clevermanka | Off for the weekend (edit: Maybe)

Leaving this afternoon for the Cassandra workshop in St. Louis this weekend. Bleh. I really don't feel like going. At all. I have waaaaaay too much on my plate without being away for two days. Suxxor. Plus, I'm out of town next weekend for Mommy's graduation, and no way I would or could back out of that. But I loathe being out of town two weekends in a row. Especially when I'm up to my ears in other crap.

AAAAGH! Yet another item that makes me not want to go to STL just popped into my office. One of my all time favorite grad students is in town (from Minnesota) to defend today and told me she's having a big party tonight. It's probably the last time she'll ever be in Lawrence and she's only staying for the weekend. God damn it. I don't know ...oh fantastic. She just came back in the office with a present for me for helping her (you know, doing my job). This absolutely gorgeous art book. Oh man.

I'm so tempted to take Jo the $50 for the workshop registration and say "Here, use this to pay for my spot in the class if it means you won't get the discount rate. If you don't need it for that, use it to pay for gas or hotel costs. Whatever." I just Don't. Want. To. Go.

Advice? Opinions?

EDIT: Just found out that an old friend is in from out of town at

kristinb615's place. Sheesh. I'm thinking all I need's a lightning strike to tell me to stay home.
ALSO EDIT: And if I stayed in town this weekend, I could make one more batch of brownies for

stuology before Ada arrives...
AND ANOTHER EDIT: You know, here I was badmouthing Brezsny's horoscope for me this week and now I find it creepily accurate.

thefridayfive
1. You have the summer and plenty of money to travel abroad. Where all would you go? Greece, Turkey, Kenya,
2. What foods would you be sure you got to eat? Ones that had been properly prepared.
3. What landmarks would you be sure you got to see? The Parthenon, Hagia Sophia, Mt. Kilimanjaro.
4. What airline would you use? Um. A good one?
5. Would your knowledge of other languages influence where you went? (i.e. would you be more likely to go to France if you spoke French?)Nope.

fridayfiver
1. Cola: Diet Dr. Pepper, with Diet Vanilla Coke a close second.
2. Sneakers: Chuck Taylor All-Stars.
3. Hair care: Aveda.
4. Small electronics: Don't have a favorite, but I've probably purchased more Sony stuff than anything else over the years.
5. Automobile: Depends on the type of auto. I love my little Honda, though.

flydayfyve
1. Are you prone to fits of depression? I used to get what my mom called "the blue fugues" but I haven't had any for a long time now.
2. What triggers them? I really think the messed up thyroid caused a lot of it. I haven't even had to take Wellbutrin for my SAD since I've been on the Levoxyl.
3. What is your favorite way of 'self-medicating'? Dolly Madison Powdered Sugar Gem Donuts.
4. When was your "darkest" period - a time in your life when you had more fits of depression than before or since? The three or four years leading up to being diagnosed with hypothyroidism. I'd get the blue fugues every couple months or so.
5. What has changed since then? A doctor who listened to me, Levoxyl, and life circumstances.

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You know, I'd go with your gut-feeling. You don't want to go; maybe it's a good idea not to. Just a hunch. Sometimes your unconscious is just dead-on.

And just my tuppence.

then don't.

;)

I just feel bad for backing out, you know? I'm not one to back out of stuff. But I already decided not to perform in the show...I suppose it's a small step to back out of going altogether.

Damn it! Why I gotta be so guilty about stuff? I wasn't raised Catholic and I'm not Jewish. =/ What gives????

Yeah, usually my instincts are dead-on. Waffle, waffle. I've got 4 hours to make up my mind.

I know that feeling. Been there, done that. In my case, I had promised to share a room, but ended up in my own (party because I wanted it, partly because the con needed the room numbers). I sopped my conscience the same way you are suggesting.

Do what you know will make you happier. Let go of guilt (I know it's hard). I'm sure they will understand. BTW, I'm sending you an email.

eh. Don't go.

And, no guilt, either, especially if you''re going to pay the $50.

Have fun this weekend.

Well, hope it works out for you, dear!

*hugs*

My opinion... don't go. It would be above-and-beyond for you to offer Jo the $$ in order to get the discount for the group, but how much is the discount? $5 a student? If that's all it is, I wouldn't think it's that big a deal and she'll get over it. It would be very nice of you to offer that, but I don't think it should be expected. Stuff happens. Life interferes with our fun.

If you're stressing out, don't do it. You won't enjoy it and you won't get as much out of it if you're stressed out. You'll have other opportunities to study with Cassandra - how many more opportunities will you have to see this friend? None probably.

Carpe Diem.

Your gut is correct. Stay in town this weekend. Otherwise, you will stress over things you need/want to be doing with no way to do them.

Coming from a dancer, your words make me feel much better about even considering backing out. Thanks, hon.

I sopped my conscience the same way you are suggesting
Nothing like throwing money at a problem, eh? We're such good little liberals. =D

Yeah, I'm definitely leaning that way at this point.

No guilt! No guilt! I tell this to other people all the time. I need to take my own damn advice.

Hmmmm...I think it's called a conscience. I'm not Catholic or Jewish either but I think it's ingrained in all hedonists. Hey we all have to have obstacles to overcome, right? ;)

If you're going to the dance workshop for FUN and you're not looking forward to it...then you won't have FUN. I'll bet you're friends with the other dancers and they will understand. It's not like you're committed to perform anything right?

Stay home, lighten up and do what the fuck you want...like any good hedonist should. ;)

Yup. I'm decided about 75% in favor of backing out at this point.

Hehe.

Will another "follow your gut" recommendation push it up a couple of more percent :)?

Seriously, it sounds like at this point if you did go you would not enjoy yourself. Follow your gut!

Fuck guilt.

Guilt is just there to waste your time and annoy the pig.

Don't be the pig.

You are not fucking anyone over by not performing. Something came up that is frankly more important to you. If you take the money to Jo, it should be no harm no foul.

Tell her the absolute truth. You are not up to going emotionally/mentally, you need to take some time for you or you are going to start killing people.

Then drink one for me at the party.

Love you. Don't do this to yourself.

And if you need it, I give you permission to not go. And I give you permission to stop kicking yourself over it.

You are an adult, single and free of obligation. Do only what you will.

D.

You're a doll. =) Thanks.

Um, yeah. What they all said.

:)

I personally know you have more than one kind of intuition.
If your gut says Don't Go...

Then find what else it is that you should be doing
(or NOT DOING, remember to have some down time.)

Take care of you!

Stay in town. It sounds like the universe is overwhelmingly in favor of it!!!

I don't even know you, but you SO rock!
:-)
If that doesn't get her to ease up on herself, nothing will.

Yes,

rougewench rocks many of our worlds. =)

I need to take my own damn advice.

Isn't that just the hardest pill of all to swallow?

Always.

My personal worst one is "You're rarely able to choose your situation, but you're always free to choose your own reaction to it." So easy to say, to conceptualize, so hard in practice.

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