It's a gorgeous Friday and I just want to crawl back in bed for all the wrong reasons

[clevermanka]

So. Tired.

I have yet to recover from Sunday's overexertion. Having my period this week certainly didn't help. My body isn't quite as lethargic, but my brain is still slow and wow am I tired just all the time. And the swelling? Oh god, the swelling. Horrible. Just as bad as it's ever been.

I'm thinking about contacting Andrew to say "Hey, let's give this a rest for a few weeks" which is super depressing but it's not in my best interests to keep pushing hard exercise when it's not working for me. I'm definitely getting stronger, but that's the only way my body is improving. I'm not shedding fat, I'm not feeling better, I'm not more energetic. Maybe I need to return to a program of just daily yoga for a while. Thinking about this too much makes me want to cry so I'm not thinking about it too much. Which is why I haven't sent Andrew any messages about it. I gotta decide, though. Today, probably.

I'm also considering stopping seeing Dr. Khosh. My energy levels are for the most part better (when I haven't run myself ragged), but we've had that pretty much resolved for a while. Nothing else I've been seeing him for has seen improvement. My thyroid numbers are still screwy as hell and the four-week period where my swelling decreased might've been a fluke because it never happened again.



Thanks to feeling like a sluggy slug, I'm not exactly eager with anticipation about it, but I'll be performing at the June Raqs Boheme show in KC:



Yay.

Comments

[seascribe.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I am sorry you are feeling crappy and plateau'd. I hope the belly dance event is fun though, it looks AWESOME.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thanks! There might be video. We'll see.

[msmitti.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry about the body stuff not resolving at all. Perhaps a break from everything will let your body decide it isn't worried about it, so it will start working again. *here's hoping!*

I'm happy you are performing though. It looks like a fun show.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Perhaps a break from everything will let your body decide it isn't worried about it, so it will start working again

Yeah. Maybe? Or at least not get worse?

It'll be an interesting show, that's for sure! If you wanna come up for it, you can crash at our place.

[msmitti.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I might take you up on that.

[sherwood21.livejournal.com]

:( I am sorry you feel bluh and ucky. *hugs*

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you for hugs. Much appreciated.

[kazoogrrl.livejournal.com]

Having never seen you dance I hope there is video!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

If there is, I'll post it. Promise!

[gansje.livejournal.com]

June 20 is nice and far away -- hopefully you'll have more energy and be less swollen by then. I'm so sorry you're sick and miserable. :( :( :(

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you. And yes, crossing fingers!

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry that the cortisol issue seems to be negating any improvements. Or progesterone.. or WHATEVERTHEFUCK it is that is stopping progress.

Truly sorry. This sucks.
:sad fistbump:

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I am, at least, MORBIDLY AMUSED at the fact that my body is rebelling against the one exercise I've found that I LOVE TO DO.

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

*super-smooshy hugs* I'm sorry that you're feeling so blah and crappy.

I hope the bellydance show is at least fun! <3

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

It'll be INTERESTING at least! Feeling so much better today, too. YAY!

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

Yay for feeling better!! :D

[mckitterick.livejournal.com]

That there is a great poster.

All you need is your first name. You're awesome.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]