't news, but it seems to hit me especially strong first thing in the morning.
I'm feeling really... idk... alone in the world. Yes I really really wanna kiss someone a lot and I'm so touch-starved my skin aches. But it hit me this morning when I opened the lease that my landlord finally sent me (renting from friends, such a trip) I realized I... don't... have... an emergency contact? Like, wow, that sure was something to realize at 9am on Friday. eta: a local friend volunteered for the position. ❤
Also the minuscule amount of exercise I've done on the rowing machine has caused my hip pain to flare up. It's not DOMS (god I'd love for it to be DOMS), but a sharp, hot ache that feels rooted in the hip joint. Like sciatica but deeper. And I just... I don't know what else to do. I can't walk--walking exacerbates the pain in my back/SI joint. And now the rowing machine wreaks havoc on my hip.
Fifty years old and I feel like a frail old lady. This inability to move my body does not bode well for avoiding my mother's fate. She's only 72, has to use a walker, can't stand up straight anymore, and is in constant pain. I don't want to find myself there, but I'm running out of ideas on how to avoid it.
Ugh, I think today's gonna be hard. Well, so as not to end this on a downer:
resonant is doing the "ask me to talk about" posting thing. I asked what Brian Johnson and John Bender are up to these days and got this wonderful response. If you're someone else who has soft feelings for The Breakfast Club, and you've never read Higher Education, please consider rectifying that immediately.
Fanart: A soft moment between Kunlun and Little Ghost King. I'm in love with the idea of them both being angels. Wedding!
I found a picture of someone (not me!) sitting on the roof the Ghost Story house. That's the exact same window Zhao Yunlan crawled out of, too (the other window is at the top of the stairs between first and second floors). I miss that house an unreasonable amount. Oh nostalgia.
Been waking full of dread and... I guess not panic anymore. Despair? When I put myself in the mindset of a capitalist employer I have to acknowledge I wouldn't hire me and it's... not encouraging. Living in a system where one is only valued for what one can produce (and for how long) is pretty demoralizing. Obviously this isn't news, but it seems to hit me especially strong first thing in the morning.
I'm feeling really... idk... alone in the world. Yes I really really wanna kiss someone a lot and I'm so touch-starved my skin aches. But it hit me this morning when I opened the lease that my landlord finally sent me (renting from friends, such a trip) I realized I... don't... have... an emergency contact? Like, wow, that sure was something to realize at 9am on Friday. eta: a local friend volunteered for the position. ❤
Also the minuscule amount of exercise I've done on the rowing machine has caused my hip pain to flare up. It's not DOMS (god I'd love for it to be DOMS), but a sharp, hot ache that feels rooted in the hip joint. Like sciatica but deeper. And I just... I don't know what else to do. I can't walk--walking exacerbates the pain in my back/SI joint. And now the rowing machine wreaks havoc on my hip.
Fifty years old and I feel like a frail old lady. This inability to move my body does not bode well for avoiding my mother's fate. She's only 72, has to use a walker, can't stand up straight anymore, and is in constant pain. I don't want to find myself there, but I'm running out of ideas on how to avoid it.
Ugh, I think today's gonna be hard. Well, so as not to end this on a downer:
resonant is doing the "ask me to talk about" posting thing. I asked what Brian Johnson and John Bender are up to these days and got this wonderful response. If you're someone else who has soft feelings for The Breakfast Club, and you've never read Higher Education, please consider rectifying that immediately.
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<3
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i loooooove higher education so much. thank you for asking that lovely question - the response was indeed wonderful!
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the love for the house came through so loud and clear
❤❤❤❤❤