It's yours--waste it all you want

[clevermanka]

Seen on Tumblr: “It’s messing people up, this social pressure to “find your passion” and “know what it is you want to do”. It’s perfectly fine to just live your moments fully, and marvel as many small and large passions, many small and large purposes enter and leave your life. For many people there is no realization, no bliss to follow, no discovery of your life’s purpose. This isn’t sad, it’s just the way things are. Stop trying to find the forest and just enjoy the trees.” Sally Coulter

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YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

My back is soooo much better. I walked up the hill to work again today! It's always better in the morning so that helps.

I've been sleeping well, too. The only change I've made is I'm eating more in general and also eating more carbs, especially late in the day. The first week after I hurt my back, I let myself binge on all sorts of carby foods and man I slept like a fucking baby. I even took naps a couple days and managed to sleep seven or eight hours straight through the night. So it's a good thing I've given up caring about losing this belly fat.

I've also given up the idea of a mid-life career change. I was playing around with the thought, but four days flat on my back reminded me of how much I benefit from the state of Kansas's generous sick leave allowance. I used to work at a (horrible) office that allowed three total sick days per year. And if I was self-employed, I would have simply been out of luck making any money those days I could barely even stand. So, yes, despite the issues of this job, I'll be staying here. I just need to find solutions for the things that bother me or stop letting them bother me so much.

I am so glad it's Friday. This was a long-ass week. I'm seeing some friends perform tonight at a tiny little hole in the wall bar just north of the river and Saturday I'm gonna do something in the sewing room--not sure what yet, but something. I got a custom order for a pair of bloomers this week and I made them last night. It'd been a long time since I sewed anything (months!) and it felt good. Maybe I'll make myself a sundress or something fun for Comic-Con so I don't spend the entire week in jeans and tee shirts.

Speaking of bloomers, remember they're 20% off with coupon code SUMMER20. It's good through July 20. I'm not taking any custom orders after July 16.

Edited: Thanks to The Toast Link Roundup today, I discovered that the Sherlock living room wallpaper comes in red. DID NOT NEED TO KNOW.

Comments

[wasabi-poptart.livejournal.com]

Also, sometimes you get tired of your passions and what was once important no longer is. That's ok too.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

GOOD POINT.

[msmitti.livejournal.com]

so much truth.

[julii-wolfe.livejournal.com]

1. everything about that Loki set is AMAZING
2. Glad your back is better
3. Your body experiments have helped me recognize and stop condemning my love of carbs. I love noodles. LOVE THEM. will eat them until cows appear at my doorstep and make my home their own.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

NGL, if I didn't have such outrageous allergies/food intolerances, I would still be eating udon and pizza once in a while. Because food is delicious and completely depriving yourself of things that aren't actually poisonous is stupid.

[julii-wolfe.livejournal.com]

Sorry to have been insensitive in my last comment re: my love of carbs. I really was just amazed that carbs were helping you sleep. I respect the hell out of you and your journey through the world of food what you can eat.

:)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Nah, babe, I didn't take it that way at all! I honestly do not understand the people who are like THAT FOOD SHALL NEVER CROSS MY LIPS unless they've got an eating disorder or food intolerance or something that makes that food poison to them (physically or psychologically).

In other words, eat them noodles for me, gurl.

[julii-wolfe.livejournal.com]

all of them! I DEDICATE THEM TO YOU!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[zitronenhai.livejournal.com]

“It’s messing people up, this social pressure to “find your passion” and “know what it is you want to do”. It’s perfectly fine to just live your moments fully, and marvel as many small and large passions, many small and large purposes enter and leave your life. For many people there is no realization, no bliss to follow, no discovery of your life’s purpose. This isn’t sad, it’s just the way things are. Stop trying to find the forest and just enjoy the trees.” Sally Coulter

Holy shit. Holy shit. Holy shit.

...

Who is this great thinker, Sally Coulter, and why didn't anyone tell me this twenty years ago? The social pressure she is talking about causes SO MUCH suffering. It can even be lethal. What a liberating fucking thought, you know? To not have to worry about what color your fucking stupid imaginary parachute is? Thank you for posting that.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

You're welcome, bb.

Chop wood, carry water. Be here now.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

OMG, my favorite teacher in HS overseas had that on his chalkboard for the entire time he was there. SOOO TRUE.

Love Loki panels. You know I'll be lying in wait to use that, only I'm sure the first person to give me the opportunity will be my mum. Ha!

I celebrate you being relaxed about you! I like me some fruity carbs now and again, and I adore bananas with chocolate sauce carbs, think I'll eat some now.

[kazoogrrl.livejournal.com]

I don't have to worry about the color if my parachute because I plan on NEVER jumping out of a plane! ;)

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

That graphic... I love it! <3

I also <3 that your back is feeling better!! That's wonderful :D

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

YES. YES IT IS. =D

[kazoogrrl.livejournal.com]

Oh man, my mid life crisis REALLY needed to read those, thank you!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

You're welcome!

[msmitti.livejournal.com]

There is some quote (probably lots of them by lots of people) about greatness only being achieved by pursuing one thing single mindedly. Who wants to do only one thing?! I'll settle for good at the things I want to be good at and have them be widely interesting to me.

I'm sorry about the change in career thing, but I am glad that you figured it out now before jumping ship. Sometimes, it is good to assess what we have instead of looking for the stuff we want. *sigh* This is a lesson I really need to learn.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

greatness only being achieved by pursuing one thing single mindedly

Oh just fuck a bunch of that. NO THANK YOU.

[mckitterick.livejournal.com]

Yeah, sometimes I think I ought to get all single-minded about writing. Y'know, stop working on cars and seeing movies and shows and YouTube videos, do less hanging-out with people during my free time, stop fretting over making all my classes the most-awesome I can possibly make them, same for my Gunn Center work, and so on for my hobbies and other interests. Then I could focus exclusively on my writing career; if editorial interest in any indicator, I can publish pretty much everything I write.

But I'm not willing to give up the other things I love to do, and I worry about being poor trying to make a living just writing. So I try to be happy with just being really good at a lot of things, instead of great at one! It's tough when the message most artistic types get is that we're wasting our talent by not doing it more. But don't we also have a responsibility to be happy?

Food for thought!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

For me, my own personal happiness is more important than the potential happiness of some random asshole whose life may or may not be changed by whatever artistic endeavor I may or may not accomplish in my lifetime.

[msmitti.livejournal.com]

I definitely think personal happiness matters. Besides, what fuels creativity if you never get outside of such a narrow focus?

[mckitterick.livejournal.com]

Exactly!

[pamelonian.livejournal.com]

I saved this in Memories to help me when I feel guilty for "wasting" my summers. I can give myself permission for not doing Things. It really is pretty cool to have time to read, watch monster shows, pet my cats, cook, or even do nothing.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

YAY! Yes, I think reading, watching monster shows, petting cats, and doing nothing are all QUITE FINE uses of time.

[mckitterick.livejournal.com]

This is EXACTLY how I've spent the past two weeks since my HELL SPRING-SUMMER. It's difficult for me to let go like that and be okay with just hanging out or goofing off, but it's been a mental cleanser. Except for not remembering to do something important this morning, which got me all anxious to start tracking my to-do lists again. *sigh*

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

VACATION'S OVER

[mckitterick.livejournal.com]

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

A+ gif usage.

[mckitterick.livejournal.com]

[msmitti.livejournal.com]

this whole stream of gifs was awesome.

[sherwood21.livejournal.com]

Just very briefly - so glad to hear you got good sleep & that your back is feeling better.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you, bb! ME TOO.