Brain-dead post

[clevermanka]

I got hardly any sleep last night and I'm going to a show in KC tonight. Should be fun. Thank god I'm not driving.

Wednesday's eye check-up showed that I'm almost 20/20 and am progressing well. There's almost no scars remaining on the cornea and everything is healing up nicely. He noticed a bit of dryness, but it was in both eyes, so it wasn't anything to be concerned about since it was most likely environmental. I'm going to increase the number of times I use the recommended eye drops, just in case. Can't hurt.

Dentist appointment today. Blood work tomorrow.

I'm nervous about the blood work results. Despite some sleepless nights this week, I've been feeling good on the T3 meds. I don't want to stop taking them. I hope the lab work doesn't show any out-of-control-crazy numbers. Please. Please.

In yesterday's post, I mentioned my great motivator Shame. ms_danson found the idea horrifying. I can understand why, but what I really mean by "shame" is less Ridicule and more Accountability. By stating goals to others (like here), or having progress measured by another (at the health lab), I put added responsibility on myself. I've increased my motivation to avoid failure. So it's not like I'm aiming for humiliation, but rather I'm trying to avoid having to admit failure. It's a thin line, but a distinct one for me. And yes, it helps. Helps me, anyway.

Damn, I'm tired.

Comments

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

"not like I'm aiming for humiliation, but rather I'm trying to avoid having to admit failure."

I dig that.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

And of course, it's awesome to have friends who respect and love me, even when I do fail!

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

Oh great there goes my plan to point and laugh...

I find your goals and efforts to achieve them inspiring.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Pointing and laughing are not mutually exclusive from love and respect. At least not between us. ;)

*kiss*kiss*

:)

[wyckedgood.livejournal.com]

So glad to hear you are healing well.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

The Russian judges give the eyeballs a 9.9, but the sleeping habits didn't the stick landing and only scored a 5.

Awww

[wyckedgood.livejournal.com]

Well...here is hoping to better.

[ms-danson.livejournal.com]

Not so much horrifying as incomprehensible. The type of accountability to others that you are describing doesn't work for me. I don't care enough about what other people think.