Technology!
Sep. 4th, 2023 07:47 amI think this laptop (which I got earlier this year) is fritzing out for real. It's been doing weird things for a while. The capslock randomly gets stuck and it's frozen more than once. Sometimes the screen just goes black. Today it's flickering on a regular basis and occasionally going blurry. I even got video of it in case the store can't replicate the problem. That last one, hilariously, was what happened with my previous laptop.
My friend who picked it up for me (at a locally-owned place in KC) will be picking it up today to take in tomorrow. They work nearby the store, which is why I got it there in the first place. My luck with any sort of electronics means I try to buy locally when at all possible and Lawrence doesn't have a good tech store anymore.
Very grateful my media machine is still working *knock wood* but its setup isn't conducive to doing regular computer stuff (like internet or writing or really anything except streaming music and shows). Good thing I'm still in a writing block! *lolsob*
My friend who picked it up for me (at a locally-owned place in KC) will be picking it up today to take in tomorrow. They work nearby the store, which is why I got it there in the first place. My luck with any sort of electronics means I try to buy locally when at all possible and Lawrence doesn't have a good tech store anymore.
Very grateful my media machine is still working *knock wood* but its setup isn't conducive to doing regular computer stuff (like internet or writing or really anything except streaming music and shows). Good thing I'm still in a writing block! *lolsob*
Lost and found
Aug. 22nd, 2023 11:42 amLast week I cashed a check at the bank. A couple days later I realized my driver's license hadn't made it back into my wallet. I tore apart my car looking for it--under the seats, under the floor mats, took everything out of the back seat, ran my hands between the cushions, etc. No luck. I finally gave it up for lost. I figured I'd thrown it out with the little envelope they hand your cash back in.
Today I went to the DMV to replace it. On the way home, I also stopped at the library to pick up some books I had on reserve. I also stopped by the Asian grocer to see if they had any bulk packages of nori for gimbap (they did!) and some chili crisp oil and gochujang (I'm trying to ration my sriracha due to the apparent worldwide shortage).
When I got home I got my bags out via the passenger side door because I didn't want to try to lift all the books and groceries over the center console. Guess what was lying right there between the passenger seat and the door?
This sort of thing used to happen to me all the time, but it hasn't much in the past three years. I'm kind of hoping this was a sign that things are maybe turning around for me and parts of me that I've missed are also returning. I'll happily take the bad if it means the good is present, too.
Today I went to the DMV to replace it. On the way home, I also stopped at the library to pick up some books I had on reserve. I also stopped by the Asian grocer to see if they had any bulk packages of nori for gimbap (they did!) and some chili crisp oil and gochujang (I'm trying to ration my sriracha due to the apparent worldwide shortage).
When I got home I got my bags out via the passenger side door because I didn't want to try to lift all the books and groceries over the center console. Guess what was lying right there between the passenger seat and the door?
This sort of thing used to happen to me all the time, but it hasn't much in the past three years. I'm kind of hoping this was a sign that things are maybe turning around for me and parts of me that I've missed are also returning. I'll happily take the bad if it means the good is present, too.
I am a disaster bi
Sep. 26th, 2021 08:13 amI have this brain thing where I have difficulty knowing/understanding left and right. When giving directions to someone driving, I'll frequently say "turn left" while pointing right. I also have problems comprehending things like "swipe right" correctly because my brain thinks well my finger is starting on the right side of the screen, therefore when I move it I'm swiping right. Right? Wrong.
So last night I was on Bumble and you probably already know where this is going.
I have swiped right on exactly one person in the month (or so? I don't remember, what is time) that I've been on Bumble and I had to look up a video tutorial so I could copy the correct direction. But last night.
Last night I opened the app and there was the woman I had a huge crush on in my 20s. In my 51 years I've had crushes on three femmes and she's one of them. I took her to an Indigo Girls concert at Red Rocks in Colorado. I spent the entire trip imagining what it would be like to be her girlfriend. I barely remember much of the concert, just how I felt it all the way to my toes every time our hands brushed.
And I swiped. the wrong. way.
And there's no way to back up. Her profile's just... gone now.
I put in a support request basically begging for help. I even included a bit about "help I had a crush on this person for 10 years and lost touch please please please help me" but I'm pretty sure there's nothing they can do.
I'm consoling myself with the reminder that I might not be attracted to her anymore. I'm sure we're both very different people now (well I don't know how different I am but whatever this is what I'm telling myself) and as I said she's really not my usual type (why must I be so attracted to butches who are like hen's teeth in the Midwest) but still!
I hate that she's likely going to come across my profile (as long as her filter includes a 50 mile radius) and on the off chance she swipes right (her actual right, not my fucked-up notion of this-is-not-actually-right), we won't even match. Bridget (yes, her name's Bridget because she's perfect)! I would have loved to at least reconnect with you! I'm so sorry I'm such a mess who cannot tell her right from left!
Ugh. Just ugh.
So last night I was on Bumble and you probably already know where this is going.
I have swiped right on exactly one person in the month (or so? I don't remember, what is time) that I've been on Bumble and I had to look up a video tutorial so I could copy the correct direction. But last night.
Last night I opened the app and there was the woman I had a huge crush on in my 20s. In my 51 years I've had crushes on three femmes and she's one of them. I took her to an Indigo Girls concert at Red Rocks in Colorado. I spent the entire trip imagining what it would be like to be her girlfriend. I barely remember much of the concert, just how I felt it all the way to my toes every time our hands brushed.
And I swiped. the wrong. way.
And there's no way to back up. Her profile's just... gone now.
I put in a support request basically begging for help. I even included a bit about "help I had a crush on this person for 10 years and lost touch please please please help me" but I'm pretty sure there's nothing they can do.
I'm consoling myself with the reminder that I might not be attracted to her anymore. I'm sure we're both very different people now (well I don't know how different I am but whatever this is what I'm telling myself) and as I said she's really not my usual type (why must I be so attracted to butches who are like hen's teeth in the Midwest) but still!
I hate that she's likely going to come across my profile (as long as her filter includes a 50 mile radius) and on the off chance she swipes right (her actual right, not my fucked-up notion of this-is-not-actually-right), we won't even match. Bridget (yes, her name's Bridget because she's perfect)! I would have loved to at least reconnect with you! I'm so sorry I'm such a mess who cannot tell her right from left!
Ugh. Just ugh.
I'm slowly crawling out from under a bleak emotional place. Still actively wishing for death but I've gone two days in a row without crying even once so that's progress. I made tamago kake gohan for breakfast today and ate more than half. Gold star for me!
Friday night I went to see a live music show (outdoors) with Coworker A and it was wonderful. I liked the two openers very much. The headliners were excellent musicians, but not my style of music (freeform jazz/spoken word stuff). Very glad I saw them, though. Their energy was incredible and even though it mostly sounded like noise to me I recognized the talent.
