Tracking mood swings

[clevermanka]

Last night was an up. That was great. And over.

I woke at 5:30 this morning with a huge weight of inexplicable dread on my chest. I thought a physical and mental combo activity would help, so I started to rearrange my sewing room. Yes, again. Some of my ancient wire shelves broke and I'm trying to find a solution that doesn't involve spending money. This morning's solution = Not working.

Two hours and change later, I'm looking at this wreck of a room wondering what the hell I was thinking.

I found some more Fetish things that didn't make it to the Humane Society on the first trip, so that was kind of rough. Her cat carrier still had an old tee shirt in it. I'm trying to decide if it's worth it to go ahead and have a cry. I'm pretty sure that it wouldn't help, though, and I'd just wind up with itchy eyes and a stuffed-up nose on top of all the other shit.

I'd love to be able to start on some Wellbutrin right now. Sweet Jesus. This is just plain annoying.

And hey, if anyone wants a really nice cat carrier, let me know asap.

Comments

[e4q.livejournal.com]

that's bad timing. still, drugs don't always help anyway. it might be worth treating your heartache as pain and doing pacing - when you are doing something sedentary move around for ten minutes for every hour, and when you are moving around rest for ten minutes for every hour, or something of your own devising - when driven by grief it can be easy to get into a fixed activity or inactivity and breaking out of either is good for the mind. it is quite hard to do, and it is very personal and depends on your own lifestyle and terrain, but i find it very useful. the dog's needs help me to do it sort of organically, but i used to use a timer and probably will again after the op.

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Interesting! What a good idea, under any conditions. I'll give it a try...after my nap. =D

[e4q.livejournal.com]

good girl.

let me know how you get on.