Seasoning

[clevermanka]

While I don't always like the topics of conversation that come up on ModernPaleo, today she has a lovely little tutorial on seasoning a cast-iron skillet. I'll be doing this to mine (which has lost its seasoning somehow, and now stuff sticks to it) this winter. No way I am doing this when we've got heat indexes of 108F.

Also found on the internets today was one of the cutest LOLCATS entries evar. Click the photo to go to the larger version on the I Can Haz Cheezburger site.


*ded*

Yesterday I made a pact with miischelle to go grain-free for a week. For me, the actual going grain-free is sort of...normal life. But her post contained the phrase "I'm not going to buy it, order it, ask for it, and I'm going to try very hard not to stare at it longingly." It was the stare at it longingly I placed as my hurdle. Because I'm still craving that god-damned Cinnamon Toast Crunch.

Keeping my brain and hands equally occupied helps me forget about food when I'm not hungry. So I pulled out the visual journal and made an entry about food cravings. As I was writing my feelings and thoughts, I realized something. I mean, I knew (in the back of my mind) but I hadn't ever acknowledged that I have an eating disorder/food addiction. News flash, right? But last night, I realized that whoa, this has been a life-long thing, and over the past couple years it's gotten worse (a lot worse). I'm going to do some research on dealing with food disorders and food addiction. If I don't find resources that work for me, I might look into some sort of one-on-one therapy or maybe even hypnotism. Some friends of mine used hypnotism with various levels of success (for smoking, panic attacks) and I've always thought it sounded cool--even regretted that I had nothing to use it for. Ha! Oh, silly girl-in-denial.

Edit: Okay, fuck all the internet information (I almost put that in quote marks because really it is no helpful information at all) on compulsive eating and food disorders. What a load of annoying crap! Jesus. If this is what it's like for alcoholics and drug addicts, I understand why people are loathe to enter treatment. "Distract yourself!" "Find God!" "Come to our meetings!" UGH. What a bunch of fucking annoying bullshit. This is supposed to help...how? I mean, is this approach seriously beneficial for some people? o_O

In a moment of serendipity, Mark Sisson's Primal Blueprint Insider newsletter this week contained some terribly appropriate links. How To Break Bad Habits, How To Develop Good Habits, as well as Ten Baby Steps to Going Primal.

Also, this morning's email delivered to me Trainer Chris D's first workout. It starts...with jumping rope. *cringe* He said he'd be targeting all my weak areas right off the bat. We never even discussed jump rope, ever! How did he know?

Comments

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

You brought something up and I wanted to see if that was really happening. I don't think that's obsessive. I think that's wanting to do the research.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

Not that I'm obsessive when it comes to research,
ha! who me?!!

OKay, just recently, if that helps...

July 5 Made myself a salad..
July 4 Made hashbrowns...
July 2 (meh, not all that relevant) water v/ coffee intake
July 1 same subject mentioned
June 29 (in your own words) all I talk about is food
(might be where that got into my head?)
June 26 veggie shopping
June 25 cooking
June 24 motivation exercise v/ eating?
June 23 (related) exercise
June 20 zucchini pancakes
June 19 zucchini pancakes
June 18 body talk
June 17 yes, cupboard purge (not really counting)
June 16 food/exercise
June 15 donuts
June 14 food issues
June 11 hungry but not eating

Not being argumentative, just saying that there are indeed "days in a row" about food there. And that you even mention it yourself at one point.

And on the "what's next to eat" horizon, we have to go further back, so try March 26 and Feb 20. I know, it's not recent, but it puts the thoughts in my mind of "really? do people actually put thought into 'what's my next food?'

And I might have become aware of this because my Jbird is sometimes a "ok, that was lunch, what are we having for dinner?" or "what did you eat for lunch" repeat questioner.

Okay, now I must get back to work!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

You're using my sharing cooking tips and recipes as examples of exhibiting an eating disorder? Really? Sorry, but I think you're way off base.

Do I have issues? Yes. Am I posting day after day of blog posts about eating issues? No. We're going to have to agree to disagree on this.

Edit: really? do people actually put thought into 'what's my next food?' When we're the meal-planners and we want to get as much nutritive value for our ever-shrinking dollar, well...yeah. Sometimes.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

Sorry, I thought the subject was a focus on food, not specifically posts concerning possible eating disorders.

Never mind that I brought it up, I'm probably way unbalanced in my outlook on everything right now, and misinterpreting.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Ah. Yes, I focus a lot on food. I love it! I love cooking, I love feeding people. It's a big part of my life, and it's a hobby I enjoy.

My concern is with my obsessions with unhealthy food that makes me feel like crap.

Do I feel bad for eating real, good, healthful food? Oh hell no. Sorry I didn't make it clear that my eating healthful food was not something I was concerned about.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

*unhealthy*

See, I missed that part, somehow. That you're worried about the junk food obsessions, specifically.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I anticipate to continue posting a lot and unapologetically about my adventures in Healthful Eating. =D

[royal-spice.livejournal.com]

Thanks for being this obsessive--I was wanting to find those zucchini pancakes again so I can make them for dinner tonight!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

LOL! If you ever want to search for one of my recipe posts, just search via my "cooking" tag.