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clevermanka ([personal profile] clevermanka) wrote2021-05-31 04:42 pm
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Monday

Fanart: Lollipop. On/off. Back hug! Another ghost story! Love bites. Dip. Princess carry.

Beautiful danger. Zhu Yilong plaguing the baby mimosas.

Dreamwidth: Having the REPLY link in the same place as BAN USER or UNSUBSCRIBE when I hover a nanosecond too long is NOT GREAT.

Good news: Dinner went well! Everyone liked the food (shrimp curry that I fleshed out last minute with some eggplants because the students each brought their significant other--whoops! cultural assumptions, my bad!--and chocolate bread with black cherry jam). Hilariously, what everyone really liked was the eggplant so next time I'll skip spending the money on shrimp. Of course the whole time I was cooking the eggplants all I could think of was this.

It was really fun! For me, anyway. I hope they had a good time. They liked the food, at least--everyone went back for seconds. It was an experience, though. I'd never been such an odd person out in so many ways--the oldest (by far! the oldest of them was born in 1990), the only single person, and the only white person. I felt as much an observer as participant in the conversations. The style of communication was very different than what I have with the (few) other people I hang out with in person and it was fascinating. Obviously the conversations were a little more superficial since I've previously hung out with only one of them but all four of them (especially the two significant others) regularly spent time on their phones, just, like, scrolling until a topic of interest came up. But when they joined back in, it was obvious they'd been paying attention because they'd reference what other people were saying. And I can do that, myself, but I've never been in a group of people doing it. I wouldn't want someone to do that in a one-on-one conversation, but in a group setting It was lovely, actually. Eased the pressure of my instinctive need as a host to keep conversation rolling. They stayed for five hours, long after the food ran out, so I feel like they were enjoying themselves?

Bad news: I feel like shit today! Like wow I am completely wiped out and I'm hungry, but my stomach isn't happy with anything I put in it (not even broth and rice). I took a nap at 11am. I wasn't even able to deal with having music on until 4pm. Checking my old entries, I haven't made a fatigue-related post (beyond my usual state of always being tired in some way) since March 31. That's actually pretty good! But other than my short daily walks which have been on hold for a week with all the rain, I haven't exactly been real active these past couple months. So that doesn't give me a lot of information, but I'm noting it here for future data points.

Speaking of, the weather is not great, and that could be a factor, at least with this morning's headache.

So it was a fun time and I loved feeding people again but wow, at the cost of an entire day--not sure how often I'll be able to afford that indulgence.