(Not)Dancing and misplaced guilt

A few weeks ago, Zada scheduled dancers for this evening at Aladdin Café. I don't think I responded to the initial email because I wasn't sure if I could make it, what with Faire being the ultimate time suck and all. Yesterday I wrote her to confirm that I wouldn't be able to dance. I was just too busy. She emailed back that she was down to only about four dancers and isn't sure that's enough to carry the performance.

This irritates me on so many levels.

1) It's no surprise that she's losing dancers due to her unprofessional behavior and generally disagreeable temper.
2) The restaurant patrons deserve to have quality dancers, but the restaurant isn't willing to pay (although I want to confirm that conversation with Mohammed).
3) She assumed I'd be dancing, even though I have resigned from the troupe.
4) I love dancing at the restaurant and would be happy to perform with the other girls if I had the time.
5) I'm letting myself feel guilty for something that is not my problem.

sigh

Dammit.

Oh, and: ( Cut for my abrasive personality )