Be flexible when the boat comes in

[clevermanka]

A new Tumblr collection: Tuesday, August 21, Smoking 3.

Yesterday was my third (third?) visit with Dr. Khosh. He is keeping me on the stuff to decrease my estrogen, the adrenal support capsules, and the anti-anxiety/sleeping capsules. He added back in the original cortisol regulator tablets. I take two of the adrenal support pills and an anti-estrogen pill with breakfast; one adrenal support pill, an anti-estrogen pill, and one cortisol regulator pill with lunch; and an anti-estrogen pill and two cortisol regulators with dinner. Then two of the sleeping pills before bed.

I need another weekly pill-minder container.

I need to see some improvement in my abdominal swelling issues.

I need a massage.

I need to buy a winning lottery ticket.

Last night I decided to hit the fuck-it button and I opened a bottle of wine. It wasn't a very good wine (I think someone had brought it to one of parties or something--it wasn't something I would have purchased) and it was pretty awful. I had two sips and quit. I didn't have the inclination to open a new one. So I guess I'm still Whole30-ing it.

My appetite isn't so great the past few days. That's not helping to build muscle. I know I haven't been getting in 100g of starchy glucose every day, either. I am terrified of overdoing it with the starch. I wish there was something I could take that would be like "take two tablespoons twice a day for 100g of glucose." Incorporating bananas and such into my diet scares me because I worry it's a recipe for disaster. I have emotional eating issues when it comes to sweets, and being told I should eat more sugar (in whatever form) makes me uncomfortable. It took me a long time to beat the sugar demon and I don't want it back, thanks.

I'm concerned that I'm not eating enough, or eating too much, or not eating of protein/fat/carbs, or eating too much protein/fat/carbs. But even the idea of keeping a food diary is exhausting. Do you know what a pain in the ass it is to include something as simple as tuna salad in a food diary--when your tuna salad contains seven or eight ingredients, and is never the same twice? Or when you make mostly one-pot dinners and never measure while you're cooking? Or when your lunches are usually reheated dinners, and are usually frozen so you don't get tired of eating the same thing for two weeks and when you finally thaw it out you have no hope of remembering what all was in it, much less the quantity?

*sigh*

I did almost ninety minutes of mobility work this morning. Half an hour of rolling out my entire lower half (including some awkward maneuvering to roll out my adductors) and back, then nearly an hour of yoga. I was distressed to realize I can't get into plow pose anymore and my shoulder stand was wobbly and crooked because my back is tight (I looked like this, and could only hold it for about five breaths). On the plus side, side angle pose was great and I held it for a full ten breaths on each side. Yay for increasing lower body strength.

I'm committing to doing yoga on Tuesday and Thursday mornings when I don't go to Crossfit. This decreasing flexibility stops now.

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/_luaineach/]

The food diary is very easy once you just get going. I cook all from scratch and it is only a pain in the ass to enter a recipe once. And if it is changed up (as is often the case), I don't sweat the fact that now it doesn't have a cup of onions but DOES have a cup of carrots. And for stuff that is frequently switched up (salads, stir frys), I just have a 'base' recipe saved with things I know are always in it (like the salad is a base recipe of lettuce, onions and the dressing but i don't ever have a salad without at least those three things) and then just add the additions as single items ('.25 cup green peppers', etc.). Even estimates are better than nothing!

All that said, I do think it is a TOTAL pain in the ass to get going with it. I have 240 either recipes or items (i.e. brands or styles that didn't come in their data base that i had to manually enter) in "my refrigerator" in my food diary and it is entirely the reason why I stick with the food diary I use, even when it went to being a pay service. But, even with it being a total pain the ass, time is going by whether you start it or not and a year from now you'd rather you'd have started it then still be right here.

DISCLAIMER: the opinion above is from a person who finds it inconceivable to not use a food diary, even if only to track vitamin levels. Input is the one shot you have at controlling your body chemistry for the better, so for me it is impossible to treat that as something not worthy of having all available data on. Plus, i like systems so it is hard for me to imagine treating body chemistry in an unsystematic way. Huge bias aside, though, I still think you'd be happier a year from now for having started than not! :)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Which one do you use, and how much is it? Fitday makes me want to cry. It's so horrible to use.

[miischelle.livejournal.com]

I used one of those food diary sites for awhile too, and if I'd had internet access at work at the time I totally would have kept up with it. It was excellent at storing recipes, counting everything and I think it had a fitness tracker as well....
myfooddiary.com maybe?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_luaineach/]

MyFoodDiary (https://www.myfooddiary.com) is the one I use. It is VERY easy and intuitive. It is 9$ a month.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

That sounds REALLY helpful for me too.
I have the same problems as CR for tracking food choices.

It may also stop me from being lazy and making food choices like something called Bourbon Chicken today at the cafeteria. There are no options for getting ingredients and info on cafeteria items at, of all places, a HOSPITAL. grrr.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I've been playing around with MyFoodDiary a bit over the noon hour and so far it's worlds and away better than FitDay.

SAY NO TO THE BOURBON CHICKEN.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

I had to eat it today. It was tasty as hell, and it was the only thing on the line that wasn't breaded, some sort of pasta or served on a bun.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_luaineach/]

I was telling CR that I frequently find myself using it as a food "planner", in that I'll plug foods in for the day to see what works with the numbers I want to achieve, and then eat those foods (as opposed to eating and then recording). It helps to keep me from going totally off the rails and eating the entire box of Frosted Flakes that I let Jet get as a treat. For example.

The database it comes with is not exhaustive but it's pretty full (for example, for Bourbon Chicken, it pulled up items from six different restaurants and/or prepared food product (i.e. foster farms frozen bourbon chicken) so it helps you narrow in on things like that. And, as i've commented elsewhere, I find the adding of items and/or meals and/or recipes to be non-horrible. Enough so that I actually use this thing (and have for years) which is saying a lot.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

Thanks, that's a great plan.
It can probably give me an idea of what I might be seeing here, although it's my understanding that our hospital prepares everything on the premises and doesn't use frozen food products. I'll have to ask the food service/catering director to find out for sure.
(Granted, hospitals are the worst places to get decent up-to-date nutrition information, but this one does do cool things like Mongolian BBQ bars and taco bars on certain days, and has a great line cook and a decent salad bar.)

[http://users.livejournal.com/_luaineach/]

er, commented in the wrong place. See above (or below, or wherever it is).

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thanks!