Turning over an old leaf

[clevermanka]

I am ignoring the heaps of tasks on my desk for the moment because my brain needs a break like whoa. I'll wait until the mail is distributed and then start up on the scanning and uploading application materials. Again. I finished yesterday's uploads (not counting GRE score reports) at 9:30 this morning, so go, me.

For anyone who's wondering if I'm keeping up with the 100 Burpee Challenge, the answer is yes! Yes, I am. Today marked a count of a dozen. The most I can do at once is nine, though. After nine, I take a minute to ease the shaking in my thighs before finishing. Weak! Tuesday I tried to go for all ten at once (after all, I'd done nine the day before). On the tenth one, my legs failed and I fell kinda hard on my knees. Good thing I was on the nice floor pad in my dance space. My goal: do ten in a row on Sunday. Sunday! Sunday! Sunday! Thanks, shanmonster for suggesting this challenge. I think I figured it out that I'll be wrapping up the 100 around Spring Break time, so that's perfect!

Last night I was in a good space--high energy levels, positive about The Big Meeting I'd had, feeling a little frisky--just all around awesome. mckitterick was still in class, so I had the place to myself. I put on loud music, grabbed a bottle of wine, turned off the lights, and danced around the living room. I had the realization that I feel more myself than I have in years. Years. And this is happening in the winter? Right during the darkest time of the year? Craziness! It's amazing how suddenly--I mean really suddenly, just the past week--all the things I've been doing have come together like snap and I feel human. Or, at least, my version of human. Eating clean, acpuncture, realistic exercise, moderate chemical enhancement, all of these things I've been incorporating over the past, what? Year and a half? My body just reached this level of rightness and it is so so so incredibly amazing.

I also realized, when I was later discussing this revelation with mckitterick that there are people I know, people with whom I'm very good friends, who have never met this person. In fact, most of the people I hang out with now never knew me when I wasn't dealing with significant health problems and their accompanying emotional/mental baggage. And then I realized that even I was now unfamiliar with this person. Very. Weird.*

So, yeah. Looks like 2012 might be interesting.

*Edit: I realize this makes it sound like I'm suddenly unrecognizable. Not at all. I'm still myself, just, well...more so.

Comments

[anomali.livejournal.com]

I had to look up this Burpee of which you speak. At first, I was thinking that this involved planting seeds or emitting gas, but I see that it is crazier than either of those; )

I am happy to hear that you are feeling like your new self!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

At first, I was thinking that this involved planting seeds or emitting gas, but I see that it is crazier than either of those; )

Ha ha ha!

They appeal to me because they use just about every muscle group and incorporate the demands of a sprint without my having to actually run.

[anomali.livejournal.com]

It really is an awesome workout. Actually, my track coach a couple of lifetimes ago used to make us sprinters do these on days we couldn't run outside on the track. I found that wrist supports were a good idea.

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

"They appeal to me because they use just about every muscle group and incorporate the demands of a sprint without my having to actually run."

Sounds like something I couldn't possibly do.

I am thrilled to meet the feeling better you.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Sounds like something I couldn't possibly do.

If you say you can't, then you can't!

[mckitterick.livejournal.com]

The other side of that coin is that if you believe you can, you will!

EDIT: Didn't see your response below. Hahahahaa! Never mind ;-)

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

You're RIGHT, let me rephrase- Wouldn't do. ;)

You may now roll your eyes.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Not gonna roll my eyes at a more honest answer. =D

[mckitterick.livejournal.com]

I like this new-old you ;-)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Perhaps you should wait to observe more evidence before you reach a verdict.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

Wow. That's fabulous. I wonder if the endorphin kick is bringing all this out in you?

I'm thrilled for you!!!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

And you're one of the few who knew me when! Woohooo!

[adammaker.livejournal.com]

Glad that you are feeling fine

AND
Have it turned up to 11.

Yay 11!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Eleven is pretty great, yeah.

[stuology.livejournal.com]

Sweet!!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

PARTY TIME!