A friend came over for a few hours yesterday. We were supposed to meet downtown but I was going to have to cancel because the show wiped me out. She immediately switched plans and even brought me food! 🧡 I related the rollercoaster saga of a recent heartbreak/potential romance that died almost before it started and she started to cry. She's the second person I've told this story to in person and the second person to get teary/sniffly over it so I guess it really is a sad story. I knew it felt sad from the inside, but seeing people visibly react like that was... idk, validating? Made me feel less useless about sobbing over it for a week, anyway.
It does make a good story, though. No doubt I'll incorporate some of it into a fic someday.
She said about my life: "This makes me believe more in (mutual friend C's) theory that this is all a simulation and damn you are stuck in the worst kind of black comedy." I just hope whomever is watching enjoys the show. I hate the idea of doing all this for an unappreciative audience.
Speaking of fic, I was poking at edits of the scene from Redemption I wrote a while back and realized the next chapter needs to be the mid-point crisis of Zhao Yunlan's emotional arc (time to deal with his issues with Zhao Xinci!) so that's gonna be an emotional investment. Good thing I've got so many internal reserves allowing me to explore that! Ha! ha ha!
Friday night I went to see a live music show (outdoors) with Coworker A and it was wonderful. I liked the two openers very much. The headliners were excellent musicians, but not my style of music (freeform jazz/spoken word stuff). Very glad I saw them, though. Their energy was incredible and even though it mostly sounded like noise to me I recognized the talent.
A friend came over for a few hours yesterday. We were supposed to meet downtown but I was going to have to cancel because the show wiped me out. She immediately switched plans and even brought me food! 🧡 I related the rollercoaster saga of a recent heartbreak/potential romance that died almost before it started and she started to cry. She's the second person I've told this story to in person and the second person to get teary/sniffly over it so I guess it really is a sad story. I knew it felt sad from the inside, but seeing people visibly react like that was... idk, validating? Made me feel less useless about sobbing over it for a week, anyway.
It does make a good story, though. No doubt I'll incorporate some of it into a fic someday.
She said about my life: "This makes me believe more in (mutual friend C's) theory that this is all a simulation and damn you are stuck in the worst kind of black comedy." I just hope whomever is watching enjoys the show. I hate the idea of doing all this for an unappreciative audience.
Speaking of fic, I was poking at edits of the scene from Redemption I wrote a while back and realized the next chapter needs to be the mid-point crisis of Zhao Yunlan's emotional arc (time to deal with his issues with Zhao Xinci!) so that's gonna be an emotional investment. Good thing I've got so many internal reserves allowing me to explore that! Ha! ha ha!
Still not up to linking tons of Twitter stuff, but oh lord, this view of Zhao Yunlan/Bai Yu scooting back on the bed.
Gotta venture into the outside world again today to pick up my thyroid prescription. It finally, finally made it to my PCP from Dr. Anti-Vaxx's office after three months of my pestering. Hopefully I never have to interact with that office ever again. Wish the pharmacy opened before 9am but it's a small, private compounding pharmacy. My prescription is specially formulated (of course!), which is why I really really needed that prescription to get transferred.
In other good news, I stumbled across my backup lap desk (stashed in the back of my bedroom closet) and oh my god ya'll, it has a slide-out tray for a mouse. 😂 So now I just need a mouse, which will be much simpler to acquire than a new lap desk.
Skipping ahead in the questions order to one with a shorter answer from![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
plingo_kat. What is your favorite perishable item (food, decoration that is deliberately made to decay over time, etc) that you own/have ever owned?
This is such a great question! So simple but required a bit of consideration. I gotta go with my devotional candles. Now that I'm finally burning them, it feels such a treat. Some of them were so old the wicks had fallen into the (very soft) wax and I had to dig them out before lighting. I'm saving all the glass empties, though. Despite my resolution to never move these things again, I just can't bring myself to pitch them. They're so pretty and honestly I don't know if they're making candles like this anymore. The only ones I find these days have the design printed right on the glass in boring monochrome ink or a label that wraps all the way around so the glow of the flame inside doesn't show well. Someday when I can, I'm venturing to the Catholic supply store in Kansas City to see if they still sell the refills. I see refills available online, but I want to make sure they fit since there area few different glass column sizes out there.
A very close runner-up was my sizeable collection of spices. I don't cook nearly as much as I used to, but I season what food I do make with great enthusiasm. I'm purposefully unsnobby about food and honestly one of my greatest cooking accomplishments was a close approximation to the seasoning packet in a package of Top Ramen (as best I remember anyway--it's been well over a decade since I was able to eat actual ramen). It's not how I make my usual noodles because that amount of salt leaves me feeling dehydrated for hours afterward 😄 but not gonna lie, it was tasty.
And now I'm headed off to the pharmacy!
ETA: So I decided to let Windows update run while I was on my errand and now my laptop won't get past a repeating cycle of two blue screens, one telling me Windows didn't load correctly and I need to reboot, the other saying my device ran into a problem and needs to reboot. I have rebooted five times now. It won't even shut down, just keeps going back to those two screens. Currently trying to find reliable PC support people.
Why. Why?
ETA 2: Oh, and while I was running errands I thought I should probably get cash so I stopped by my bank but the machine said it was going to charge me $3 for the withdrawal. At my own bank? So I contacted the video teller who was as confused as me and told me to try again. Same thing happened so I gave up. I mean it's only three dollars, but... ugh. Why. WHY.
Gotta venture into the outside world again today to pick up my thyroid prescription. It finally, finally made it to my PCP from Dr. Anti-Vaxx's office after three months of my pestering. Hopefully I never have to interact with that office ever again. Wish the pharmacy opened before 9am but it's a small, private compounding pharmacy. My prescription is specially formulated (of course!), which is why I really really needed that prescription to get transferred.
In other good news, I stumbled across my backup lap desk (stashed in the back of my bedroom closet) and oh my god ya'll, it has a slide-out tray for a mouse. 😂 So now I just need a mouse, which will be much simpler to acquire than a new lap desk.
Skipping ahead in the questions order to one with a shorter answer from
plingo_kat. What is your favorite perishable item (food, decoration that is deliberately made to decay over time, etc) that you own/have ever owned? This is such a great question! So simple but required a bit of consideration. I gotta go with my devotional candles. Now that I'm finally burning them, it feels such a treat. Some of them were so old the wicks had fallen into the (very soft) wax and I had to dig them out before lighting. I'm saving all the glass empties, though. Despite my resolution to never move these things again, I just can't bring myself to pitch them. They're so pretty and honestly I don't know if they're making candles like this anymore. The only ones I find these days have the design printed right on the glass in boring monochrome ink or a label that wraps all the way around so the glow of the flame inside doesn't show well. Someday when I can, I'm venturing to the Catholic supply store in Kansas City to see if they still sell the refills. I see refills available online, but I want to make sure they fit since there area few different glass column sizes out there.
