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clevermanka) wrote2024-02-04 03:00 pm
clevermanka) wrote2024-02-04 03:00 pm
On the regular
Last week's sinus problems were (I think/hope) caused by too much dry air. Every week I descale my humidifier by letting it soak in vinegar. Lawrence has really hard water and I think it's getting worse because I've lately had to soak it for 24 hours instead of just overnight. Apparently that was too long to go without adding moisture to the air because after three days of running it full blast my sinus pressure had decreased. Yay for that but also I can't just... stop? cleaning it? So idk, crossing fingers and hoping for the best which seems to be all I can do about most things these days.
I've come to the distressing realization that I've lost the ability to converse like a normal person about normal person things. I don't watch shows, I rarely read, and when I do it's mostly about writing, tarot, or emotional/internal stuff. I don't go anywhere. I don't have any actual activities other than just existing. Turns out when years pass where 90% of what you do happens in your own head it kinda destroys your ability to just... chat. If I had the spare energy I'd take the opportunity to re-learn how to engage in casual dialogue but anything I've got has to go to writing (or the business thereof).
At least tarot readings (the type I do anyway) are all about internal life stuff so I can still do those! But laid-back conversations like "hey what've you been up to?" are hugely difficult for me. It's very weird to have yet another layer of isolation laid over the obvious, logistical ones.
Speaking of writing, I'm over halfway through the final edits of the first book. At some point I really gotta start on the marketing work.
God damn what I'd do to be able to work a regular job. Talk like a regular person. Live something like a regular life.
I've come to the distressing realization that I've lost the ability to converse like a normal person about normal person things. I don't watch shows, I rarely read, and when I do it's mostly about writing, tarot, or emotional/internal stuff. I don't go anywhere. I don't have any actual activities other than just existing. Turns out when years pass where 90% of what you do happens in your own head it kinda destroys your ability to just... chat. If I had the spare energy I'd take the opportunity to re-learn how to engage in casual dialogue but anything I've got has to go to writing (or the business thereof).
At least tarot readings (the type I do anyway) are all about internal life stuff so I can still do those! But laid-back conversations like "hey what've you been up to?" are hugely difficult for me. It's very weird to have yet another layer of isolation laid over the obvious, logistical ones.
Speaking of writing, I'm over halfway through the final edits of the first book. At some point I really gotta start on the marketing work.
God damn what I'd do to be able to work a regular job. Talk like a regular person. Live something like a regular life.
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It's very weird to have yet another layer of isolation laid over the obvious, logistical ones.
Unsurprising, but no less hard for that.
Speaking of writing, I'm over halfway through the final edits of the first book.
This, though, is excellent news! ^_^
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