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[clevermanka]

I'm mildly depressed. Just enough to be lazy and morose. And irritable. Looking at my 39 to 40 photo project, I haven't smiled with teeth for a photo since November 11. Boo.

This weather sucks. Yes, yes, many many people have it worse. I know this. But fuck that. It's like saying "clean your plate because children in Africa are starving." So what? How does that affect what I'm experiencing right now? I hate winter, I hate cold, I hate snow, and I hate all of this shit we're getting right now. I don't live in the northern climates for a reason, and this is it. You can take your "True Winter" and shove it. I am not used to this and I don't want to be used to it. Some people like this weather. Fine. I'm not saying you're wrong. I'm saying my opinion is that it stinks.

My body is fat and flabby. I am taking steps to change this, but change is slow. Good change, anyway. Slow. Like me. Bleh.

I need time away from the office. My countdown to vacation was suspended and I wasn't at all pleased about it. I know I made the right decision to postpone--and yes, it was 100% my decision, but that doesn't mean I was happy about it. It's not even that my job is driving me crazy. Being productive at home, in my personal life, is important to me. I'm trying to get a tiny little bit done every evening, but it's not fulfilling since I can't devote all my attention to the moment. That'll change soon when mckitterick returns to an evening teaching schedule for the semester.

Edit: Oh, and I have a giant pimple buried deep in the skin on my chin. It itches, aches, and is not helping my attitude.

So anyway, I have the ennui. I was paging through saved photos on the camera and found these that made me laugh when I took the photo.


mckitterick and I were driving around town on Thanksgiving Day and saw this collection in a driveway on the south side of town. You know you're in the midwest when the black sheep of the family drives a Smart Car.


This was posted outside of the ghetto-looking parking garage where we left the car during the Ludo concert in Columbia, MO. Random!


Depressing and funny at the same time.


For months (years?) mckitterick couldn't figure out why the GPS on the telescope was so off. He finally checked it to see where the telescope thought it was and figured out why the poor thing could never find things on the first try.

Comments

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

You don't have to like the cold. Your pictures are funny. Days are getting longer, it was still light all the way home last night!

[ms-danson.livejournal.com]

This winter has been odd. You folks down south and Britian have been getting nailed and we... not much at all. Weird. You seem to have found our missing winter. (We don't want it back.)

Photos: *snerk*

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank goodness for longer days. Here's to long, warm days!

*clink*

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

The Kabul one still cracks me up. Poor, confused telescope!

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

Cheeres to that!

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

Apparently the telescope went for the nearest loaded setting to "BumFark Egypt"!

The smartcar caption made my day. Count two points for making people laugh today!

And I know exactly what you mean about personal accomplishments, I feel the same way about creative endeavors. I get "bunged up" when I can't express it in some way, no matter how small, like a pair of earrings even.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I know exactly what you mean about personal accomplishments

I know you have some similar obstacles with this particular issue, too. We have awesome super partners who want to spend every moment of every available evening with us.

What a problem to have, right?

But gah! I just wanna fucking sew a skirt already. Five uninterrupted hours in the sewing room. That's it! God. And then I feel like an asshole for asking for it when I know his free time is going to disappear in 3..2..1...

Nngngngngng.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

LOL.. how true!
OH! Poor us, our sweeties give us too much attention!

Ahemn. Yah. It's a problem.
I can't tell you how happy I am to have him oncall and having to work one weekend day a month now.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Ah ha ha ha ha! Lucky girl!!!

We're terrible. *g*

[sdemory.livejournal.com]

Fimbulwinter has definitely been a thing, hasn't it? I've gotten tired of killing cold, and I like the winter.

If you'd like, I can unlimber a horrific joke. It's the joke equivalent of a WMD: can't be used in civilized society and will make the owner a pariah among right-thinking people.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

It's the joke equivalent of a WMD: can't be used in civilized society and will make the owner a pariah among right-thinking people.

Buddy, you are in the right place. Bring it on.

[sdemory.livejournal.com]

What's the difference between Sarah Palin's vagina and her mouth?

Her vagina's only had one retarded thing come out of it.

