Two out of three ain't bad

[clevermanka]

Soooooo I called in sick to work today. Couldn't do it. I've not had more than six hours of sleep a night in a week. I've had a headache since Monday morning. I haven't eaten more than maybe half a cup of food at a time since Friday night's dinner (and I'm probably only getting maybe two cups of food in me a day, all total). My stomach is delicate and tender and I'm Just. Fucking. Wiped. Physically, emotionally, mentally, everything-ally. I couldn't even finish this fucking banana I tried to eat for breakfast. I LOVE FOOD YOU GUYS. This is so weird.

When I saw Dr. Jonah last night I asked him about the radically decreased appetite. He thought it was interesting but said not to worry about it until it lasts for a week, which will be this Saturday. Could be that my body is simply ready to (finally) release a whole bunch of nastiness it's been storing for years and too much food intake isn't conducive to its style of purging.

Speaking of purging, I'm starting to do things to help rid myself of anger. I'm gonna make a separate post about it because that's a really big deal for me, but I don't have it in me to write it all out now, at least not all at once. But yeah, changes. Emotional growth. MY FAVORITE.

And now I'm going to hit the grocery store for just a few things so I don't have to leave the house again until Sunday if I don't want to. I might also run by Kinko's to get my dSSS piece scanned so I can upload it early (the deadline isn't for another three weeks, but if I can get that off my plate why not). Then maybe a nap.

Comments

[msmitti.livejournal.com]

Here's hoping it is just a pre-purge depression in appetite. That would be fantastic if something good came out of this. (I'm so punny and it was totally unintentional!)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[write-out.livejournal.com]

((hugs)) I'm sorry you're having such a rough go of it lately.

I look forward to reading your purging post. Emotional growth fun times! \o/ I still need to write my post on why I can't get anything done. That sounds funny, but I truly can't write it right now. But I think about it all the time!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I still need to write my post on why I can't get anything done.

[splix.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry you can't eat. That SUCKS. :((((

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Especially these next couple days. I mean, it's not like I make a big turkey spread with all the fixings, but I at least was hoping to eat half my weight in roast chicken and sweet potatoes.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

TIMING.
Of course.

:hugs:

[stuology.livejournal.com]

Not being able to eat during gorging season sucks, and the lack of sleep on top of it.

If you need errands so you really don't have to leave the house on Sunday, I'll be around all weekend.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the offer! I'll let you know.

[sherwood21.livejournal.com]

You may have already seen these, but even if you have, here are some pretty pictures to hopefully brighten your day. Margarita Kareva (http://www.boredpanda.com/fantasy-photography-russian-photographer-margarita-kareva/)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Those are beautiful! Thank you for the link!