A very close runner-up was my sizeable collection of spices. I don't cook nearly as much as I used to, but I season what food I do make with great enthusiasm. I'm purposefully unsnobby about food and honestly one of my greatest cooking accomplishments was a close approximation to the seasoning packet in a package of Top Ramen (as best I remember anyway--it's been well over a decade since I was able to eat actual ramen). It's not how I make my usual noodles because that amount of salt leaves me feeling dehydrated for hours afterward 😄 but not gonna lie, it was tasty.
And now I'm headed off to the pharmacy!
ETA: So I decided to let Windows update run while I was on my errand and now my laptop won't get past a repeating cycle of two blue screens, one telling me Windows didn't load correctly and I need to reboot, the other saying my device ran into a problem and needs to reboot. I have rebooted five times now. It won't even shut down, just keeps going back to those two screens. Currently trying to find reliable PC support people.
Why. Why?
ETA 2: Oh, and while I was running errands I thought I should probably get cash so I stopped by my bank but the machine said it was going to charge me $3 for the withdrawal. At my own bank? So I contacted the video teller who was as confused as me and told me to try again. Same thing happened so I gave up. I mean it's only three dollars, but... ugh. Why. WHY.
And I think my heater just died
Dec. 30th, 2020 10:02 pmI keep the place pretty cold but noticed wow, I'm cold, even for me. Checked the thermostat and it's two degrees colder than what it's set at. Tried cranking it up and nothing happened. Of course the first storm of winter is supposed to hit tomorrow.
So.
The lining of my sleep mask peeled off sometime last night, got folded up, and somehow made its way between my eyelids to scratch my left eye. Here's hoping it clears up soon on its own. Lots of eye drops today!
About an hour later, I was sitting on the couch, working on tomorrow's dump, when I heard something beeping. Like a car or fire alarm those three high-pitched beeps with a pause, but much quieter. I looked around and the only thing burning was a candle. I walked around the apartment and, it was definitely the loudest in the living room. Tested the living room fire alarm and NOPE wow, that was loud. So ... what the fuck? I walked around the living room and realized it was coming from the couch? Right under where I was sitting?
I lifted the couch cushion and there was the fire alarm from the house on Indiana that McKitterick put under there because it was randomly going off. Guess he forgot about it (as did I) because wow it sure was going off OH MY GOD SO LOUD so loud when not covered by the couch cushion. I couldn't figure out how to turn it off. Just pressing the buttons doesn't seem to work, of course.
I put the couch cushion back, along with the additional muffling of my butt, and turned up the stereo but I can still hear it.
This really is peak My Life. 😂
eta: ahhh, thank dogs I just thought to flip it over and there's a deactivate switch on the back. BLESSED PEACE.
The lining of my sleep mask peeled off sometime last night, got folded up, and somehow made its way between my eyelids to scratch my left eye. Here's hoping it clears up soon on its own. Lots of eye drops today!
About an hour later, I was sitting on the couch, working on tomorrow's dump, when I heard something beeping. Like a car or fire alarm those three high-pitched beeps with a pause, but much quieter. I looked around and the only thing burning was a candle. I walked around the apartment and, it was definitely the loudest in the living room. Tested the living room fire alarm and NOPE wow, that was loud. So ... what the fuck? I walked around the living room and realized it was coming from the couch? Right under where I was sitting?
I lifted the couch cushion and there was the fire alarm from the house on Indiana that McKitterick put under there because it was randomly going off. Guess he forgot about it (as did I) because wow it sure was going off OH MY GOD SO LOUD so loud when not covered by the couch cushion. I couldn't figure out how to turn it off. Just pressing the buttons doesn't seem to work, of course.
I put the couch cushion back, along with the additional muffling of my butt, and turned up the stereo but I can still hear it.
This really is peak My Life. 😂
eta: ahhh, thank dogs I just thought to flip it over and there's a deactivate switch on the back. BLESSED PEACE.
This is why I have trust issues
Dec. 25th, 2020 12:34 pmOkay so here's something I learned about that AO3 comment box thing. When you click Insert Selection, it overwrites what you previously added to the comment box. Which you might decide to do because it's a pain in the ass to scroll up and down because you're commenting on every line as you go. So you click "Insert Selection" and then delete what's in the floaty box because you thought you'd, you know, inserted it into the comment box. At least that's what it did with me. So those twelve lines I pulled and talked about at length bc this fic I'm reading is so fucking amazing just *poof* gone.
Ugh I'm so mad about it I can't even get back to reading the story. Maybe later today but it's gonna be a while.
If you wanna check it out in the meantime, tho. Seen on this week's Rec Center.
In the Bleak Midwinter (7085 words) by Ashura
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Dark Is Rising Sequence - Susan Cooper
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Bran Davies/Will Stanton
Characters: Bran Davies aka Pendragon, Will Stanton
Additional Tags: First Time, Post-Canon, Christmas, Romance
Summary:
Ugh I'm so mad about it I can't even get back to reading the story. Maybe later today but it's gonna be a while.
If you wanna check it out in the meantime, tho. Seen on this week's Rec Center.
In the Bleak Midwinter (7085 words) by Ashura
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Dark Is Rising Sequence - Susan Cooper
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Bran Davies/Will Stanton
Characters: Bran Davies aka Pendragon, Will Stanton
Additional Tags: First Time, Post-Canon, Christmas, Romance
Summary:
He set aside the pile of undergraduate essays he'd been marking, leaning against the window to stare out of it for a while, watching Wales unfold welcoming before him. At least, he mused, that was how it felt – like the prodigal son returning to his father's fold. It was different from going home, where he could feel the fields of Buckinghamshire folding around him whenever he went back to see his parents, but it was similar, too. I know you, the land seemed to say. I remember you. You belong here.
Guardian/adjacent
And this is how we'll die in October.
Z1L's Adam's apple for a change. Also, ARMS. and BACK.
Never over this white guy showing Z1L how to react to spicy food.
I know you're fucking my son.
A reminder that Guo Changcheng's actor is gorgeous.
Bai Yu's latest shoot already has glorious manips.
SQUISH his FACE.
Video teaser for Z1L's new cover. (also, charm of "nature")
Love seeing them bts and ooc.
Fanart: soft snuggles. Wedding. Ssh. Possessive Little Ghost King. Kiss.
I don't even know what this is from but it sure hit me in the pants feels.
Today's already been A Day, friends.
It started with the lovelyfangirlishness gifting me this wonderful TLTR RPF smoking kink fic which inspired me to get out of bed this morning.
And then a comment on Chapter 5 of Deconstruction said "hmmm there seems to be a big part of this missing" and sure enough, like 500 words of Kinda Important Stuff was missing so I re-uploaded the chapter, replied (again) to everyone who'd already commented, and made the announcement on Twitter and Tumblr. But... apparently those words were there yesterday? I should have taken a screencap because I SWEAR those words were NOT on the AO3 screen this morning butumadoshi re-read it and said yes? everything was still there?
I don't even know. What's up with me and technology, y'all? I don't get it, and I live with it.
