Friday Update

[clevermanka]

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I'll be including this in next week's dump, but this twitter thread is... oof. "If you live with chronic illness, do you remember the first time you considered that you might not get better?" For me, the day of my diagnosis (and every god damned day thereafter). This line, in particular: when I stopped imagining this future better time, I made decisions about the present really differently. Yes.

I really need to get my Essay Writing Brain back so I can write my own experiences about this stuff.

Things are hard and weird right now. mckitterick is working through shit. He says my input is helpful, although my method of therapy is more along the lines of the Bob Newhart skit. We're learning to be friends again and it's nice. (ngl it would be so easy if I were still sexually attracted to him, but... *sigh*)

Caving to practicality, he bought an Actual Functioning Car yesterday (*knock wood*) so we'll have something to drive if/when the predicted nasty weather arrives. A used Nissan Juke. So, yes, another limited-production car but we both like unusual designs so I suppose that's to be expected. We both liked it when it first came out and we remark on them almost every time we see one. So now we have one, and as soon as the Crossfire comes back from the shop, he'll get rid of the Subaru and the Civic so we'll be back to Interesting Cars Only in our (metaphorical) garage.

Started feeling better yesterday, too, which was convenient since we drove twice to nearby town for the car--once to check it out and once to buy it. I'm a little worn down now, but I also just got back from a morning trip to the grocery store before the storm hits. Settling in now with some tea and good music and fic writing. 

Comments

[minoanmiss]

*sends you encouragement*

[clevermanka]

[khellekson]

when I stopped imagining this future better time, I made decisions about the present really differently. Yes.

Oh. Oh. Oh. Oh!

Glad you guys are getting cars that may actually work. It's a safety thing.

[clevermanka]

Oh. Oh. Oh. Oh!
Nothing got me to live in the moment like internalizing the idea that this right here might be the best I ever feel for the rest of my life.

#GottaLoveIt #bcWhatsTheAlternative *emoji shrug*

[khellekson]

This is actually great advice, because none of us is getting any younger or more beautiful. But the hope of feeling better can certainly drive hope, which is... you know... a helpful thing.

[trobadora]

If you live with chronic illness, do you remember the first time you considered that you might not get better?

Huh. I don't actually remember. I think it just crept up on me?

[clevermanka]

The thread of people's answers is an incredible read.

[seascribble]

I'm glad you're feeling better. <3333 Enjoy your nice weekend plans.

[clevermanka]

Thank you! We are currently getting all the rain needed in Australia, with temps dropping to below freezing tonight, and tomorrow up to six inches of snow on top of the ice! \o/

[teaotter]

Oh, that thread. I'm with the people who can't remember the first time because PANIC.

I hope the new-to-you car treats you well!

[clevermanka]

There are way way WAY too many responses, and thousands more of us just reading, just here. It's staggering.

Thank you! *fingers crossed*

[naye]

I hope things will get less hard and less weird soon. *hugs*

The Juke is a cute little SUV! May it serve you well.

[clevermanka]

[write_out]

HUGS HUGS HUGS

[clevermanka]

THANK YOU BB

[umadoshi]

Thank goodness for a reliable vehicle! And I'm glad you were able to get a non-boring one in the process. ^_^

Ugh, winter weather. (We have some sort of freezing-rain thing coming in for Sunday. Yuck.) Yay for being home and cozy and well-supplied!

[clevermanka]

It's going to be so strange driving such a fancy new car. It has one of those mirrors with the rear-facing camera! And yes THANK YOU so happy it's not boring.

Hope the predicted weather turned out not too horrible.