7,800 Swings

[clevermanka]

All my fine and fancy talk about not quitting with the 300 Swing Challenge was for naught. I'm throwing in the towel.

Yesterday I had to split up my last set of fifty into two twenty-fives because my legs were shaking. When I got home from work I was so tired I could barely do my Absolutely Must Be Done Tasks (slice flank steak and set to marinade for jerky for 221B Con, put in a load of laundry so the stain in one of mckitterick's shirts didn't set, put dirty dishes in dishwasher). We went out for burger salads (there was no way I was able to cook) and by the time we got home my big-size jeans were so uncomfortably tight I had to unfasten them (button and zipper) just so I could sit down on the couch. By the time 9:30 rolled around, I was getting my second wind and had to force myself to go to bed. This morning I was so physically weary (although somewhat mentally alert) I had to force myself to get up.

Any one of those things hints at adrenal fatigue, but all put together they practically scream it. Maybe if I wasn't getting ready for a near-week-long trip away from home (my first one in, like, five years) I might push myself to finish out the thirty days, but under the current circumstances I can't. Continuing is not the responsible thing to do. It's not respectful to my body and it's not fair to my buddies I'll be hanging with next week. I don't want to be dragging and exhausted at the con and I don't want to set myself back another several months health-wise.

I am SO ANGRY about this. So frustrated. So ... sad.



NGL, I cried last night when I made the decision to give up.

I'm also telling Andrew that I'll be taking the next week off. That'll be three weeks in a row of not meeting with him. Scary thought--and a little depressing--but it's for the best. I'll at least have the time to incorporate focused yoga sessions several times a week.

Maybe I'll try the 300 Swings next March.

Comments

[kazoogrrl.livejournal.com]

There seems to be so much woo woo around it, and it gets blamed for everything. But I think as more research plus personal experience gets out there the legitimacy is undeniable.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I'm mystified how something that can be fatal in extreme cases (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Addison%27s_disease), but is considered hypochondria, all-in-your-head, or woo-woo when it isn't extreme. Like, WE'LL ONLY TAKE YOU SERIOUSLY WHEN YOU'RE DYING AND CAN'T BE FIXED.

It's just like Hashimoto's (which I also have). Because my thyroid numbers often look fine (because it's not my thyroid that's the problem--it's my immune system), I went undiagnosed for close to ten years because gosh my bloodwork didn't show anything bad enough to treat.

And even now that I have a diagnosis, there is nothing that standard western medicine can do to treat either illness because there is no pharmaceutical money driving the research.

This whole topic makes me a bit tetchy. As you might have noticed.

[kazoogrrl.livejournal.com]

I think sadly adrenal fatigue ends up lumped together with things like wheat intolerance, or how it used to be with chronic fatigue. It seems like it's suddenly "the thing" that people have wrong with them. And then information gets better and there's more factual information out for people to evaluate and then a-ha, yes, this IS a real problem!

OC is also dealing with Hashi's and thought that was what was behind her latest problems but more and more is pointing at adrenal fatigue.

So yeah, some of us are a little slower on the uptake but are trying to get more educated!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Yay for education and open minds!

It's been my experience that Hashi's and adrenal fatigue go hand in hand. Seems like the cases where someone doesn't have both are few and far between.