Smooth-brained

[clevermanka]

Mostly putting this here for tracking purposes.

After a week sans laptop (and thus sans anything capitalism would consider productivity), I'm finding it incredibly difficult to focus while on it. My focus was already pretty shitty due to fatigue and Everything Else, but at this point it's real bad. I'm having trouble just keeping it together to write this post.

Doesn't help that I can't figure out how to save to the local disk on the repaired laptop. The system insists on saving everything to One Drive (which I refuse to use). Even when I tried copying my backup over to the path This PC > Local Disc (C:) > Users > (myname) it told me I'd run out of One Drive space before the backup completed copying over. Currently 400GB free on the local drive and I know I have a lot of images but I don't have that many images. And I know they all fit on the old drive.

I've tried writing a Patreon post three times. I get a few sentences down each time, but after a few minutes (like...five), my brain starts feeling full and I can feel an anxiety attack building up. I have to stop doing anything and just, like, go fold origami stars or play some solitaire (with actual cards) or I'll start spiraling into an actual episode and start crying.

This sucks a lot.

Comments

[wrote_and_writ]

That's beyond frustrating 🖤

[clevermanka]

Soooo frustrating.

I got to hang out with a friend in person tonight tho so I'm hoping a little bit of that energy will carry over into tomorrow

[wrote_and_writ]

Hooray! I hope it does. I find computer stuff to ramp up my anxiety almost instantaneously. Even "easy" stuff. Especially "easy" or obvious stuff. Solidarity!

[clevermanka]

SAME. And yes, solidarity! *fistbump*

[awanderingcoyote]

Oh no I’m so sorry! Def time to set the computer aside and focus on something else that will help you!! Sending hug!

[clevermanka]

Thank you! Returning back to writing would've been difficult enough, but prefaced by tech difficulties? ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[umadoshi]

Fucking hell. ;_; I hope you can get it sorted. That's so exhausting and frustrating. *hugs*

[clevermanka]

Just realized this morning I could uninstall One Drive so maybe that'll help. 🤞

[lunarriviera]

ugh all that sounds truly awful. may it lighten and brighten for you soon, petal. <3

[clevermanka]

LOLOLLLLLLL check my latest post

[lunarriviera]

LAPTOP NOOOOO DDD:

[mekare]

That sucks. {{{{hugs}}}}

[clevermanka]

🫂