Vicious cycle

[clevermanka]

I'm blue. I'm restless. I'm lonely. Since I can't do what I really want (hole up somewhere with someone special for a couple weeks of uninterrupted sloth and affection), I'm craving less healthy indulgences.

Bags of Doritos. Piles of cookies. Plates of nachos. Bowls of ice cream. Pots of strong coffee with loads of real cream and sugar. Pitchers of sangria.

I know if I succumb to a binge, I'll feel even worse (upset stomach, food coma, knowledge of having done Incredibly Stupid Thing). End result: Even more blue, restless, and lonely. With a bit of self-loathing to boot.

How tiresome.

I'm really sick of myself being so whiney and shit. Get a grip, woman. Christ.

Comments

[rougewench.livejournal.com]

Exercise. Go take your restlessness out on some poor defenseless weights.

The endorphins will help.


D.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

The endorphins will help

No, they don't. I'm not one of those people for whom that particular trick works. Matter of fact, I've upped my exercise by about, oh, 100% the past two weeks and I'm actually feeling worse.

I need mental distractions: interacting with friends, crafts, sewing, etc. Luckily, tonight is Lawrence Knit and Crochet at Aimee's coffeehouse so that'll get me out of the house for a couple hours this evening.

[rougewench.livejournal.com]

Scarily enough, then you are someone to whom I would actually suggest the use of video games as purposeful distraction to, but that would assume you had access to such things.


D.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Oh, you know me. I'd spend the whole time thinking "I really could be getting some work done on Notty's costume instead..." =D

My hardest times are afternoons at work, when my mind starts to wander and I get restless...

[rougewench.livejournal.com]

I can well understand that...the hardest times to kill the inner voices are at those moments where we cannot do something to shut them up.

Is there anything you can add to your environment there that would be more internally distracting?


D.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Well, I suppose I could get started on the new department website, but YUCK.

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

"I really could be getting some work done on Notty's costume instead..." =D
Good thought that;) Anytime you want to e-mail me for some Notty fun facts I'll cheer you up! promise!

[tessagratton.livejournal.com]

depending on how long your Knit thing goes on tonight, you can come to McBrides to hang out, if you're up to it. At the Speedway. People will no doubt be there late.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

It goes until 9:00. Doubt I'll feel like driving to KC after that, but thanks for the offer!

[sdemory.livejournal.com]

You need good company.

Admittedly, you've got a fantastic peer group and plenty of good company out there, but you need something more.

You need something Demory.

Fortunately, I know of a source of uncut, pure Demory within relatively easy reach. I'll see what I can do to hook you up.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Rock. Saturday?

[sdemory.livejournal.com]

Either Saturday or we'll see if I call the storm on Sunday once again. This'll be the first step in bringing more Demory into your life.

And, of course, we've got a date set for The Notorious Bettie Page, whenever that comes out. April 15, I think.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Sunday would be better for me, and I know Slow Ride will be open for breakfast.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

You oughta grab a tiara and an ugly green dress and come hang out with The Queens on St Pat's Day. Yeh, I know you'd have to take off from work, that's the idea.
oh well, it was a thought. ;)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Ha! I despise parades, but thanks for offering!

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

I understand.
I feel that waving royally for no apparent reason from a silly float is much better than standing with the unwashed masses and watching, so I'm all for it.

To say the least...

[adammaker.livejournal.com]

I still need that Drink.
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Re: To say the least...

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I'll keep you posted on how my weekend shapes up. I want to get as much sewing stuff done as possible Saturday. But perhaps Sunday afternoon? Especially if I kick off the Lord's Day with a slothful breakfast a la Demory...

Re: To say the least...

[adammaker.livejournal.com]

I start off every Sunday asleep in a Church.
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Till the bells wake me at 10am.

[arian1.livejournal.com]

I recommend good bourbon.

[professormass.livejournal.com]

I suggest writing me gently suggestive love poetry. No, really. It's good for the soul.

For example:

"Roses are red, violets are blue,
Mass, I want to *bleep* you."

See? I feel better already, just writing that example!

It's the Professor Mass Cure-All™, as seen on television. It also makes Julienne fries.

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

You amuse me Professor, thank you.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

*snort*

[mechascorpio.livejournal.com]

No good advice for you, sweetie. Been there and done in by that a loonnnggg time ago (when I had hair). Can only send you good thoughts and assurance that Spring, right around the corner, will probably help immensely.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Spring. Yes, I hope so.

Thank you for the empathy, at least. It does help to be reminded it's not the first time it's ever happened in the world.

[dvicci.livejournal.com]

I'm impressed by your candor. I know you're not one to be so open about such personal feelings online... and knowing you as I do, I reckon you're feeling pretty blue indeed to let it spill over to LJ. Now is one of those times I was telling you about when I miss the Lawrence crowd that much more, except now I'm missing it for you.

You're welcome to come out to KC and help us with our home improvement projects... I'm sure we can find something to keep you busy. ;)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Yesterday was a low spot. Feeling a bit better today.