It’s much harder when it’s all your call

[clevermanka]

Yesterday's responses to my call for hysterectomy stories was overwhelming (in a good way) and incredibly helpful. I was touched by the care and compassion of friends and complete strangers, who shared intimate details about their experiences. I fucking love the internet.

This morning I was lying in bed, checking in with my body. I do it every morning. It's my pre-flight check to make sure nothing is so wrong that I might not make it through the workday. I...have never typed that out before, and now that I've done the equivalent of saying it aloud, I realize how bizarre it is. Who does shit like that? Me, I guess. Anyway. I was checking in and made myself aware of the near-constant slight abdominal pressure I've known about for a long time (at least a year, perhaps more). I always thought it was gas or something not sitting right or maybe I just needed to pee. It felt like menstrual cramps, but surely I wouldn't have menstrual cramps if I wasn't at that part of my cycle, right? Lying there this morning, I realized/admitted to myself, that's probably the giant fibroid. Gross.

I don't often have regrets, but I am very much regretting not wearing tights under my skirt today. I am freezing. I've got a lot going on this weekend, but hauling out the winter wardrobe on Saturday is a must. I don't have a record of when I switched out wardrobes last year, but I think this might be a record for lateness thereof. Hurray for boots, sweaters, and tights! I am not a fan of cold weather, but I least I enjoy cold weather fashion.

Here's a job I would've been really good at, y'all. But that would also mean living in a big city, so...no. Ah well! Last night at Henna Time I sold hdsqrl and radiantmephit on Hamilton, and that was great. I also started following Lin-Manuel Miranda on Twitter because he is fucking hilarious and I'm starting to develop such a crush on him.



This has been in my head all week so I'm sharing it with you, too. God damn I love this song so much.

Comments

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

PS. How I wish men still dressed like that!
Hell.. I'D dress like that, if I could without looking ridiculous today.
(Have I mentioned that I miss R, who used to occasionally dress like that, or something similar?)

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

Honestly, I am considering incorporating modified waistcoats and frock coats if/when my body size/swelling ever settles down.

R did have some wonderful fashion sense!

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

He did. There are times I miss him terribly, for so many reasons. He truly was my Best Match Ever. *deep dramatic sigh*

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

It's sad that he had so many Troubles.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

Very Sad. Last I spoke with him, he's on Lithium permanently after two suicide attempts. We have a future pact for a dirty weekend once we're both widowed, LOL

[clevermanka.livejournal.com]

That is HILARIOUS (ETA the dirty weekend not the Lithium, obvs). Please give him my regards next time you speak to him.

[redheadfae.livejournal.com]

Of course (to both sentiments).