Finnegan begin again

[clevermanka]

Okay. Time to pick myself up, dust myself off, and start over.

For those of you who haven't been around for the ten years or so that I've chronicled my health issues, this is a recurring theme. Fight, lose, fight, lose, fight, lose, get tired, fall down, get up, fight. Last week I fell down, this week I'm getting back up.



Whole9 has a good article on training for old people--something that's becoming more and more appropriate for me. I need to internalize the fact that careful and cautious treatment of my body is the way things are, now. And not just right now. Not "until I feel better" or "until I get my strength back." It's entirely likely that even if the folks at the Mayo Clinic solve everything and my health is back on track 100%, I won't be able to train as hard as I'd like. There's a common mentality of "context matters" in a lot of functional strength/health communities and it's an important one to remember. Returning to health at this point cannot undo the damage done by years of disease and un-wellness. I must learn to live with that, healthfully, without getting discouraged that I can't do what I want to do at the gym.

Last night I was throwing stuff in the hamper in the sewing room/dance studio and caught a look at myself in the big mirror. Tight jeans, tight tee shirt, boots, looking pudgier than I used to, and I had an epiphany about what I could do for this year's Halloween costume.



My boobs aren't quite that large, but they have gained mass with the rest of me and if I was ever going to pull this off, that time is now. The best news is all I need to buy for this is a low v-neck tee shirt and maybe a flat iron for my hair.

Comments

[theoneinblue.livejournal.com]

I have mentioned you are my body hero, yes? Sending positive energy your way as you get started again. 💗

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Aw, thanks, bb.

[saffronhare.livejournal.com]

That's a really insightful article. Whenever anybody gives me a hard time about arriving at TKD class about 40 minutes early so I'll have time to get warmed up (and hardly anybody does, anymore) I just reply, "I like not being injured."

Mark's Daily Apple had an interesting article not long ago about heart rate variability and its role as a (slightly more) objective measure of recovery and overload. Since I suck at self-evaluation of perceived effort, I might be looking into this.

That's a pretty smokin' Halloween look. Rock it!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I looked into heart rate variability stuff because I think it's hugely important. Many Olympic coaches use it to determine when and how their athletes train. If someone's HRV is outside of normal, they don't do heavy training that day, period. I've been hesitant to buy any of it, though, because I don't have a great track record with electronic heart monitors. They just don't read me very well.

And thank you! I think probably one in a hundred people are going to get the costume reference, but that one is gonna LOVE it.

[etcet.livejournal.com]

KILL! KILL!

[zitronenhai.livejournal.com]

Good for you, god damn it! *highfive*

Rise up and keep fighting.

Oh man. I know that's Tura Satana, but I don't think I'd be one of the ones to get it if I encountered you dressed as her. You're right, though, the people who will get it will be fucking delighted! =)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I don't think I'd be one of the ones to get it if I encountered you dressed as her.

I am a leeeeetle worried that it's awfully close to the way I dress normally and people won't recognize it as a costume. Hoping the exaggerated makeup (and cleavage) helps.

[zitronenhai.livejournal.com]

GO HARD on that eye make-up. HARD.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I'm trying to decide if it's worth it to use prosthetic make-up wax to cover my eyebrows and pencil on her wild arched brows.



I'm not cutting my bangs for this (god no) but I might be willing to play around with makeup to cover my eyebrows.

Edit: I have a heart necklace that almost exactly matches hers and this makes me so excited I can't even tell you.

[zitronenhai.livejournal.com]

Love it. I cannot wait for pictures! =D

[sherwood21.livejournal.com]

Definitely do the eyebrows. Can you pin your hair up to do fake bangs?

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

And now I have to google "making fake bangs."

[grnvixen.livejournal.com]

Book marking the article, thanks. Wish knew what I know now waay back when my thyroid issues raised it's ugly head. I don't think the medical professionals I saw then, who are not the ones I am seeing now, deliberatly mislead me but they definitely did not have a long-term perspective. Hope someone is researching all this for the next class.

And OMG, you are gonna look HOT for Halloween :)!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Overall, I think modern western doctors are worthless when it comes to something that cannot be easily solved with a single drug. They aren't taught to look at the patient as a whole. I'm banking on the possibility that the folks at the Mayo clinic are different.

And Thank You! =D

[the-lucky-nun.livejournal.com]

TOTALLY.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[splix.livejournal.com]

Holy freak, Tura Satana? That is going to be awesome. :D

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[orrin.livejournal.com]

I think you'd lose a lot without the Dan Brereton eyebrows. (Which, actually, Dan Brereton's are more accurately Tura Satana eyebrows, but I saw his stuff first.)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

I need to start practicing that makeup technique SOON.

[pointoforigin.livejournal.com]

You will rock that costume! Thanks for the article. The pictures, especially, were awesome and very inspiring. The Sparrowhawk is just getting back to calisthenic/resistance workouts, and it made a big impact on him.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Oh, good! So pleased to hear that!

[seascribe.livejournal.com]

You are a champion and a rolemodel. <3

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[pennswoods.livejournal.com]

Is this from Faster, Pussycat! Kill! Kill!

I have not seen this film but need to. Totally supporting this as an awesome damn Halloween costume. You will rock this!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Yes, it is! I'm going to see if the local arthouse video place has it to rent 'cos I need to see it again.

[mckitterick.livejournal.com]

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

[mckitterick.livejournal.com]

[gamera-spinning.livejournal.com]

You will rock the hell out of that costume. Brava!

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Thanks! Woooo!