My first day off the AIP and I decided to have for breakfast: Tuna Salad and a cup of tea. Tuna salad because MOTHER FUCKING MAYONNAISE* YO and the tea is Tulsi Vanilla tea because VANILLA BEANS YO. Halfway into it, I have kind of an unhappy tum. I don't know if this is because I'm slumping over the table, though, because it's kind of cold in here and I don't want to get up to put on a wrap.
BLAH.
So I'm taking a break from the food and writing this up. Aaaaand I should probably go get a damn wrap.
Okay. Got a wrap. Let's see if sitting up straight and getting warm helps with the stomach cramping. UPDATE: It didn't.
I emailed my friend Melissa Joulwan about my thyroid numbers and my decision to abandon the AIP. During our conversation I asked her thoughts on reintegrating weight lifting now that my cortisol levels aren't sky high (Dr. Khosh said the morning one even looked a little low and it wouldn't hurt to boost it up a bit, so lifting weight would be great). She had some good words on the subject (she always does--she's a very smart woman). What struck me the most was her suggestion to stop thinking of it as Exercise, and instead to think of it as Activity. With the idea of Exercise comes a lot of social conditioning that includes the idea that I should be sweating, breathing hard, feeling my heart pound, etc. And even though my adrenals are getting better, it's not a good idea to put them under heavy stress yet. So those notions of EXERCISE aren't something I should entertain. Instead, I need to think about incorporating resistance training as an ACTIVITY, taking each movement slowly, moving purposefully through the full range of motion, and pausing between each movement to regulate my breath and body. My reaction to this was "In other words, treat weight lifting as if it was a yoga session."
With this information in mind, I'm going to approach Andrew with the following schedule: Body weight movements for strength-building on a Monday-Wednesday-Friday schedule with supervised heavy lifting at the CrossFit box on Saturdays. I'll continue my morning yoga, where Sundays, Tuesdays and Thursdays are designated restorative posture days, and (conveniently) Sundays, Tuesday and Thursday evenings I have yoga class.
This all sounds very good on (digital) paper. It's going to take some discipline to apply it. I am not good at maintaining a schedule that requires me toexercise do activity (other than cooking dinner and relaxing) after work in the evenings. But I don't want to give up my morning yoga, and I can't fit both yoga and body weight resistance training into my morning schedule. Also, it's easy to do yoga quietly (
mckitterick isn't up that early--or if he is, he's not happy about it), whereas lifting my body around to quiet boop-dee-doop yoga music does not inspire appropriate energetic effort. So the more demanding ACTIVITY must happen after I get home from the office.
I can do it if I want to do it, though. Fitness is a matter of priority.
And my stomach still feels weird, so I'm going to put the rest of this tuna salad in the fridge and make some peppermint tea. *sigh*
Update: Oh, hey. I just learned of KU's basketball loss on Facebook. First: Is anyone really surprised? KU always chokes, y'all. Second: I'm so relieved the loss happened on a Friday night because the angst and shirt-rending will have mostly dissipated by the time I return to the office on Monday morning.
Update 2: I forgot to report Dr. Khosh's reaction to my thyroid numbers. His basic reaction was "How are you doing this?" Because really, I feel okay! He said he'd only seen two patients with TSH numbers that high, and I'm one of them. The other woman had such incredible fatigue symptoms that she couldn't even drive herself to her appointment. So hey, I'm doing something right here. The only thing I can think of is the super clean eating. Paleo diet FTW, in my case.
* Because I'm not allergic to duck eggs, and they had some at the Merc (supplies of duck eggs are spotty)
BLAH.
So I'm taking a break from the food and writing this up. Aaaaand I should probably go get a damn wrap.
Okay. Got a wrap. Let's see if sitting up straight and getting warm helps with the stomach cramping. UPDATE: It didn't.
I emailed my friend Melissa Joulwan about my thyroid numbers and my decision to abandon the AIP. During our conversation I asked her thoughts on reintegrating weight lifting now that my cortisol levels aren't sky high (Dr. Khosh said the morning one even looked a little low and it wouldn't hurt to boost it up a bit, so lifting weight would be great). She had some good words on the subject (she always does--she's a very smart woman). What struck me the most was her suggestion to stop thinking of it as Exercise, and instead to think of it as Activity. With the idea of Exercise comes a lot of social conditioning that includes the idea that I should be sweating, breathing hard, feeling my heart pound, etc. And even though my adrenals are getting better, it's not a good idea to put them under heavy stress yet. So those notions of EXERCISE aren't something I should entertain. Instead, I need to think about incorporating resistance training as an ACTIVITY, taking each movement slowly, moving purposefully through the full range of motion, and pausing between each movement to regulate my breath and body. My reaction to this was "In other words, treat weight lifting as if it was a yoga session."
With this information in mind, I'm going to approach Andrew with the following schedule: Body weight movements for strength-building on a Monday-Wednesday-Friday schedule with supervised heavy lifting at the CrossFit box on Saturdays. I'll continue my morning yoga, where Sundays, Tuesdays and Thursdays are designated restorative posture days, and (conveniently) Sundays, Tuesday and Thursday evenings I have yoga class.
This all sounds very good on (digital) paper. It's going to take some discipline to apply it. I am not good at maintaining a schedule that requires me to
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I can do it if I want to do it, though. Fitness is a matter of priority.
And my stomach still feels weird, so I'm going to put the rest of this tuna salad in the fridge and make some peppermint tea. *sigh*
Update: Oh, hey. I just learned of KU's basketball loss on Facebook. First: Is anyone really surprised? KU always chokes, y'all. Second: I'm so relieved the loss happened on a Friday night because the angst and shirt-rending will have mostly dissipated by the time I return to the office on Monday morning.
Update 2: I forgot to report Dr. Khosh's reaction to my thyroid numbers. His basic reaction was "How are you doing this?" Because really, I feel okay! He said he'd only seen two patients with TSH numbers that high, and I'm one of them. The other woman had such incredible fatigue symptoms that she couldn't even drive herself to her appointment. So hey, I'm doing something right here. The only thing I can think of is the super clean eating. Paleo diet FTW, in my case.
* Because I'm not allergic to duck eggs, and they had some at the Merc (supplies of duck eggs are spotty)