This isn't helping my general feeling that I'm not, uh, appropriately processing a shared reality anymore. I mentioned in an email to someone that it's a surreal experience to observe my own mental collapse. I can literally feel myself going crazy and it's... it's weird, y'all. I'm not sure I have the vocabulary to describe it, but if I ever do, it's gonna be a fantastic.essay.
ETA: Some of my Tech Fail greatest hits because they make me laugh.
My IT guy at KU once spent a month researching a problem I'd shown him (at least he saw it!). He said I was one of three people in the world, and the only one in North America, who'd reported that problem. Another time he gave me a new computer because the first one kept having errors nobody could solve, only to have the new computer repeat one of them within a month (we eventually moved to a different software program). Another time my computer caught on Actual Fire and had to be removed from the building.
And this is how we'll die in October.
Z1L's Adam's apple for a change. Also, ARMS. and BACK.
Never over this white guy showing Z1L how to react to spicy food.
I know you're fucking my son.
A reminder that Guo Changcheng's actor is gorgeous.
Bai Yu's latest shoot already has glorious manips.
SQUISH his FACE.
Video teaser for Z1L's new cover. (also, charm of "nature")
Love seeing them bts and ooc.
Fanart: soft snuggles. Wedding. Ssh. Possessive Little Ghost King. Kiss.
I don't even know what this is from but it sure hit me in the pants feels.
Today's already been A Day, friends.
It started with the lovely
fangirlishness gifting me this wonderful TLTR RPF smoking kink fic which inspired me to get out of bed this morning. And then a comment on Chapter 5 of Deconstruction said "hmmm there seems to be a big part of this missing" and sure enough, like 500 words of Kinda Important Stuff was missing so I re-uploaded the chapter, replied (again) to everyone who'd already commented, and made the announcement on Twitter and Tumblr. But... apparently those words were there yesterday? I should have taken a screencap because I SWEAR those words were NOT on the AO3 screen this morning but
umadoshi re-read it and said yes? everything was still there?I don't even know. What's up with me and technology, y'all? I don't get it, and I live with it.
This isn't helping my general feeling that I'm not, uh, appropriately processing a shared reality anymore. I mentioned in an email to someone that it's a surreal experience to observe my own mental collapse. I can literally feel myself going crazy and it's... it's weird, y'all. I'm not sure I have the vocabulary to describe it, but if I ever do, it's gonna be a fantastic.essay.
ETA: Some of my Tech Fail greatest hits because they make me laugh.
My IT guy at KU once spent a month researching a problem I'd shown him (at least he saw it!). He said I was one of three people in the world, and the only one in North America, who'd reported that problem. Another time he gave me a new computer because the first one kept having errors nobody could solve, only to have the new computer repeat one of them within a month (we eventually moved to a different software program). Another time my computer caught on Actual Fire and had to be removed from the building.
Guardian/adjacent:
Glasses kink.
Bai Yu kink.
Taxi Scene Taxi Scene Taxi Scene
Nothing was said yet it was so loud.
Fanart: a kiss in Old Haixing.
Yesterday I didn't have quite enough brain to write (I tried, not ready yet I guess) but I decided I had the energy to do some food prep. Halfway through pureeing soup, my (ancient, inherited) Vitamix died. All internet information pointed to a dead motor (or possibly broken transmission but on a 30-year old appliance who's gonna replace either). Had to throw out all the soup I'd already done because I was blending it in stages and almost all the seasoning had already gone in the first batch. So not only did I lose the blender, I didn't even wind up with usable soup.
It was a(nother) day.
Anyone need the two pitchers (wet and dry) for a Vitamix 5000 (the model they stopped making 20 years ago)?
I was just reminded that this coming weekend is Labor Day here in the US. Ha ha ha ha ha for so many reasons but it made me check to see if the Kansas City Renaissance Festival (where I "worked" for nearly 20 years) was, indeed, planning to still open and no, no they are not. The announcement is so typical of the management, it was a good reminder why I quit.
Glasses kink.
Bai Yu kink.
Taxi Scene Taxi Scene Taxi Scene
Nothing was said yet it was so loud.
Fanart: a kiss in Old Haixing.
Yesterday I didn't have quite enough brain to write (I tried, not ready yet I guess) but I decided I had the energy to do some food prep. Halfway through pureeing soup, my (ancient, inherited) Vitamix died. All internet information pointed to a dead motor (or possibly broken transmission but on a 30-year old appliance who's gonna replace either). Had to throw out all the soup I'd already done because I was blending it in stages and almost all the seasoning had already gone in the first batch. So not only did I lose the blender, I didn't even wind up with usable soup.
It was a(nother) day.
Anyone need the two pitchers (wet and dry) for a Vitamix 5000 (the model they stopped making 20 years ago)?
I was just reminded that this coming weekend is Labor Day here in the US. Ha ha ha ha ha for so many reasons but it made me check to see if the Kansas City Renaissance Festival (where I "worked" for nearly 20 years) was, indeed, planning to still open and no, no they are not. The announcement is so typical of the management, it was a good reminder why I quit.
Sunday Snippet, et. al.
Jun. 21st, 2020 09:21 amGuardian/adjacent:
A Moment for Those Lips.
Shen Wei's eyes, a study in contrasts.
Guardian characters as Quotes from InspiroBot.
Seduction lessons with Zhao Yunlan (omg Shen Wei's little huff of bitter amusement)
FaceApp with Shen Wei (more with Zhao Yunlan, please!) FaceApp with Zhu Yilong (still so beautiful *sob*) FaceApp long-haired man Prof. Shen.
FaceApp applied to the cast from HIStory 3: Trapped (oh god oh god oh god oh god) and a very young-looking Chris Wu leaving very little to the imagination (*spontaneously combusts*)
Today's Duolingo story was about a woman and her wife going on their honeymoon. That was pretty awesome. Thank you,wrote_and_writ for mentioning these things. They're fun and so much easier than the actual lessons when I'm having a not-great brain day. I'm finally moving into things I can't remember, like when to use articles when saying things like "I go to work on Mondays" and such. Ugh. I'd rather struggle with por and para, tbh.
I woke up this morning to find the freezer door on the inside fridge (thank all the dogs for that at least) had been left open overnight and... everything is thawed. It's not as bad as when the chest freezer died, but there's still a lot in there I'm gonna have to cook over the next couple days. Including some pork loins I'd been saving for when I could take them over to a friend's for grilling. Welp. Anybody got pork tenderloin recipes that don't require a grill? Unintentionally thawed freezers had better not be some annual thing god damn it.
Probably not gonna get much writing done until all that's cooked and prepped. So have something from last week's work on Deconstruction. Part of the sex scene I was so proud of.
Through it all, Zhao Yunlan lay quiet and pliant underneath him, eyes closed, mouth slightly open and relaxed. Full of trust, seemingly drunk in a haze of love and endorphins. Shen Wei’s eyes followed the flex of muscles and tissues under the bruising as he swallowed. Head still cradled in Shen Wei’s hand, Zhao Yunlan licked his lips.