Welcome to the Axis of Evil, my dear. Anticipate UN sanctions for possessing this joke.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

You are going to hell and now you are dragging me down with you.

[funky-peacenik.livejournal.com]

That is so amazing, I think I broke a vow by laughing at it!!

[sdemory.livejournal.com]

Made you laugh, though. Or, at the very least, a shocked snerk.

The worst thing about the joke is that it demands retelling. It's insidious.

[razorart.livejournal.com]

I detest winter, too...detest being cold...detest the fact that sidewalks and streets are not really walkable (though I will make the attempt anyway). In NY it was so freaking cold and you are outside more. I waited 20 minutes for the bus and was so angry, I started talking to myself. That was a low point, but still! Fuck this weather.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

If only I wasn't so conditioned to react against the use of "retarded" to mean "ignorant/stupid."

*shakes tiny fist in anger*

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Yeah, some welcome home, eh?

Blargh.

Hey, welcome home. Let's get drunk together soon.

[funky-peacenik.livejournal.com]

I completely get what you are saying- I hate winter, I hate snow, I hate cold. Today I was able to sneak out of the office and spend that day at Union Station for this work event. There is a great spot where the sun streams through the windows and I think I stood there for over an hour, just letting the sun sink in.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

That sounds wonderful.

I haven't experienced full sun in weeks. The little snippets I get (when it's even present!) are blocked by hat, scarf, coat, etc.

[sdemory.livejournal.com]

True, but an argument can be made for "deficient in mental function" for many Palinisms.

Anyway, a WMD isn't necessarily a justified weapon or a righteous one. It's just horrendously effective. Lob that bitch and don't look back!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Lob that bitch and don't look back!

A motto that can (and should) be applied to many, many things.

Boo

[wyckedgood.livejournal.com]

Boo on the duldrums. I hope you perk up soon.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

Me, too.

[shrijani.livejournal.com]

I hate this shit, too, as you well know. My funk is, in general, very much like your funk, based on this desciption. Boo, indeed!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

We should discuss possible binge-drinking opportunities to help ease the pain. I shall email you.

[annamatic.livejournal.com]

OMG, Sean. Just OMG. And yet I can't stop chuckling.

[chronovore.livejournal.com]

Unhappiness is like a gas; no matter its amount, it is capable of expansion to fill any volume. You mention that "others have it worse, but so what" and I completely agree: the sadness or frustration you've chosen as a reaction has nothing at all to do with anyone else, anywhere in the world. You could choose to be happy because you're not an abandoned single mother in Africa who is dying of AIDS because someone infected you through rape, and now you have to worry what will happen to your children... or some gut-shot kid in East L.A. who is bleeding out over being in the wrong place at the wrong time. But honestly, that would be a negative way to view the world. Who cares? Life isn't as bad as it possibly could be? What kind of attitude would that be?

You're right to only focus on what is affecting you. Now just make some choices about things you can actually change; realize that you are where you are, and decide what's next by doing something now.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I came home last night to mckitterick talking about how many people were anticipated dead in Haiti. I finished taking off my boots, looked at him, and said "I don't really care about their problems right now. I'd like to focus on me, please."

It was awesome. I'm so lucky to have a partner who appreciates my (sick) humor. And then takes me out for ribs and beer.

And I am making changes to feel better. I've upped my exercise, cut sugar and refined grains, and will either go to yoga or work on a sewing project tonight. I'm moving my body in the right direction. It's just taking a while for my brain to catch up.

[annamatic.livejournal.com]

Well put. Very well put. My problems aren't made any better by other people's.

[bestill.livejournal.com]

Sorry, I'm calling you both bitches right now (in a loving way of course).

"Wah, my man likes to spend time with me. Woe is me . . ."

How can you get up in the morning?

whatever

(please note: this was all in jest. It's just funny coming from the other side where I'd give my left nut, if I had one, to have someone who WANTED to spend time with me. I guess the grass is always greener, even if it's burried under dirty, frozen snow).

P.S.

[bestill.livejournal.com]

I've got the ennui too. But I think mine has progressed to the next level, perhaps weltschmerz.