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clevermanka) wrote2012-04-26 04:34 am
clevermanka) wrote2012-04-26 04:34 am
Very private secretary
Yesterday, one of the other department secretaries won KU Employee of the Month. I was happy for her, but during the presentation (which lasted forever because I had to pee) I started to feel symptoms of a panic attack just watching her deal with that much attention in that situation.
As an entertainer, I love having people focused on me. I enjoy feeling like I'm giving people a good show. But in my role as secretary, I do not want all those eyes on me. I can't explain it. The idea makes me incredibly uncomfortable. As a secretary, I prefer small, personal gestures of gratitude--like letters and emails of appreciation that I can include in my annual review. I don't even like/want to be thanked publicly in an informal environment (like a banquet or department party). Just...no. Thank you, but please just no thank you.
When the crowd dispersed after the presentation, I whispered to a few of the lingering graduate students in attendance that if I ever won this award, and I found out they were the nominator, I would burn their student file and ensure that they never graduated.
For nearly half an hour after the presentation I had an elevated heart rate and was sweating a little--just from watching someone else get a surprise presentation. Did I mention the award comes with a $750 check? Not worth it to me.
I don't think anyone believed me. It might be an honor to be nominated, but I really hope I don't ever win.
As an entertainer, I love having people focused on me. I enjoy feeling like I'm giving people a good show. But in my role as secretary, I do not want all those eyes on me. I can't explain it. The idea makes me incredibly uncomfortable. As a secretary, I prefer small, personal gestures of gratitude--like letters and emails of appreciation that I can include in my annual review. I don't even like/want to be thanked publicly in an informal environment (like a banquet or department party). Just...no. Thank you, but please just no thank you.
When the crowd dispersed after the presentation, I whispered to a few of the lingering graduate students in attendance that if I ever won this award, and I found out they were the nominator, I would burn their student file and ensure that they never graduated.
For nearly half an hour after the presentation I had an elevated heart rate and was sweating a little--just from watching someone else get a surprise presentation. Did I mention the award comes with a $750 check? Not worth it to me.
I don't think anyone believed me. It might be an honor to be nominated, but I really hope I don't ever win.