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clevermanka ([personal profile] clevermanka) wrote2006-03-24 09:20 am
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Love and loss

Thank gods it's Friday of Spring Break and there is nobody around. I'm emotionally exhausted. My friends list today was so full of such overwhelming sadness that I finally just sat at my desk and cried for a minute or so. Lost love, lost trust, lost friends.

As I wept for my friends in front of my computer, I realized that I wouldn't have met any of them without the internet: either usenet news, listservs, or LJ. In fact, despite the fact that some of them are locals, most of our interactions occur electronically. And I am crying for you. Anyone who believes electronic communication is always inferior or more shallow than face-to-face exchanges has no idea of how powerful a friendship can be built online.

My heart is so heavy. But that also means it is full.

[identity profile] lionsaoi.livejournal.com 2006-03-24 03:23 pm (UTC)(link)
I love you.

[identity profile] next-bold-move.livejournal.com 2006-03-24 03:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Poor Lydia. (hugs)

I hope your friend list feels better soon, so you can, too.

[identity profile] rougewench.livejournal.com 2006-03-24 04:09 pm (UTC)(link)
My dear, your full heart is proof of the depth of your soul.

One thing that truly living and truly loving (and experiencing all aspects of that experience) is that it brings one a true empathy for twists in the paths of others. That you feel for them is bittersweet proof that your heart beats strong and true and that you are still amongst the living, emotionally speaking.

Yeah, electronic communication is certainly a valid form, assuming those on both ends of the connection speak plainly (but that is of course true of any other form of communication, isn't it?) If anything, I think connections made on line burn more intensely, because people will, oddly enough, be more plain in this medium, behind the mild odd "safety" of not talking face to face to someone.

May the wheel turn for those you love well.


D.

[identity profile] arian1.livejournal.com 2006-03-24 04:28 pm (UTC)(link)
*HUG* It's touching to know that your friends have someone caring for them as much as you do.

[identity profile] rowangolightly.livejournal.com 2006-03-24 04:50 pm (UTC)(link)
::stands up and waves:: Here's one who is happy!

I absolutely agree that a full heart is far better than an empty one. And that those loved ones we know only via electronic means are as dear, and burn as intensely as those we know in the flesh. I can't differentiate between them...love is love and is always worth sharing.

You are a wonderful friend and I rejoice in knowing you...both ways!

*hug*

I send you -

[identity profile] the-themiscyran.livejournal.com 2006-03-24 05:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Zen Hugs from the next building down the block.

[identity profile] jensixstones.livejournal.com 2006-03-24 05:52 pm (UTC)(link)
I know what you mean. So many around me have had sadness from the same kinds of things you describe though the majority is from loss of friends, family and pets.
I hope that those who you know are suffering find comfort for they obviously still have a friend in you and are not alone in their pain. I also hope you don't have to carry this burden for too long.
themadblonde: (Default)

ok, I WON'T play the clown for once.

[personal profile] themadblonde 2006-03-24 05:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Instead I will say what a great pleasure it has been getting to know you online & that I hope things improve in the lives of those you care for.

& for the record, I'd REALLY like whatever is influencing all the awful pet stuff to end. NOW. Far too many bad things happening in that area for my friends in the last few months.

[identity profile] bestill.livejournal.com 2006-03-24 06:35 pm (UTC)(link)
I am sorry you are sad. And, I am thankful for the internet as well. Even though I met you through a combination of real life people and the internet, Live Journal was what got us 'together" so to speak.

And I am very thankful for your friendship. I wish there was something I could do to make you feel better.

We will have a get together soon and make some art! Call me if you want to talk. I'm screening calls in case the media or other freaks call me . . . so start talking and if I'm hear, I'll answer.

[identity profile] chronovore.livejournal.com 2006-03-27 06:51 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know if my recent thing was among your list of worries, but if so, I am feeling much better now.
By now I hope you are, too.