It doesn't get easier, you just get used to it

[clevermanka]

mckitterick is at a local SF con this weekend and I'm enjoying the time alone in the house. I've had a wonderful evening of loud music and porn, but as I was getting ready for bed I had an overwhelming moment of grief for missing my Fetish girl that nearly brought me to tears.

God damn it I still miss my cat like she was here yesterday.

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[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

BIG HUG

Go check my LJ it'll cheer you back up.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Hugs back at you.

[seascribe.livejournal.com]

Grief is that way. *hugs* Thinking of you, bb.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you, bb.

[chalcedonygrey.livejournal.com]

[hugs]

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[msmitti.livejournal.com]

I am sorry. Here's a hug from me too.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[pointoforigin.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry. What a sweet, sweet kitty. You are so right. It doesn't go away. My therapist says, "Isn't that a good thing, that we remember those we loved?" I don't know what I think about that. Maybe . . . but it's a dumb question anyway, because of course we remember them. We can't forget. So why ask if it's good or bad? I guess I think it's good that I remember those I've lost, but it's not good that they're gone, and it never will be. I get tears in my eyes looking at this picture, because it makes me think of cats that I've lost. May the sweetness of memory balance its sadness for you.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your beautiful comment.

I treasure my memories of Fetish, but the pain of her loss is too much to balance. I don't regret adopting her, but I don't want any other pets again. It's hard for mckitterick because he wants another kitty, but I can't do it.

[kazoogrrl.livejournal.com]

Playing devil's advocate here, if you ever think you'd be in a position to do it see if local rescues need foster homes. It's sad when they are adopted but good sad. I do know that many of them need people to help socialize their cats and it's a good way to get in some loving w/o a pet.

I promise not to mail you one of my fosters. ;)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

No.

[kazoogrrl.livejournal.com]

Understandable!

[kazoogrrl.livejournal.com]

Hugs, I know exactly what you're talking about.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Hugs back.

[sherwood21.livejournal.com]

I've had cats, and lost cats, but there are some that are once in a lifetime special. *hugs*

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Yep. *hugs back*

[mckitterick.livejournal.com]

She was pure love.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Well. 99% love, 1% fur.

[mckitterick.livejournal.com]

[chronovore.livejournal.com]

KITTY! Cats are awesome. I miss my childhood ones still, so I'm not surprised it's still rough.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

We had a dog when I was growing up, but I guess I never connected to her the way I did my cat. Because damn.