I think that I shall never see a post as lovely as a tree

[clevermanka]

I had too much on my plate yesterday to write about my fantastic experience during Monday's yoga practice, so y'all get the story today.

I am pretty good at balancing on one leg. I've always felt pretty stable in Vrkasnana. My biggest problem is that my foot tends to slide down the standing leg because fabric isn't grippy like flesh and fuck if I'm gonna expose my legs all the way to my crotch in yoga class. But last night in the privacy of my room, I rolled my pants to my groin for the pose. Why have I never tried this before? I was rock-fucking-solid to the point that I could make all sorts of adjustments (open up the hips more, pull that knee back, center more over the standing leg, don't let the standing hip jut out) while comfortably standing in the pose with my hands overhead.

It was amazing.

Once I settled into the pose I just gazed at myself in the mirror. I looked strong. I looked stable. I looked competent. I looked serene. Yes, I looked fleshy, soft, and bumpy, too. But that soft and bumpy flesh held me in a one-legged balance pose for so long that I lost count of my breaths.

So fuck you, social conditioning. Fuck you for imbedding in me so deeply a shame of my soft, bumpy, and wonderful flesh. What I saw in the mirror last night was beautiful and made me proud of myself.

My thighs can hold up the world. Or at least my part of it.

Comments

[foxestacado.livejournal.com]

Aww that's beautiful :) I always roll of my yoga pants for vrkasnana and it helps with keeping my foot from sliding down the fabric. And some days are just more unstable than other days and that's okay too :)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I can't believe I didn't think of that before now. I don't know that I'll ever be comfortable wearing tiny little booty shorts, but I can totally roll up my pant legs for one pose.

some days are just more unstable than other days

[stuology.livejournal.com]

What I saw in the mirror last night was beautiful and made me proud of myself

:) - That's awesome!

Fuck you for imbedding in me so deeply a shame of my soft, bumpy, and wonderful flesh

I hope Ada grows up thinking otherwise.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I hope so, too. She's already well on her way to not giving a fuck, I think, thanks to your fantastic parenting.

[hdsqrl.livejournal.com]

I am totally flailing with love for this post. :D

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

Fuck Yes! *high five*

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[seascribe.livejournal.com]

*fistbump*

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[msmitti.livejournal.com]

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE every part of this!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[the-lucky-nun.livejournal.com]

My thighs can hold up the world. Or at least my part of it.

ALL CAPS LOCK ALL THE TIME YES!!!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[the-themiscyran.livejournal.com]

YAAYYYYYY! *flails Muppet arms at you*

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[sherwood21.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad you got to see how beautiful and strong you are. :)

P.s., I tried that one tonight. I can go up as far as my ankle and hold it for about a breath and a half. Have to start somewhere though!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

One breath with your foot at your ankle is the perfect way for you to do that pose right now. YAY!

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL. And yes, you do look strong and stable and amazing in yoga class.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Well, shit, what with seeing sherwood21's comment, above, and now yours I'm actually crying at my desk.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

aw.

[theoneinblue.livejournal.com]

❤️❤️❤️

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]