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Finnegan begin again
Oct. 9th, 2014 09:19 amOkay. Time to pick myself up, dust myself off, and start over.
For those of you who haven't been around for the ten years or so that I've chronicled my health issues, this is a recurring theme. Fight, lose, fight, lose, fight, lose, get tired, fall down, get up, fight. Last week I fell down, this week I'm getting back up.
Whole9 has a good article on training for old people--something that's becoming more and more appropriate for me. I need to internalize the fact that careful and cautious treatment of my body is the way things are, now. And not just right now. Not "until I feel better" or "until I get my strength back." It's entirely likely that even if the folks at the Mayo Clinic solve everything and my health is back on track 100%, I won't be able to train as hard as I'd like. There's a common mentality of "context matters" in a lot of functional strength/health communities and it's an important one to remember. Returning to health at this point cannot undo the damage done by years of disease and un-wellness. I must learn to live with that, healthfully, without getting discouraged that I can't do what I want to do at the gym.
Last night I was throwing stuff in the hamper in the sewing room/dance studio and caught a look at myself in the big mirror. Tight jeans, tight tee shirt, boots, looking pudgier than I used to, and I had an epiphany about what I could do for this year's Halloween costume.
My boobs aren't quite that large, but they have gained mass with the rest of me and if I was ever going to pull this off, that time is now. The best news is all I need to buy for this is a low v-neck tee shirt and maybe a flat iron for my hair.
For those of you who haven't been around for the ten years or so that I've chronicled my health issues, this is a recurring theme. Fight, lose, fight, lose, fight, lose, get tired, fall down, get up, fight. Last week I fell down, this week I'm getting back up.
Whole9 has a good article on training for old people--something that's becoming more and more appropriate for me. I need to internalize the fact that careful and cautious treatment of my body is the way things are, now. And not just right now. Not "until I feel better" or "until I get my strength back." It's entirely likely that even if the folks at the Mayo Clinic solve everything and my health is back on track 100%, I won't be able to train as hard as I'd like. There's a common mentality of "context matters" in a lot of functional strength/health communities and it's an important one to remember. Returning to health at this point cannot undo the damage done by years of disease and un-wellness. I must learn to live with that, healthfully, without getting discouraged that I can't do what I want to do at the gym.
Last night I was throwing stuff in the hamper in the sewing room/dance studio and caught a look at myself in the big mirror. Tight jeans, tight tee shirt, boots, looking pudgier than I used to, and I had an epiphany about what I could do for this year's Halloween costume.
My boobs aren't quite that large, but they have gained mass with the rest of me and if I was ever going to pull this off, that time is now. The best news is all I need to buy for this is a low v-neck tee shirt and maybe a flat iron for my hair.