“More,” he whispered, barely audible.
A Moment for Those Lips.
Shen Wei's eyes, a study in contrasts.
Guardian characters as Quotes from InspiroBot.
Seduction lessons with Zhao Yunlan (omg Shen Wei's little huff of bitter amusement)
FaceApp with Shen Wei (more with Zhao Yunlan, please!) FaceApp with Zhu Yilong (still so beautiful *sob*) FaceApp long-haired man Prof. Shen.
FaceApp applied to the cast from HIStory 3: Trapped (oh god oh god oh god oh god) and a very young-looking Chris Wu leaving very little to the imagination (*spontaneously combusts*)
Today's Duolingo story was about a woman and her wife going on their honeymoon. That was pretty awesome. Thank you,
wrote_and_writ for mentioning these things. They're fun and so much easier than the actual lessons when I'm having a not-great brain day. I'm finally moving into things I can't remember, like when to use articles when saying things like "I go to work on Mondays" and such. Ugh. I'd rather struggle with por and para, tbh. I woke up this morning to find the freezer door on the inside fridge (thank all the dogs for that at least) had been left open overnight and... everything is thawed. It's not as bad as when the chest freezer died, but there's still a lot in there I'm gonna have to cook over the next couple days. Including some pork loins I'd been saving for when I could take them over to a friend's for grilling. Welp. Anybody got pork tenderloin recipes that don't require a grill? Unintentionally thawed freezers had better not be some annual thing god damn it.
Probably not gonna get much writing done until all that's cooked and prepped. So have something from last week's work on Deconstruction. Part of the sex scene I was so proud of.
Through it all, Zhao Yunlan lay quiet and pliant underneath him, eyes closed, mouth slightly open and relaxed. Full of trust, seemingly drunk in a haze of love and endorphins. Shen Wei’s eyes followed the flex of muscles and tissues under the bruising as he swallowed. Head still cradled in Shen Wei’s hand, Zhao Yunlan licked his lips.
“More,” he whispered, barely audible.
Typical tech
May. 8th, 2020 04:21 pmDunno what happened with my side of things on today's Discord watch. I (thought) I did everything exactly as last week, but then things started to get flaky. I assumed it was my internet (which has been spotty all week) but when I got back in, my screen did this when I clicked on the server and the little loading animation just ran and ran and ran. I couldn't even click out of the video view to get back to the text screen. I even tried (twice) after the streaming portion was over, wondering if it was just server load, but no. Same thing happened (twice). le sigh.
I have a ridiculously big sad over this. Didn't realize how much I was looking forward to saying hi to people. Maybe better luck next week.
At least I got 1k words down for Table One today which included:
With a groan, Zhu Yilong pulled away and off him. Bai Yu tried to follow, grasping at the placket on Zhu Yilong’s shirt, trying to unbutton it with shaking fingers, praying nobody was changing their minds, here. Zhu Yilong leaned in close with a reassuring kiss.
“Condoms,” he muttered against Bai Yu’s lips.
At least things are working out for SOME people!
I have a ridiculously big sad over this. Didn't realize how much I was looking forward to saying hi to people. Maybe better luck next week.
At least I got 1k words down for Table One today which included:
With a groan, Zhu Yilong pulled away and off him. Bai Yu tried to follow, grasping at the placket on Zhu Yilong’s shirt, trying to unbutton it with shaking fingers, praying nobody was changing their minds, here. Zhu Yilong leaned in close with a reassuring kiss.
“Condoms,” he muttered against Bai Yu’s lips.
At least things are working out for SOME people!
Day two of isolation
Mar. 16th, 2020 08:36 amGuardian/adjacent:
Fanart: Lollipop kisses. Holding-face kisses.
The ZhuBai manips continue to be my favorite thing about Zhu Yilong's ELLE shoot. There's also this video from ELLE Men that I'm going to be thinking about A LOT during my isolation period.
Shen Wei looking all sorts of badass.
Zhu Yilong looking all sorts of adorable. (bonus gif of zebra hand)
I'm isolating myself with Qik's cut of this scene for the next three weeks.
One of the things I like about Zhubai in contrast to Weilan is how predatory Zhu Yilong is often portrayed and I am here for that.
Uh, so this pose of Bai Yu is making me feel even more things than it usually would and when I post the March chapter of Ghost Story y'all will know why. MMMHMMMM.
Untamed/adjacent:
You're coming to Gusu, buddy.
This JC and WWX cosplay is amazeballs.
I've been using Notepad to write comments as I read, but this floating box looks interesting! I wonder if I have the courage to try it...
I mentioned on Twitter that my herbalism program has been indefinitely postponed. Since we're beholden to the growing season, if the start is too delayed, the program will be canceled for 2020. I know there are thousands of people all over
world who've waited years for things that are getting axed, but... I approached the instructor about this program in 2018, got accepted in 2019, right around the time I lost my job. Excitement over this program was second only to Guardian in keeping me from constant passive suicidal ideation* for almost a year.
* I'm not going to off myself, no worries. It's just really nice to not think "Gosh wouldn't it be great if I didn't wake up tomorrow?" more than half the time.
The program is also the only thing that's been keeping us in Kansas. I've been telling myself I can get out of here next November when this program's over. Move to a state where I might be able to afford health insurance and/or get access to legal weed. I'd likely qualify for a card, too, so I have A Lot of options for other places to live. And now that... might not happen? Which doesn't put the next three weeks of my life in question so much as, like, my entire foreseeable future. Ha! ha ha ha!
I also canceled my Friday cooking lesson with my friend MH's mom. They don't know if/when they'll be able to return to Beijing. If they do go back, they have to quarantine themselves at their own expense and they can't afford that. But staying here means MH can't return to her classes (she teaches at a university there).
Can't say I'm a fan of *gestures vaguely* most of this.
Fanart: Lollipop kisses. Holding-face kisses.
The ZhuBai manips continue to be my favorite thing about Zhu Yilong's ELLE shoot. There's also this video from ELLE Men that I'm going to be thinking about A LOT during my isolation period.
Shen Wei looking all sorts of badass.
Zhu Yilong looking all sorts of adorable. (bonus gif of zebra hand)
I'm isolating myself with Qik's cut of this scene for the next three weeks.
One of the things I like about Zhubai in contrast to Weilan is how predatory Zhu Yilong is often portrayed and I am here for that.
Uh, so this pose of Bai Yu is making me feel even more things than it usually would and when I post the March chapter of Ghost Story y'all will know why. MMMHMMMM.
Untamed/adjacent:
You're coming to Gusu, buddy.
This JC and WWX cosplay is amazeballs.
I've been using Notepad to write comments as I read, but this floating box looks interesting! I wonder if I have the courage to try it...
I mentioned on Twitter that my herbalism program has been indefinitely postponed. Since we're beholden to the growing season, if the start is too delayed, the program will be canceled for 2020. I know there are thousands of people all over
world who've waited years for things that are getting axed, but... I approached the instructor about this program in 2018, got accepted in 2019, right around the time I lost my job. Excitement over this program was second only to Guardian in keeping me from constant passive suicidal ideation* for almost a year.
