How could I have possibly expected otherwise

[clevermanka]

This morning I threw out my back again.







I'd just finished with my warm-up on the rower and was doing my warm-up back squats with an empty bar. On the fifth squat, my back seized up. Exact same place as last time. Not as bad as before (THANK GOD), but bad enough that I'm in constant discomfort.

I was going to write up some sort of funny spin on this, but I don't have it in me.

I was already in a funk, anyway. Yesterday's mood did not improve, so I'm pretty sure this is something hormonal. Which means something's messed up somewhere. Yesterday's extra-bad abdominal swelling shoulda been a clue, I guess. Could be my female hormones, could be an autoimmune flare-up, could be a spike in cortisol from the stress of getting ready for Comic-Con, could be plain bad luck. Could be a mix of any of those things.

Regardless of the cause, I would not describe myself as raring to go for the week's adventures (not to mention the four-plus hour plane trip just to get there). I'm mentally and emotionally frustrated, and now I'm physically fucked up, too. I mean, you know, more than my normal levels of fucked up.



*This close* to crying, y'all. I've got that thing where I have a lump in my throat and I have to be careful when I talk or things come out all hitchy.

I'm sure it'll be fine and I'll have a great time, but right now I just want to crawl in a hole.



Oh yeah. Almost forgot. Today's Tumblr collection is Tuesday, July 22: Fighting.

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/meredith_/]

Ughhhhhhhhhh that SUCKS. Maybe the plane will make good bloody marys.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

GOOD IDEA. I usually refuse to pay for liquor on an airplane, but this might be an exception.

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

Damn damn damn, I am so sorry hon! Not good timing at all! :(
Whatever the cause is, I hope that it settles down in time for you to fly <3

Also, I enjoyed your Tumblr collection!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thanks, and thanks!

[chronovore.livejournal.com]

http://youtu.be/9mIBKifOOQQ

[saffronhare.livejournal.com]

WUT. I shall write a very stern letter, indeed.

Hope you're really able to get away from it all and enjoy the fuck out of your trip.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[write-out.livejournal.com]

Oh crap, so sorry to hear about your bac and other health woes. Are you able to go hide and have a good, quick cry or would that not help? Fingers crossed you are feeling better in time for your trip.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Crying never makes me feel better, perhaps alas. Man, I wish it did because I would just close my office door and have a good sob-fest.

Thank you for the well-wishes.

I'm leaving work as soon as I can today (I have some responsibilities that keep me here until just after noon), and then I'm off to see my chiropractor. Then Imma lie flat on my back the rest of the day and hope for the best.

[msmitti.livejournal.com]

I hope your chiro can help. I'm sorry for both the back issues and the hormonal issues. Crossing my fingers that things get better for you.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Back from the chiropractor. Feeling a bit better. Still worried about how I'm going to fare on the plane ride.

[write-out.livejournal.com]

Glad the chiro helped ease the pain. Still hoping it's better by the time you have to get on the plane.

[kazoogrrl.livejournal.com]

Fuckity fuck, this Will Not Do. Hoping for some chiro magic. We need you at full power so we can live SDCC vicariously through you (and so you have a fabulous time, of course)!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the well-wishes!

[hdsqrl.livejournal.com]

What the hell, Back??? Dammit, if it were at all possible, I'd vote you just left your back at home for this trip. Alas (and alack), I suppose it must go with you. GAH. (sending those mysterious Get Well Soon vibes your way, and hoping the trip ends up being absolutely marvelous!)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I WOULD SECOND THAT VOTE.

[zitronenhai.livejournal.com]

Ugguguuguugggggh!!!

I hope your back improves quickly and you have a GLORIOUS time at Comic-Con.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thank you, bb. ME TOO!

[sherwood21.livejournal.com]

:( *gentle hugs*

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

*much appreciated*

[seascribe.livejournal.com]

Aww, shit that sucks. *so many hugs*

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

This is what I get for trying to squeeze in one workout before leaving for vacation.

[chronovore.livejournal.com]

Sad for you. That sucks. I'm sure you'll whiz through SDCC effortlessly with the help of attitude and booze. Maybe not in that order.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Ah hahahahaha YES