I'm sorry, I have to add empathy to your post. I haven't cried this hard in ages, probably since Maybe-baby took her leave of us in front of a vehicle.

Fetish was the lovingist cat ever... and I remember first meeting her when she was still tiny. Tiny like she became in her demise. I'm so glad she had comfort and relaxation in her final hour.
"one last valiant hiss".. so much Fetish.. that hiss was one of my first memories of her, you'd brought her over to meet us, and not knowing she would hate other cats, she showed her displeasure at there being other cats in the house.

May your cat-shaped hole in your heart mend soon.

R.