* I'm not going to off myself, no worries. It's just really nice to not think "Gosh wouldn't it be great if I didn't wake up tomorrow?" more than half the time.
The program is also the only thing that's been keeping us in Kansas. I've been telling myself I can get out of here next November when this program's over. Move to a state where I might be able to afford health insurance and/or get access to legal weed. I'd likely qualify for a card, too, so I have A Lot of options for other places to live. And now that... might not happen? Which doesn't put the next three weeks of my life in question so much as, like, my entire foreseeable future. Ha! ha ha ha!
I also canceled my Friday cooking lesson with my friend MH's mom. They don't know if/when they'll be able to return to Beijing. If they do go back, they have to quarantine themselves at their own expense and they can't afford that. But staying here means MH can't return to her classes (she teaches at a university there).
Can't say I'm a fan of *gestures vaguely* most of this.
Fuck off, 2019
Dec. 31st, 2019 09:10 amYou were terrible, and you continued to be terrible right up until the bitter end.
Friends, I haven't had a head cold/viral illness for over a year, but I am definitely down for the count now. I will not be going out tonight for New Year's Eve. Just typing that made me almost start to cry and there's no way I can let that happen since I've already got a sinus migraine brewing. God damn it. Just...why? I bought a new dress and everything. My fuckin' life, y'all. Ha! Ha ha!
At least I've got Guardian, right? The show and fandom were my one bright and shining light for the year. So let's focus on that.
Animated GIF of what should have happened in the lab during episode 19.
This RPF-esque (one of those the names and faces are the same) very short, very dark Tweetfic GOOD LORDT
My feed this morning was covered in Zhu Yilong's NYE performance. There's too many to link, so maybe just check out my latest likes. I think I'm the only person here who loves his Coat of Many Holes. I would wear that in a heartbeat, for real.
Not Guardian:
naye put this in front of my eyeballs and I'm bringing the rest of y'all down with me.A minute dissection of the interactions between Wei Wuxian, Lan Wanji, and Jiang Cheng on That Fucking Cliff.
Oscar Isaac continues to be So Fuckin' Done.
*looks up at 2020 from the bottom of the pit where I'm lying*
Ugh.
Yep, that's a Monday
Dec. 30th, 2019 09:15 amI feel like this and I don't even have to go to a day job. Ridiculous.
Twitter:
Love this manga-cover-looking fanart of the entire SID
Shen Wei holding some bright energy
Shenwei attending to urgent heipaoshi business when his usual robes are in the wash, looking like he’s about to go LARPing
Who else has those mornings where you lie in bed for four hours after waking even though you desperately want tea but instead of making the damn tea, you fantasize about how if you don't actually get up the world outside your bedroom might have ceased to exist and wouldn't that be great?
sigh
Yesterday did not go as hoped. Got hit with a fatigue bat early in the afternoon and this morning I woke up with a sore throat. Am supposed to go out for lunch and mani-pedi (a gift from the visiting R family--very generous). I'm hoping that doesn't knock me down further.
If I don't get to go out for NYE I'm gonna be so mad y'all.
Twitter:
Love this manga-cover-looking fanart of the entire SID
Shen Wei holding some bright energy
Shenwei attending to urgent heipaoshi business when his usual robes are in the wash, looking like he’s about to go LARPing
Who else has those mornings where you lie in bed for four hours after waking even though you desperately want tea but instead of making the damn tea, you fantasize about how if you don't actually get up the world outside your bedroom might have ceased to exist and wouldn't that be great?
sigh
Yesterday did not go as hoped. Got hit with a fatigue bat early in the afternoon and this morning I woke up with a sore throat. Am supposed to go out for lunch and mani-pedi (a gift from the visiting R family--very generous). I'm hoping that doesn't knock me down further.
If I don't get to go out for NYE I'm gonna be so mad y'all.
No snippet =(
Nov. 24th, 2019 08:55 amTwitter finds:
OMG their faces.
OMG ZYL's face.
"You're tired of living."
Another adorable animation (with adorable kissing)
Bai Yu with bunnies (cute aggression alert)
Sent the first final version of Ghost Story to beta. No new words for y'all this week, sorry. I also submitted my secret!virgin story to the Make Me Feel collection. That'll be available December 2 (my author secrecy seems unlikely tho since I don't know anyone else writing in Guardian for it). My next (new) Guardian fic (probably Shen Wei and the Pillow) is delayed since my next fic is going to be a fill for due South Sekrit Santa.
I'm giving up on visual art until I have the time (and inclination) to learn a new graphics program. Never did get Adobe Fucking Photoshop to run again (did I mention I actually own the install discs? yes I think I did. still salty!) and I've spent too many hours dicking around with GIMP with too few results. I'm sure it's a fine program, I'm just painfully slow at learning software. I love technology!
Anyway, there's only three weeks left until the dSSS deadline and it's time to admit I'm not going to be able to make art for it or anyone anytime soon. (other thanglymr--you'll get your RPF card and canister before the end of the year, promise).
Anybody wanna beta a dS story for me next week? *laugh-cry emoji* I contacted someone who might be willing and am waiting to hear back.
hexenmeister, I saw your offer on the comm, but figured at this point you might be inundated.ETA: will post about this again tomorrow, but I just found out that
bonibaru posted the podfic of Lollipop yesterday!Oh, okay so that's my tipping point
Nov. 1st, 2019 12:56 pmSomething happened with Photoshop on my laptop a week ago--not surprising, Adobe's being real fuckwads lately--but mckitterick couldn't figure out the problem before he left. NBD, I don't do a lot of image manipulation, mostly cropping, sometimes a small color adjustment or upping the contrast. I can get by on Picture Manager for a little while. I use it print a bunch of base images for the cards.
But these pictures look like shit. Super pale, pixelated, just...worthless for use as base images (where I need good color saturation and high contrast). I fiddle around with the printer settings, the software printing settings, everything. Should be great. It's not. I look in the properties tab and y'all. Y'all. Picture Manager is opening everything, e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g, at 96dpi. Even those high-res promotional photos. 96dpi.
Now, you might say "Just print them from the internet, Manka!" And that would be an entirely reasonable suggestion if you gave it to someone other than me. Because along with the Photoshop problem, my laptop refuses to see that there is a printer connection via the internet. Any of my desktop software products? Fine. Anything online? Doesn't see the printer.mckitterick wasn't able to figure that one out, either. Did I mention he worked in the documentation department for Microsoft in the early aughts? He can find his way around MS products. And he couldn't figure it out. I'm not figuring it out, I can say that for damn sure.
So that's when I was like okay Fuck This Shit I'm Out and cried for about two minutes but sucked it up before I gave myself a migraine and I don't feel better but at least I know where my limit is! Not that I can do a damn thing about it, but hey! Information's always good, right?
