Sunday Snippet, et. al.

[clevermanka]

DragonCityInteriorDesign on Tumblr is both providing a service and being hilarious--my favorite combo.

Things are fucking grim everywhere so I'm basically letting slide anything not in my control. It feels like denial but I'm told that's healthy? idk, sounds fake but ok.

Since I am resolved to finish Redemption by the end of the year, I'm forcing myself to write every day and I'm averaging about 300 words a day. If I could boost that to 500 I'd feel confident about my goal. We'll see.

“So what do we do?” Da Qing asked, pressing against Zhao Yunlan’s back, close enough to nearly trip him. “Where does the bastard live?”

Said bastard's warning against sneaking a guest to Dixing rang in Zhao Yunlan’s memory. He glanced over his shoulder at Da Qing’s fierce but worried face. Technically, Zhao Yunlan wasn’t sneaking. He was blatantly bringing a guest to Dixing.

“I don’t think it’s a good idea to seek him out,” he muttered. “Let’s see if there’s anyone still hanging out on the common grounds. Stay in human form. I don’t think many of these people have ever seen a cat.”

Comments

[msmitti]

I think letting go of things that you can't effect is probably a good way to save your very limited energy. If that changes, then your level of engagement can change with it. I applaud you for doing the hard thing, even though it feels fake to you.

[clevermanka]

*nod* That's the attitude I'm taking. Paying attention to anything beyond my immediate capabilities drains me to the point where I harm myself through lack of sleep, movement, food, etc., and that doesn't help anyone or anything so why do it?

[minoanmiss]

It's healthy. *sends you good vibes*

[clevermanka]

Thanks, bb. I'm trying to acknowledge the discomfort from disengaging instead of going back to doing the thing that was sucking the life from me even though it feels emotionally safer. God, what a process.

[umadoshi]

Technically, Zhao Yunlan wasn’t sneaking. He was blatantly bringing a guest to Dixing.

Very different things, clearly! ^_-

[clevermanka]

Lifted straight out of this scene that I love so much.

[miss_ingno]

I am 👀👀👀 at that snippet. Good luck with the writing! Hopefully the muse will bring a word boost soon because this story sounds very exciting <3

[clevermanka]

Thank you so much for the encouragement! It helps a lot. (this was from the current monster WIP--Deconstruction of Hei Pao Shi's sequel)

[kazoogrrl]

I think letting things slide sounds like a perfectly fine way to cope. I decided to just give the fuck up and faceplant right into the KinnPorsche fandom, which was made a lot easier by the episode from this last weekend. Do I need something else to think about? No. Is there a sex scene looping through my brain as a coping comfort mechanism? Most possibly yes.

I'm here cheering on your writing!

[clevermanka]

I tried this back in May, but it didn't stick. Gonna have to more aggressively pursue a mentality of distance which... talk about a weird tightrope.

KinnPorche and VegasPete have infiltrated my tl and while I've yet to find a Thai BL that speaks to me, the gifs from both of them are pretty darn compelling.

Thank you for the cheering! Everyone talks this "write for yourself" business but sorry not sorry I need the external support and encouragement to keep going.

[kazoogrrl]

I had mostly avoided them because they always felt really . . . immature? And full of weird tropes. I gave Bad Buddy a try and liked it, and a friend is sharing her log in for KP so why not? Which, ok maybe it's because I mostly watch kdramas and they are pretty chaste, and then then cdramas which are just full of eye-fucking, but the actual sex scenes in this show had me clutching my pearls in a delighted way. It's more of a romance with a mafia storyline, and it's goofy in places. There are definitely some consent issues, but as a Hannibal fan I just roll with that up to a point and it hasn't crossed my line yet.

Hey, I am pro external motivators! I'm like that with dancing, I do so much better if I have a goal or deadline to work towards. Oh, and thanks for that Tumblr link up there, it was HILARIOUS: "Chu-ge is just sitting back there with his feet up on his desk and his little puppet buddy on his knees, brushing his puppet’s hair and absolutely refusing to engage in any gay drama he himself did not start."

[clevermanka]

as a Hannibal fan I just roll with that
😂 *fistbump*

[nnozomi]

I'm basically letting slide anything not in my control. It feels like denial but I'm told that's healthy?
Sounds like the only way to stay healthy at this point, seriously. I'm there with you.

Technically, Zhao Yunlan wasn’t sneaking. He was blatantly bringing a guest to Dixing.
I like this whole snippet a lot, but especially this dry little callback to Da Qing's "I'm not stealing your snacks, I'm openly eating them RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU" line! (Also, now I want Da Qing introducing a whole tribe of kittens to Dixing...)

[clevermanka]

I'm so happy someone picked up on the canon reference! (and oh my gosh I love the idea of him introducing kitties to Dixing)

Best wishes and solidarity avoiding focus on things you can't control.

[naye]

Thank you for bringing that Tumblr to my attention! Instant follow.

Also instant love or "Technically, Zhao Yunlan wasn’t sneaking. He was blatantly bringing a guest to Dixing." OMG ZHAO YUNLAN. dgkjgkjlfkdlk

[clevermanka]

It's such a great Tumblr! I don't know how long they can keep up that level of content production but I'm sure enjoying it while they are.

And thank you! I love it when a line feels great as I'm writing it.