Bleaugh

[clevermanka]

I was going to write a big angsty post about personal issues and stagnation vs. progress and how contentment does not equal stasis and how I desperately want to make something happen--either with my hands or my brain or my heart or something just oh god I'm so tired of feeling so damned

s t u c k

But I decided fuck it, never mind. People don't need to read that shit. And writing about it/talking about it is going to do absolutely no good at all anyway.

Instead, you should go look at the LiveJournal of the person who pretty much defines physical perfection as far as I am concerned.

I need to start bleeding soon or I'm going to rip out somebody's god damned throat.

I would also not turn down a cigarette.

Comments

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

Dude she is HOT! You SO are glad you don't have a smoke right now, it is bitter cold out.
Um, I hope you bleed before anyone is hurt. (boy that was weird)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Isn't she the hottest thing ever? Jeee-zus.

In a perfect world, I could go smoke at a bar. With a drink. And maybe your company...

Seriously. Hormones suck ass.

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

Ah I wish I could get you to the legion, you can smoke there. But their martinis SUCK, and their wine too. Nothing is perfect.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

How's the vodka tonic? I'd settle for a plain old VT.

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

I can do that. My best vodka though is Skye

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

That's fine. It's the smoking indoors that's the important part. Of course, it being the Legion, I might not be in the necessary mindset to avoid getting my dander up at some of the conversation...

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

I am getting so good at not listening! (now that the election's over it's improved)
Oh OH and there were, GASP! African Americans there on Saturday night to hear the Saxophone player! OMG!

One hit on me.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

You fetching gal, you!

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

Girl, he was a 22 year old tight end from LA playing Football for MANC! I still got it.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Aw yeah.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Oh, and also: did you read that Guy Forsyth is quitting smoking? Good for him, but man talk about heartbreak. I'm just going to have to relish this memory for the brief shining moment that it was (http://chernobylred.livejournal.com/2008/07/23/).

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

I did hear that, and I remembered your memory to PDA.
I myself am wearing that zero smoke magnet on my ear RIGHT NOW and it HURTS!
I haven't quit, I just wore it for the first time last night at the legion and I DID smoke less.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_luaineach/]

Mmmmmmm... a cigarette.

Instead, you should go look at the LiveJournal of the person who pretty much defines physical perfection as far as I am concerned.

And she's ridiculously artistically talented (http://www.biorequiem.com/?page_id=23). And still only 20-something, so with all the good stuff ahead of her.

::stares into space::

Blargh!!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Blargh!!

Dude. Seriously. The chick is freaking amazing. She makes me want to crawl in a hole. Except then I would in all certainty absolutely never have a chance to meet her. And that small hope keeps me going.

Aside: You are doing so well! Think you'll ever have the capacity to be a social smoker? Not that I'm encouraging it or anything. Filthy, filthy indulgence that it is. Just, you know. Askin'.

[radcliffe.livejournal.com]

ooh, suckola of a day!

Oh, and you are welcome to swing by tonight or Thursday with shoes and I will attempt to tempt you with ginger cookies :>

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Tonight I'm supposed to go help bestill prep for her Open House, and tomorrow I have plans, too. Rats.

Maybe next Monday, though? The 8th?

(Alas, the ginger cookies are not an option for me unless you've figured out how to make them with some weirdo hippie alterna-flour.) =D

[radcliffe.livejournal.com]

Yes, I think so! Lets touch base then just in case!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Keen. Just email me sometime on Monday to confirm or deny. Looking forward to seeing you!

[adammaker.livejournal.com]

Laura has the cloves in her car... Dang.
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What a shining hot icon of a woman....
fun to watch.

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Still want a drink today, but still no-cal fasting today (for now).
Working in the cold makes me strongly desire to eat pirogi and drink hot alcoholic drinks.
edit
and meat filled pelmeni
http://www.sras.org/news2.phtml?m=287

[http://users.livejournal.com/_luaineach/]

Working in the cold makes me strongly desire to eat pirogi

Mmmm, mmm, mmm! I am gearing up for my annual pierogi making frenzy in which I have to complete 200+ piergo by Christmas eve dinner. Every year it seems like a ridiculous amount and every year they are gone/being finished by new year's day. (Also, every year I think I will make and freeze them in smaller batches throughout the year, but I don't, and then make them all at once in a burst of bitching at everyone in the house while I do so!)

I so love them, they are one of my few pure carb indulgences, but man alive they suck to make.

::feels fingers stiffen in anticipation::

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Nom nom nom...

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Laura has the cloves in her car... Dang.

I have nowhere to smoke them, so it's just as well that she and the car are in KC.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_starlady_/]

Try WD-40 for the stuckness.

(Here's wishing I actually had helpful advice.)

I'm only a phone call away. Ya wanna talk hormones?

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Ya wanna talk hormones?

=D

Mine finally kicked in today, so I'm feeling better. Crampy, but better. At least emotionally.