Anyway! Not makin' cards today! or, really, anytime soon because it's gonna take me at least a couple days to figure out an Adobe alternative. I have all the Tumblr posts about those, so I have the resources. I'm just...well, as you might have heard, technology has a real hate-on for me and I'm just being realistic about how long it'll take me to decide on a program, download it, and be able to actually use it. If I decide to try it at all, because there's the very real possibility that something will go massively wrong and I will utterly wipe my hard drive or something. I mean, it's funny, but I'm not joking.
Guess I'll write some today after all.
Gonna turn off email so I can at least (try to) focus on something for a little while. No worries if I don't respond to comments for a while. I just re-read this post and it sounds kind of down? but I promise I'm okay. This really is my life. Aaaaaaaaaand, uh, I'M USED TO BEING INJURED. *laugh-cry emoji*
I'm hilarious.
mckitterick couldn't figure out the problem before he left. NBD, I don't do a lot of image manipulation, mostly cropping, sometimes a small color adjustment or upping the contrast. I can get by on Picture Manager for a little while. I use it print a bunch of base images for the cards. But these pictures look like shit. Super pale, pixelated, just...worthless for use as base images (where I need good color saturation and high contrast). I fiddle around with the printer settings, the software printing settings, everything. Should be great. It's not. I look in the properties tab and y'all. Y'all. Picture Manager is opening everything, e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g, at 96dpi. Even those high-res promotional photos. 96dpi.
Now, you might say "Just print them from the internet, Manka!" And that would be an entirely reasonable suggestion if you gave it to someone other than me. Because along with the Photoshop problem, my laptop refuses to see that there is a printer connection via the internet. Any of my desktop software products? Fine. Anything online? Doesn't see the printer.
mckitterick wasn't able to figure that one out, either. Did I mention he worked in the documentation department for Microsoft in the early aughts? He can find his way around MS products. And he couldn't figure it out. I'm not figuring it out, I can say that for damn sure. So that's when I was like okay Fuck This Shit I'm Out and cried for about two minutes but sucked it up before I gave myself a migraine and I don't feel better but at least I know where my limit is! Not that I can do a damn thing about it, but hey! Information's always good, right?
Anyway! Not makin' cards today! or, really, anytime soon because it's gonna take me at least a couple days to figure out an Adobe alternative. I have all the Tumblr posts about those, so I have the resources. I'm just...well, as you might have heard, technology has a real hate-on for me and I'm just being realistic about how long it'll take me to decide on a program, download it, and be able to actually use it. If I decide to try it at all, because there's the very real possibility that something will go massively wrong and I will utterly wipe my hard drive or something. I mean, it's funny, but I'm not joking.
Guess I'll write some today after all.
Gonna turn off email so I can at least (try to) focus on something for a little while. No worries if I don't respond to comments for a while. I just re-read this post and it sounds kind of down? but I promise I'm okay. This really is my life. Aaaaaaaaaand, uh, I'M USED TO BEING INJURED. *laugh-cry emoji*
I'm hilarious.
Friday Update
Nov. 1st, 2019 09:29 amHi! I'm having a slow breakdown! Ha ha! ughhhhhhhhhh
I mean...not really? And I guess I shouldn't joke about it? Because people actually having breakdowns isn't funny, and for the most part I 'm holding things together. Showering, feeding myself, getting shit done (mostly). But there's just so much going on with my life that I'm not prepared to talk about (for all my talk I'm ridiculously private about some stuff) and I thought/hoped things would get easier but they're not easier. Well, some parts are easier, but others keep getting harder and sadder. I'm ten seconds and a hangnail away from crying at any given moment and I'm Just So God Damn Tired of it. It's slowing Ghost Story's progress which pisses me off (how dare emotions take such a toll on my writing) but it's not like I can force my brain to put down words that aren't there. Visual art is easier, so thank you to everyone who wanted a card (or tea canister). I'm working on those over the next few days and should get them in the mail next Thursday.
This week's pity party brought to you by the letters I Still Don't Have A Vibrator and This Photo Showing Up On My FB Timeline. That's me at my final bellydance performance, back in June 2014 (no idea why it showed on up FB now, other than to poke another hole in me). I didn't know at the time it would be my swan song, which--thank dogs, that would've been horrible. It might've been one of my best performances (yay?), and that moment in the picture was so fuckin' hot, y'all. I started the song with zills and during the instrumental bridge, the lead singer (I was friends with the band) ran her hands over my sides and up my arms to pull them off so I could finish the song with circular veil. Supposedly there was video of the whole night (we had six dancers, each performing two songs with the band), but I asked twice for a copy and never got one, so... *shrug* It felt good, so I can only assume it looked good.
Anyway. Lack of dance isn't the only thing I'm missing, but the sense memory of that night hit me with a sad bat and...here we are.
Last night I was the guest presenter atmckitterick 's class on SF and popular media because the week's topic was Fandom and Fanworks and he's in China. So, you know, convenient. khellekson , I'm sure you did a much better job last year at this session than I did (don't be modest, I've seen at least one of your presentations), but I had a great time giving a Philosophy Major Gatekeeping Dude a hard time for two and a half goddamn hours. Yes, this is me, taking my petty little victories where I can. Even (especially?) when they involve smacking down 20-year-old white dudes with a vastly over-inflated sense of importance.
I would be such a terrible teacher. =D
Jesus Fucking Christ I just tried to insert a cut and lost half the god damn post. Let's see what I remember, and if I can still be funny about it.
Watched episode 32(? I think?) of The Untamed this morning and talk about The World's Worst Game of Marco Polo Ever. Also, Chinese actors have the market cornered on crying beautifully on cue. They've also mastered that lingering tear resting on the bottom lashes that eventually spills over and never fails to wreck me.
Got 60% Hero 40% Villain the first time I took this Buzzfeed quiz, then changed one answer that shifted the result to 25% Hero, 75% Villain. Welp. *emoji shrug* One of my taglines is The Devil You Know...
Guardian art seen on Twitter.
Bunnies omg this is cute
Stuff from July (but I love that kiss in the lab so much)
Lollipop kiss
Ok, well, not only not as funny but also missing a few things that I forgot in my irritation. Par for the course right now.
I mean...not really? And I guess I shouldn't joke about it? Because people actually having breakdowns isn't funny, and for the most part I 'm holding things together. Showering, feeding myself, getting shit done (mostly). But there's just so much going on with my life that I'm not prepared to talk about (for all my talk I'm ridiculously private about some stuff) and I thought/hoped things would get easier but they're not easier. Well, some parts are easier, but others keep getting harder and sadder. I'm ten seconds and a hangnail away from crying at any given moment and I'm Just So God Damn Tired of it. It's slowing Ghost Story's progress which pisses me off (how dare emotions take such a toll on my writing) but it's not like I can force my brain to put down words that aren't there. Visual art is easier, so thank you to everyone who wanted a card (or tea canister). I'm working on those over the next few days and should get them in the mail next Thursday.
