clevermanka | A new goal

This is a very interesting and very NSFW commentary on bodies. From the description: Illusions of the Body was made to tackle the supposed norms of what we think our bodies are supposed to look like. Most of us realize that the media displays only the prettiest photos of people, yet we compare ourselves to those images. We never get to see those photos juxtaposed against a picture of that same person looking unflattering. That contrast would help a lot of body image issues we as a culture have.

It's a fitting concept for me as I finish what ~~could be seen as~~ I'm addressing as the failed goal of getting myself healthier in 2013. I learned a lot this year. I'm muscularly stronger than I was at the beginning of the year. I'm more accepting of my imperfect body. But am I overall healthier? Definitely not. I've had occasional upward spikes of health, but overall the trend since 2012 has most definitely been downward. The swelling issues are consistent and the Bad Days (where my belly winds up sticking out farther than my boobs) happen at least once a week instead of a couple times a month. My energy levels have more spikes (upward as well as downward). The insomnia is most certainly worse. So yeah, that goal? Not achieved. Can't say I didn't do my best, though.

For 2014, I'm documenting the minutia. I'll keep a journal with the following for every day:
Bedtime
Waking time
If I took all my supplements
If I ate anything not Whole30, note it
Energy levels for morning and afternoon
Type of exercise

Don't worry, I won't be posting all this on LJ.

I'm also doing a Whole30 for January and am considering doing a year-long Whole30 process where I do thirty days on, then take one day off, thirty days on, etc. It sounds daunting, but eating like I do now would have sounded daunting when I was still eating a standard diet.

So here's to my 2014 goal of Becoming More Informed and Educated about my body. If that goal isn't achieved, I have only myself to blame.

A new goal

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