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[clevermanka]

Last night I succumbed to emotional eating. Indulging in doughnuts and other grain/sugar poisons is not a possibility for me, so I ate a whole bunch of pistachios, pumpkin seeds, and a few prunes. No surprise I didn't feel better (emotionally), and today I am swollen up like whoa, as you might imagine. It's been...months? Maybe a year? Well, it's been long enough that I don't remember the last time I ate something to make myself feel happier. I vaguely remember writing something about it when it happened. How after doing my first Whole30, I no longer got the positive chemical feedback from binge eating during an emotional crisis. I tried to find when that was, but I searched my LJ tag "food issues" back to January 2011 without finding a reference to it. I decided that was long enough ago to say the last time I did this was a really long time ago. I wonder how long it's going to take this swelling to go down. I wonder how long it'll take to get back to the 30" waist. Stupid, stupid. THINGS WERE GOING SO WELL.

Only four days of the cortisol regulator supplements remain. I can't tell if it's helping. I don't know if I should call Dr. Khosh's office to ask for more or wait for my next appointment. My next appointment really isn't that far away. Friday the 20th. This summer is flying past.

I hate that.

This is a good Tumblr post about how it's stupid to attack people just because you don't see eye to eye on everything. "You don’t have to give up and stop being critical of things that don’t feel right with you. But for fucks sake, we have got to stop hating our allies just because we don’t agree with them 100% of the time."

I saw this on Tumblr yesterday, too, and thought YES.


Can I tell you how tempted I am to cosplay this crossover/mashup? OMG YOU GUYS.

Comments

[renniemom.livejournal.com]

Boo for bloating :-(

Love the rape analogy. So perfect.

DO IT! You will totally rock it. Can't wait to see the finished Dorothy.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

I don't know that I'll actually make it. I don't go to enough cons to justify more costumes. =/

Maybe for Halloween someday. This year's already spoken for, though, and I think next year is, too.

[djangodurango.livejournal.com]

Is that a Fallout crossover? I mean, it fits really well with the whole Mr. House/New Vegas thing and that does look vaguely like a Merc Charmer outfit.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

It's Wizard of Oz/Resident Evil.

[siro-gravity.livejournal.com]

ah. Emotional eating. Thing is, when I'm doing it, I don't care. But then...it can be as soon as immediately afterward that I actually DO care. And it not once in my life has eating to feel better made my emotional condition anything but WORSE. :( And yet, I will still try to alleviate my feelings with food. Why?

At least you didn't eat a box of donuts.
At least there is TODAY, and you will do things differently.
Etc...

That's also a really great Tumblr post!!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Many moons ago, doughnuts and other binge eating really did make me feel better. I could have a miserable, absolute shit week, eat a bag of powdered sugar gem doughnuts with a quart of milk, and I would feel better for days.

But yes, exactly, what's important is that Today is Today and I am choosing to do things differently!

[msmitti.livejournal.com]

this is so mature. I envy you. :) After my binges (of any sort) I just slide into self loathing.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

This is where narcissism/vanity is a good thing. I like myself too much for self-loathing.

[saffronhare.livejournal.com]

And...I only JUST NOW got the joke with your title for this post. :: headdesk ::

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Hon, I would bet dollars to doughnuts that you're one of very few. =D

And it tickles me to death that somebody got it and said something!

[grnvixen.livejournal.com]

Boo for bloat! And yeah, I miss binge eating too. Not for same reasons, just plain fear of the GI consequences :).

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I'm still up nearly an inch this morning. *sigh*

STUPID STUPID

[chronovore.livejournal.com]

http://www.buzzfeed.com/steampunk/prada-goes-steampunk-for-fall-3n9d

Um.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I saw the preview of this collection a few months ago. The attachment of the term "steamp*nk" when it's simply updated/reworked Victorian makes me throw up in my mouth. I am so fucking tired of people over-using the term steamp*nk I can't even tell you. I feel sorry for real, actual steamp*nkers (even though a lot of them bug the shit out of me).

The collection itself is lovely, though. This particular grouping makes my panties drop.