This week's pity party brought to you by the letters I Still Don't Have A Vibrator and This Photo Showing Up On My FB Timeline. That's me at my final bellydance performance, back in June 2014 (no idea why it showed on up FB now, other than to poke another hole in me). I didn't know at the time it would be my swan song, which--thank dogs, that would've been horrible. It might've been one of my best performances (yay?), and that moment in the picture was so fuckin' hot, y'all. I started the song with zills and during the instrumental bridge, the lead singer (I was friends with the band) ran her hands over my sides and up my arms to pull them off so I could finish the song with circular veil. Supposedly there was video of the whole night (we had six dancers, each performing two songs with the band), but I asked twice for a copy and never got one, so... *shrug* It felt good, so I can only assume it looked good.
Anyway. Lack of dance isn't the only thing I'm missing, but the sense memory of that night hit me with a sad bat and...here we are.
Last night I was the guest presenter at
mckitterick 's class on SF and popular media because the week's topic was Fandom and Fanworks and he's in China. So, you know, convenient. khellekson , I'm sure you did a much better job last year at this session than I did (don't be modest, I've seen at least one of your presentations), but I had a great time giving a Philosophy Major Gatekeeping Dude a hard time for two and a half goddamn hours. Yes, this is me, taking my petty little victories where I can. Even (especially?) when they involve smacking down 20-year-old white dudes with a vastly over-inflated sense of importance. I would be such a terrible teacher. =D
Jesus Fucking Christ I just tried to insert a cut and lost half the god damn post. Let's see what I remember, and if I can still be funny about it.
Watched episode 32(? I think?) of The Untamed this morning and talk about The World's Worst Game of Marco Polo Ever. Also, Chinese actors have the market cornered on crying beautifully on cue. They've also mastered that lingering tear resting on the bottom lashes that eventually spills over and never fails to wreck me.
Got 60% Hero 40% Villain the first time I took this Buzzfeed quiz, then changed one answer that shifted the result to 25% Hero, 75% Villain. Welp. *emoji shrug* One of my taglines is The Devil You Know...
Guardian art seen on Twitter.
Bunnies omg this is cute
Stuff from July (but I love that kiss in the lab so much)
Lollipop kiss
Ok, well, not only not as funny but also missing a few things that I forgot in my irritation. Par for the course right now.
Wednesday Update
Oct. 30th, 2019 08:46 amFound on Twitter. You might wanna be sitting down for these.
BB!Shen Wei cosplay
Weilan cosplay
I also saw this Multifandom Secret Virgin Ficfest advertised on Twitter viabonibaru and I'm tempted. Very, very tempted. No way will I be done with Ghost Story by the deadline, but I'm feeling sloggy and blah about where I am with it and it's a daily fuckin' struggle to hit my word count goal right now. Maybe I need a palate cleanser before heading into the home stretch? Idk, idk, something to think about for a couple days. The original announcement led to confusion if this was limited to K-pop fic and it looks like they say it isn't, even though it definitely sounds like it is in the AO3 description. Is anyone else writing for this? ( naye , please tell Dr. Skuld I will read the virgin!Jack fic so hard.)
Card-making was delayed because my gesso was all dried up. Guess that's what happens when you prep a whole bunch of card bases at once and don't use your gesso for over a year. It seemed like such a good idea at the time! So that was a trip to Michael's and nearly $30 because they no longer sell small bottles of gesso. sigh
Last night I saw The HU at a local venue and it was so good. SO GOOD. 1. Metal fans are great. I wish I liked more metal music bc they're all just so damn polite. 2. At several points in the show, I closed my eyes to absorb the sound in my ears, in my chest, and it was like a physical touch--something I've been very much lacking of late. Damn, I love loud music. 3. I highly recommend Etymotic earplugs. I have the first incarnation of their basic version and they are worth every penny. I would like to assume the next generation is the same or better (and who knows, those might be), but as I learned yesterday, this is not always the case.
Because in absolutely heartbreaking news, the new Diva Dolphin arrived yesterday and...I hate it. It's smaller than the old model, the silicone feels (very) different, and I don't like the vibration style. It doesn't even use the same size batteries (which I wish I'd realized before purchasing--that would've been a clue). So yeah, I spent $90 on this thing that I'm never ever going to use and of course sex toy stores never take returns. Y'all, I seriously almost cried. I'm back at square one, I guess, only with less money. sigh
Anyone want a brand-new vibrator that I'm sure will work just fine for someone less picky?
I'm getting my hair trimmed this morning and will see if having my hair straightened (which only happens when I get it cut because I am lazy as hell and dgaf) cheers me up a little bit. I just want a god damn power-assisted orgasm, y'all. My hands are getting tired.
BB!Shen Wei cosplay
Weilan cosplay
I also saw this Multifandom Secret Virgin Ficfest advertised on Twitter via
bonibaru and I'm tempted. Very, very tempted. No way will I be done with Ghost Story by the deadline, but I'm feeling sloggy and blah about where I am with it and it's a daily fuckin' struggle to hit my word count goal right now. Maybe I need a palate cleanser before heading into the home stretch? Idk, idk, something to think about for a couple days. The original announcement led to confusion if this was limited to K-pop fic and it looks like they say it isn't, even though it definitely sounds like it is in the AO3 description. Is anyone else writing for this? ( naye , please tell Dr. Skuld I will read the virgin!Jack fic so hard.)Card-making was delayed because my gesso was all dried up. Guess that's what happens when you prep a whole bunch of card bases at once and don't use your gesso for over a year. It seemed like such a good idea at the time! So that was a trip to Michael's and nearly $30 because they no longer sell small bottles of gesso. sigh
Last night I saw The HU at a local venue and it was so good. SO GOOD. 1. Metal fans are great. I wish I liked more metal music bc they're all just so damn polite. 2. At several points in the show, I closed my eyes to absorb the sound in my ears, in my chest, and it was like a physical touch--something I've been very much lacking of late. Damn, I love loud music. 3. I highly recommend Etymotic earplugs. I have the first incarnation of their basic version and they are worth every penny. I would like to assume the next generation is the same or better (and who knows, those might be), but as I learned yesterday, this is not always the case.
Because in absolutely heartbreaking news, the new Diva Dolphin arrived yesterday and...I hate it. It's smaller than the old model, the silicone feels (very) different, and I don't like the vibration style. It doesn't even use the same size batteries (which I wish I'd realized before purchasing--that would've been a clue). So yeah, I spent $90 on this thing that I'm never ever going to use and of course sex toy stores never take returns. Y'all, I seriously almost cried. I'm back at square one, I guess, only with less money. sigh
Anyone want a brand-new vibrator that I'm sure will work just fine for someone less picky?
I'm getting my hair trimmed this morning and will see if having my hair straightened (which only happens when I get it cut because I am lazy as hell and dgaf) cheers me up a little bit. I just want a god damn power-assisted orgasm, y'all. My hands are getting tired.
