Sober

[clevermanka]

Guardian/adjacent:
Fanart: Veiled. Winter. Hey, gorgeous.
I don't think I've see a screenshot of this with Shen Wei's eyes closed.
Luo Fei gets taken down.
I really miss this hair, y'all. Up close and personal with some leather shoulder straps and D-rings.
Qik made Bai Yu's new song available on Soundcloud!

Dunno who might follow Kpop stuff on Twitter and Insta, but apparently you might wanna look into turning off autoplay.

I think my steadily declining mood from last week's (ha) high of "a strong 2" might be caused by my increasing tolerance. I'm pretty conscientious with how much I smoke (mostly because $$$) and I haven't been getting the relief I'm used to. So I'm (ughhhhhhhh) quitting through the end of the month. I might be kinda quiet for a while here because I know this is gonna be rough and I don't want to stress anyone with my doom and gloom. Or who knows, I might need the interaction to keep from getting completely lost in a hell spiral. *shrug* Hard to say.

Wish me luck, y'all. 😂 I usually do this a few times a year (I like being a lightweight, it's so much cheaper), but never under such spectacularly shitty circumstances. I'll still be linking to the pretty on Twitter at least every other day and I know I'll be on Tumblr.

Also, thanks to naye and kimboo_york  I made some notes for yet another AU to my bunny farm.

Comments

[elayna]

Good luck with quitting! DW has always seemed a good place to me to vent, so please do if you need to.

[clevermanka]

Thanks, and will do! I'll try to remember to put it under a cut at least.

I'm incredibly grateful and fortunate that I don't have a terribly addictive personality. I just dread the psychological burden of "I'm going to ache and be extra tired for a week."

[trobadora]

Oh! I didn't know Bai Yu has a new song. I feel so out of the loop, LOL. Thanks for bringing it here!

Luo Fei gets taken down.

Hee! Yes, good scene. :D

And oh yes, Zhu Yilong's hair ... please. He needs to grow it out again. FOR ME.

Good luck quitting! *hugs*

[clevermanka]

You're welcome, and yes GOD please bring back the fluffy hair!

[teaotter]

Good luck quitting!

Also, your links bring me great joy -- thank you so much for posting them!

[clevermanka]

Thank you and you're welcome!

[undeadrobins]

Good luck, bb! If you need someone to rant at, or to provide pretties, you know where I am!

[clevermanka]

Thanks, doll!

I joke that I wasn't cut out to make it through this life sober, but... I really wasn't cut out to make through especially this life sober. 😂

[undeadrobins]

We all have our coping (or hopefully coping) mechanisms. And we definitely all need them these days.

[naye]

LUCK!!! ♥

And oh boy that closeup with the...harness...? Um. Wow. Okay.

[clevermanka]

Um. Wow.

[naye]

Your posts are the best.

[minoanmiss]

I definitely wish you luck.

also, check your snail mail inbox. Nothing as nice as sone dank nugs, but I do hope it pleases.

[clevermanka]

Oooo! I look forward to it! No mail came for me today but I'll keep my eyes open.

[wrote_and_writ]

❤️💖❤️💖❤️💖❤️💖❤️💖❤️💖❤️

[clevermanka]

Thank you, bb, all the hearts back at you.

[nnozomi]

Your daily links-and-chat post is now a staple of either my morning or my last-thing-at-night, depending on our respective sleeping schedules ;) If you need to take some time off from it I will be sending you good thoughts at those times (and, you know, in general!). Take care.

[clevermanka]

Oh my goodness, what a lovely thing to hear. Thank you! 🥰

[marycrawford]

uh, is it inappropriate to link you to a gorgeous smoking!kink zhubai artwork at this current time? I don't have a smoking kink as such but this is, uh. (so gorgeous tho)...

Good luck! And I love your links so much as always <3

[clevermanka]

It is always an appropriate time to send me smoking pics! 😁 THANK YOU!

[seascribble]

godspeede with your chemicals.

[clevermanka]

Day 3 and things... honestly aren't that much worse! Which I think probably says not a lot of good things about the state of the world.

[redheadfae]

Good to hear!

[brandywine28]

Gaaahh, quitting is brutal at the best of times! Doing it NOW? You have all my respect!

[clevermanka]

LOL! I can quit cigarettes and sugar cold turkey, I can quit anything, but thanks, bb. I'm well into Day 3 and it honestly hasn't been as awful as I feared. Which... is kind of distressing in its own way. I mean, if I can't hope for chemical relief, where do I go from here? 😂

[tinny]

Oh, I didn't see Bai Yu had a new song out. It really is good! (Much better than the last one, which I didn't really like. And they got his consonants right, too! He sounds real. <3) Thank you! (And qik, of course!)

Good luck detoxing! <3

[clevermanka]

Thank you! Quitting's actually been pretty easy this time. I think because by about day three I realized that things were basically the same stoned vs. sober, I just had less of an appetite without the stuff. *emoji shrug*