I'm not a quitter, but if I was, I'd be doing it right about now

[clevermanka]

This is pretty much how I feel right now, guys.


SO DISPIRITED.

Yesterday I was about two seconds and one piece of bad news from breaking down into tears. Not even any bad news in particular. Just...anything. Which, of course, came at 4pm when the fucking useless nurse at First Med left a message on my voice mail (I was in a fucking useless meeting) that made it plain she hadn't paid any attention at all to what I actually said in my message (that I left at 9am) about getting Dr. Burt to sign off on the blood work requested by Dr. Khosh. Not only did she not listen to my message she made a big deal of not knowing how to pronounce "Khosh" by trying to say it three times and then doing that typical American thing where she huffed and blew it off like "this crazy foreigner's name is too much trouble for me and why can't you just see a normal American doctor like A NORMAL PERSON." FUCK YOU NURSE CHERYL. OR SHERYL. WHATEVER.



When I called back, I was told that it was too late for him to sign off on them, and that if I wanted to get him to sign off on these blood tests, that I would need to come in and talk to him about them. That means taking more time off work and paying my $25 co-pay for an office visit.



The whole situation made me incredibly angry and I said I'd have to think about this and call them back (which I did this morning--I have an appointment for 8am on Thursday). It just seems like such a scam and not at all sympathetic to the patient. Also, I wanted to punch nurse Cheryl in the fucking face because she wouldn't even talk to me on the phone and instead made the poor receptionist relay all this information to me.



With these latest developments, I'm not going to be writing up anything about the halfway mark of the AIP. Because why. I'll wait until the end of the month to see how I feel about writing up my experiences after March 2. Right now I just want to chuck the whole goddamned thing and drink a bottle of wine. With some sweet potato fries. And a bowl of curry.







Luckily, last week I prepped a good Tumblr collection for today. I didn't realize at the time how very necessary it would be that I'd have such a pretty theme for me in my time of need. I give you Tuesday, February 19: Boys Kissing. You're welcome.

Comments

[orrin.livejournal.com]

Okay, missing the point here a bit, but that Stitch gifset is the best!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Ha! Thanks. Well, you know it's laugh or cry around here, and crying's more likely to fuck up my mascara.

[pennswoods.livejournal.com]

I have nothing but words of support for you. This sounds frustrating. And that is a beautiful, beautiful photoset. The older ones are making me all weepy.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you. And I'm happy you liked the collection! Yeah, those old ones are so touching. HURRAY FOR LOVE!

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

Oh honey.

I'll bet it's the same stupid cunt who "interpreted" my bloodwork and gave me her opinion on my voicemail as well, like NOT HER FUCKING JOB for one, and with no clue about why I had it done, so WRONG AGAIN, BITCH. I'd say Dr. B needs to know about it.

The Stupid, it hurts.

Solidarity chestbump.
And oh crap... Thurs morning? I'm so sorry, that's going to suck ass.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Oh, Dr. Burt is definitely getting an earful from me about S/Cheryl you better believe it.

Maybe the weather will miss us. It's only Tuesday. And it's Kansas. Forecasts change. POSITIVE THINKING, YO.

[carmy-w.livejournal.com]

Loved that tumblr! I watched the first montage; the second-I'll wait till lunch, to do it justice. I just had to laugh at that LJ post-FANTASTIC!

And, as I said in my comment earlier-have a hug, and hope you feel better soon, in all the varied ways it is possible to feel better!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I am so ready to feel better. Right now I just feel like taking a nap.

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

I'd take the nap. I'm so sorry about your Dr. / nurse frustrations.

I will look at your boys at home tonight.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Soooo taking a nap in one hour and two minutes.

[msmitti.livejournal.com]

stomping and growling in solidarity.

Or a hug, if you'd rather.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I think right now the solidarity stomping is more appreciated.

[sherwood21.livejournal.com]

I geev her a 'hah!' and a 'hi-yah!', and then I keek her, sir.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[alryssa.livejournal.com]

UGH. I'm sorry you're having a shitty week, bb.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thanks. The past year has been pretty rough for me, honestly. Had some good talk with mckitterick about it last night and will be posting about that today.

*le sigh*

[orrin.livejournal.com]

Okay, missing the point here a bit, but that Stitch gifset is the best!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Ha! Thanks. Well, you know it's laugh or cry around here, and crying's more likely to fuck up my mascara.

[pennswoods.livejournal.com]

I have nothing but words of support for you. This sounds frustrating. And that is a beautiful, beautiful photoset. The older ones are making me all weepy.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you. And I'm happy you liked the collection! Yeah, those old ones are so touching. HURRAY FOR LOVE!

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

Oh honey.

I'll bet it's the same stupid cunt who "interpreted" my bloodwork and gave me her opinion on my voicemail as well, like NOT HER FUCKING JOB for one, and with no clue about why I had it done, so WRONG AGAIN, BITCH. I'd say Dr. B needs to know about it.

The Stupid, it hurts.

Solidarity chestbump.
And oh crap... Thurs morning? I'm so sorry, that's going to suck ass.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Oh, Dr. Burt is definitely getting an earful from me about S/Cheryl you better believe it.

Maybe the weather will miss us. It's only Tuesday. And it's Kansas. Forecasts change. POSITIVE THINKING, YO.

[carmy-w.livejournal.com]

Loved that tumblr! I watched the first montage; the second-I'll wait till lunch, to do it justice. I just had to laugh at that LJ post-FANTASTIC!

And, as I said in my comment earlier-have a hug, and hope you feel better soon, in all the varied ways it is possible to feel better!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I am so ready to feel better. Right now I just feel like taking a nap.

[nottygypsy.livejournal.com]

I'd take the nap. I'm so sorry about your Dr. / nurse frustrations.

I will look at your boys at home tonight.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Soooo taking a nap in one hour and two minutes.

[msmitti.livejournal.com]

stomping and growling in solidarity.

Or a hug, if you'd rather.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I think right now the solidarity stomping is more appreciated.

[sherwood21.livejournal.com]

I geev her a 'hah!' and a 'hi-yah!', and then I keek her, sir.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[alryssa.livejournal.com]

UGH. I'm sorry you're having a shitty week, bb.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thanks. The past year has been pretty rough for me, honestly. Had some good talk with mckitterick about it last night and will be posting about that today.

*le sigh*