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clevermanka) wrote2014-10-27 11:50 am
clevermanka) wrote2014-10-27 11:50 am
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Tired and tried
Melissa Harris-Perry is speaking at the Lied Center tonight and there is a public panel to discuss the events in Ferguson before that at the library. I've been planning to go for weeks.
I had horrid inflammation issues on Sunday. My wrist hurt, my hips hurt, my head hurt, I was vaguely dizzy/nauseated all day and today is not much better. I'm exhausted.
I have no idea if I'm going to be able to drag myself to tonight's events and that makes me angry and sad and also I can't help feeling a bit of a poser because I sure talk a good talk about race issues and such but then I can't even haul my ass out of the house to actually go to events.
This weekend I watched and photographed![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
mckitterick cutting out the floor for the Chevelle's transmission. Last year I was looking forward to doing that myself and having pictures of me being all badass with the grinding wheel. Last night I had to force myself to go out to the garage just to take photos of someone else doing it.
I need to make a change somewhere. I need to find something that's going to help me feel better. I just don't know what it is yet and I'm tired from looking. I'm tired of posting nothing but complaints here. I'm tired of things not helping. I'm tired of feeling like I'm going to cry every time I talk or type about this stuff. I'm tired.
Update: Just found a great comic about chronic/invisible illness on Tumblr. "It’s the wellness that I fake, not the illness."
I had horrid inflammation issues on Sunday. My wrist hurt, my hips hurt, my head hurt, I was vaguely dizzy/nauseated all day and today is not much better. I'm exhausted.
I have no idea if I'm going to be able to drag myself to tonight's events and that makes me angry and sad and also I can't help feeling a bit of a poser because I sure talk a good talk about race issues and such but then I can't even haul my ass out of the house to actually go to events.
This weekend I watched and photographed
mckitterick cutting out the floor for the Chevelle's transmission. Last year I was looking forward to doing that myself and having pictures of me being all badass with the grinding wheel. Last night I had to force myself to go out to the garage just to take photos of someone else doing it. I need to make a change somewhere. I need to find something that's going to help me feel better. I just don't know what it is yet and I'm tired from looking. I'm tired of posting nothing but complaints here. I'm tired of things not helping. I'm tired of feeling like I'm going to cry every time I talk or type about this stuff. I'm tired.
Update: Just found a great comic about chronic/invisible illness on Tumblr. "It’s the wellness that I fake, not the illness."